You Forgot Me Your Queen
The Fallen Obligation

The date started to change quickly, and on this day Mas Hendri said he was going home, because he had sent me some messages before, but I did not reply at all.

I decided to stay home, I prepared everything, as I was to be a devoted wife to her husband. Not because of love, but more because I don't want my sin to increase, but I don't know God who judges me.

The sound of the car has filled my yard, yes it must be Mas Hendri. Who else?

"So, Dad's home? " he asked Reyhan to me, his face was as happy as it heard the sound of his father's car parked in the yard.

I smiled and then nodded.

And little May also clapped her hands cheerfully to hear that her first love had come.

"Assynogaal?" mas Hendri said as he opened the door, and was immediately greeted by warm hugs from my children. Mas Hendri held May and went inside, while the other hand was against the luggage, which I believe was the hand he bought for his children. It may be there for me, but I don't know like it I don't want to accept it.

'It turns out you still know yourself, by not bringing that woman back here'

I smiled at everything but when our eyes met, the smile faded, changing with my face that began to sour when I saw the face again.

Hendri put his luggage on the sofa. Then I shook his hand in disdain, as he was about to kiss my forehead, as soon as I could avoid it, I was so reluctant to have physical contact with him again, for it was still the same reason I could not accept him now that he was two. Be with him.

And it will be a wound that is always wet, and does not know when it will dry.

Mas Hendri turned nervous, I also got clumsy, but Reyhan's babble, diverted it all.

"Dad bring what? " he asked with his face looking up towards Mas Hendri.

"Bring Reyhan's favorite snack with May dong. There is a new toy for you too. "reply Mas Hendri then he shook May's body and damaged Reyhan's head.

"Yeyehhh." said Reyhan excitedly.

Is that all you guys are happy?

I smiled again at him. Seeing them happy is my real goal.

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Today Mas Hendri really spends his time with the kids. But not with me, I even went to the store to avoid it, after all I have prepared meals, the room has been cleaned, especially? The yakan?

As usual I cleaned up our former dinner, after I finished I immediately rushed to the room to rest.

When I was changing clothes suddenly someone opened the door.

Astagfirullahal Adzim's...

I immediately put on my clothes in a hurry when that entered was my husband. I was so upset about it.

"Why such a rush Kal? " he asked and approached me.

"That has nothing to do with you, and I told you your room is no longer here." I replied by not looking at her face.

"Why? " he asked again, further cutting our distance.

Wh why? He asked, not feeling guilty about me?

"Kal. I gripped my pajamas firmly.

"Can't we do it again Kal? " he continued, grabbing my finger, and as quickly as possible I brushed it off.

I wrote it for a while and I saw his eyes pleading.

I swallowed my mouth rough.

"You need to know Mas, I think my duty to serve you has now fallen, since you decided other women also have that duty to you" I said with restraining trembling in the chest.

"Kalisa." he called, he started to duck and plead under my feet. He grabbed my finger again, and this time I didn't refuse with any feelings. He sobbed and continued to beg me for forgiveness. But can everything change the turn of time that has passed? And the answer is no!!!

I tried to cover it all up, that I was really sorry and unbearable for him, but my mind again chose selfish. Doesn't he have to me too? Didn't he hurt me too? Wasn't he the one who made me like this? Makes everything seem dead.

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Mas Hen 😬