Why should he?
Chapter.36 Inner turmoil
Sinta still listened to whatever Nisa said, from the words that came out just like that, making Sinta sure that Nisa had loved her ex-husband very much.
It seemed like the wounds his ex had incised were so scarred and difficult to disappear from his heart.
“Can I ask you something?” Nisa nodded.
“What do you feel right now, after telling me everything?”
“Entah mbak, there may be a little relief because I share it with mbak.. but only a little, sorry mbak.. I am also confused by this inner turmoil, too,
For me, that betrayal was fatal, even though this whole part of me still wanted to survive, but another piece of my heart refused! I can't be selfish to let that child be born without Dad, so I decided to cancel our marriage!”
“Nisa.. Maybe I have never been in your position.but even if you maintain your relationship to get to a more serious level, you will actually feel things that are far beyond your reason, I think your decision to end the relationship is right! because what.. because you will feel fear of repeated pain, lost trust and misgivings always overshadow your relationship!
indeed, everyone has the right to change and get a second chance! but it does not rule out the person will repeat his mistake right?” answer Sinta.
Nisa threw her gaze in another direction, and the tears she had been holding back from earlier, escaped just like that. Everyone has a second chance, but he also has the opportunity to do the same thing in the future. If only he was not responsible for the mistakes he had made with Desi. It does not rule out the possibility of all that will also happen to him.
‘No! I've managed to walk this far, and release Yudi mas on the right person, don't be weak Nisa.. Please do not be weak.fight for yourself, fight for the smiles of your mother and grandfather.. Come on. You can do it.. Remove the wound from there, O God. Let me also feel happy!’ lirih Nisa with her eyes closed.
“Nisa...” call Sinta. Nisa flinched, and woke up from her daydream.
“maaf mbak Sinta.”
“Nothing... What do you feel now?”
“I realized one thing mbak, seeing the current condition of mas Yudi, honestly I had faltered. But the words mbak just made me realize not to act like that, my decision was right, my decision was right, maybe I have not been sincere with what happened to me first, until I still feel that fear.I will try slowly mbak!” Sinta smiled at Nisa's words.
“When someone gets excruciating pain, there is a good thing behind it, for example, it could be that God has prepared someone or a soul mate who is much better than Yudi, wiser, more able to appreciate you as his woman, and just enough with you a!” Sinta took Nisa's hand and grasped her.
“Nisa, do not limp yourself to those who do not deserve you.
“There are many more mbak.. I am more relieved now, is there any further consultation session?”
“How do you want it, whenever you need it, I am ready and always can,” replied Sinta with a fluffy smile.
“Ya already, then I say yes mbak.”
“OK.. be careful on the road.” Nisa nodded then walked out,
“Nisa.. My words just now, have nothing to do with my relationship with Ilyas yes.. hopefully you can be happy and find the right person,” Sinta said before Nisa actually came out of her room. Nisa reviews her smile, she is quite impressed with Sinta treating herself, she does not force herself to accept Ilyas because they are cousins.
When Nisa came out of Sinta's room, Ilyas was still faithfully waiting there while playing a cell phone.
“Mas?” call Nisa slowly.
Ilyas looked up and saw his woman was done.
“It's done?”
“Already..mbak Sinta did not come out because there was someone else waiting for a consultation with him,”
“Nothing..we go home now?”
“Bby.”
“Emm, New.. How are you feeling now?” ask Ilyas carefully.
While Nisa feels misbehaved, she thinks if Ilyas asks her a counter feeling for her because of Ilyas' statement last night.
“Ma-ksud her?”
“Kok nervous anyway? I just nanya..how did you feel after meeting Sinta? no other means Nis,”
“Oohh.. sorry mas..I thought_”.
“About last night?” Nisa was embarrassed.
“Do not discuss if you are not ready Nis. I will never make you, we can still make friends first before starting to get married,” Ilyas reply gently.
Nisa silently did not answer, but she remembered Mila's words, that they were currently close.
“But instead of mas again close to mbak Mila ya?”
“Mila?” Nisa nodded.
“Mila who's the new kid?”
“Iya.”
“Who said?”
“At the cafe again rame about it mas,”
“Yeah Nis, since when did the gossip spread?”
“Lack of knowing exactly when, but Mbak Mila also story really, if mas often send messages to him,” answered plain Nisa.
Ilyas laughed at Nisa's answer, for some reason he felt like Nisa was jealous, whether it was just her feelings, or indeed that was the truth.
“Kok even kekeh mas, seriously loh,”
“The phone number I don't have, how can I send a message to him,”
“Yes, that's your business.”
“Terus you yourself he said again deket same Johan?”
“Ya.. she has expressed her heart anyway, but I still consider her an ordinary friend!” now replace the silent Ilyas, it is undeniable that at this time he feels jealous, his heart like doused with hot water, very painful.
Nisa glanced at Ilyas, there was no sign of this man beside her to answer her, ‘What mas Yas jealous?’
“You have dinner first, or go straight home Nis?” Ilyas asked, Nisa saw the watch in her hand, the clock had shown at 9 pm, it was impossible if she had to eat dinner again.
“Go home soon, I'm afraid of being home on waiting, it's 9 o'clock too,”
“OK!” Ilyas silenced again, making Nisa so wrong. I want to ask but confused what to ask. Until the end when entering the housing complex pakdenya, Ilyas accidentally hit the sleeping police and it suddenly made Nisa shocked. Ilyas looked at Nisa as well as vice versa, their eyes met.
“You okay?”