You Are Special
Thirty Nine

MIKAYLA POV

"You rest, you haven't fully recovered. Brother's downstairs if you need anything" Raymond said as soon as we got to my room.

"I want us to talk, brother"

Brother Raymond smiled. When I hurt her, she can still smile warmly like this to me.

"We can talk later, all you need now is rest" said Raymond softly.

I shook my head.

"I'm already okay. I'm fine, brother."

"Well, tell me what you want to say, honey, hmm..?" brother Raymond led me into the room. We sat on the side of my bed.

"I'm sorry" I said without daring to look into Raymond's face. I bowed while linking my fingers.

"I'm sorry for what?" brother Raymond raised my face to look at him. She smiles.

I'm the one who hurt this man.

"I betrayed my brother. I knew my brother must have been hurt and it must have been very painful" I started crying out of sadness, fear, shame, and disappointment towards myself mixed into one.

"It's a hypocrisy if you say you don't feel hurt but you also have to think about your position. Brother knows it's happening out of your control. You also definitely don't want that to happen. And besides, you've been wrong and lied to you" Raymond wiped the tears that ran down my face.

"I heard what my brother said. My sister never fucked him. But look at me, I've even slept with a stranger who's none other than your own best friend. Brother must be disgusted with me. I'm despicable and dirty."

"Hey.see dear brother, what sister looks disgusted at you and what a dirty and mean word. Brother doesn't like to hear what you just said" brother Raymond cupped my face and stroked my hair.

I looked at him, he smiled.

"It would look selfish if I asked my brother to stay with me and always be by my side."

Raymod's brother chuckled.

"Your fiancee's brother is dear, so it's only natural that you're with him and always by your side."

I threw myself into his arms.

"Never leave me brother."

"No dear, brother will never leave you. You know you love you so much, and you'll never stop loving you until you ask your sister to leave."

I shook my head.

"I'll never ask you to leave" I said sure.

I'm trying to convince myself that my decision wasn't wrong. I chose to stay beside him. From the beginning it was like this. I belong to him and he is mine.

"really?" asked Raymod, letting go of his arms and looking at me deeply.

I nodded steadily.

"Yakin.." asked again with a ignorant smile. But I know from his tone he's not kidding.

"Aren't you doubting me?"

"Rest, brother will ask Keyra and Nayla to come with you" Raymond's brother moved from his place and led me to settle down.

I know Brother Raymond deliberately switched topics. Maybe Raymond needs some time to think, too. It's only natural that he doubted. Which man does not doubt if his fiancee has already slept with another man.

Brother Raymond kissed me on the forehead before I left.

I took a heavy breath back thinking about what Felix said in the hospital. If it's true then I'm pregnant what should I do. It is true that Raymond still accepts me.

In the midst of my last daydream I fell asleep. I don't know how long I slept. But as soon as I woke up I saw Keyra and Nayla. I sat down and leaned my head at the end of the bed.

"Hi. have you been a long time?" I asked with a typical hoarse voice to wake up.

"It's only been two hours" Nayla replied indifferently while playing her phone.

"Said Raymond you passed out and were taken to the hospital, you're fine" asked Keyra as she dried her hair. She just finished her shower.

I just nodded

"Where's Raymond?" my many.

"Just got home, Roland also came to visit you. It's just that you look so slumbering that Raymond forbade waking you up" Keyra replied.

"You look fucked up, what's wrong with you?" nayla asked without turning her gaze away from the phone.

I fell silent and lowered.

"If you're not ready to tell a story don't have to be forced" Keyra said as if understanding what I think.

I looked up and shed my tears.

"I'm not a virgin"

"Babeh.."

"Welcome to the club"

I got a different reaction from both of my friends. Something that is not surprising to me.

"Nay,.." reproves Keyra

"can't you see the situation. This is Mika Nay, not me or you who think it's normal" he continued.

Keyra looked at me and hugged me.

"If it hurts you better not tell me" Keyra rubbed my back and calmed down.

"I'm sure it's not Raymond" Nayla guessed.

My tears spilled as soon as I heard Nayla's words. Keyra took off her arms and glared at Nayla.

"Sorry" he said slowly.

"Felix"

Keyra and Nayla were suffocated in shock as soon as I mentioned Felix's name.

"How can..?" Keyra lost her words.

"Noura gave me stimulant drugs"

"What.." they shouted together.

"Basic******fucking. Had to be yesterday we didn't send him to the hospital. That woman we should have sent to the grave" Nayla rode apoplexy.

"Did Raymond know it" asked Keyra.

"Of course Noura planned it, Raymond would know. You didn't see his face was messed up either" Nayla answered Keyra's question.

"Then how do you relate to Raymond" asked Keyra again.

"just fine. He asked me to forget about it, but I know he was disappointed and hurt and you know Key I feel so despicable" my sob again.

Keyra hugged me.

"Relax, Raymond may be disappointed and that's normal, but I'm sure his love for you is greater than his disappointment" Keyra was always able to calm me down with her words.

"Then what about Felix?" ask Nayla again.

I let go of my arms and Keyra.

"Raymond beat him up, his handsome face was no longer shaped because Roland also beat him up . And you ahu Nay Felix told me his feelings for Raymond's brother. The man really wants to die at Raymond's feet."

"Felix must love you a lot" Nayla said.

"Lucky you're loved by two handsome men"

I smiled wryly at Nayla's words just now.

"Then you're alone, how do you feel?" Nayla took my hand.

"I don't know. But from the beginning I was Raymond's fiancee so now and in the future it will be the same. We'll be married soon."

"Do you feel okay?" Nayla looks at me.

I'm shaking.

"I don't understand my feelings, I can't explain them. But right now I don't want to think about it. I've made a very fatal mistake I don't want to make Raymond's brother disappointed again and I decide I'll always be with him."

"Don't just because you think about other people's feelings you're sacrificing your own feelings" Keyra said.

"What do you mean say like that Key, don't get into it and make his heart so confused. Raymond has given up a lot and is already heartened so Ayrin should have stayed in place, which is on Raymond's side"

"I'm confused about you, Nay, sometimes you support him with Felix and now you support him with Raymond" Keyra said.

"Now the conditions are different, Raymond sacrificed a lot here Key."

"Don't forget Raymond also lied to Ayrin and betrayed her" Keyra replied.

"Can you please leave my room and leave me alone."

I drove out Keyra and Nayla who made me feel dizzy hearing their voices clashing.

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