You Forgot Me Your Queen
My heart is relieved

3 months later...

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Three months have passed, it means that my Iddah period is almost over, I have experienced my difficult times very favourably, because my feelings are no longer depressed, my heart is so relieved to have taken it off and given it to others. But what became my pain all this time was only Reyhan's cry, occasionally I caught my son was sobbing, immersing his face into the pillow, the face that was always cheerful it looked gloomy, glum, and not as bright as usual, but Alhamdulillah... As time went on, everything improved, my children were able to condition their hearts again, able to accept my decision first to ask for separation from their father. Mas Hendri's.

Not infrequently because Hendri asked me and the children, even he called me many times but I never picked up, I just sent him a message that his two children were fine, he said, why call if it's just news he wants to ask? And about the living, he also did not forget. Already 2 times he transferred money to my account, although the amount is not much, I accept it all, because I do not want to hinder him from the responsibility to support his two children.

My father and mother only stayed a week at my house at that time, because my father did take care of the plantation, he was not happy if he had to leave the plantation too long to our brother. Be now only me, May and Reyhan. Without an adult male figure in our house, my father initially asked me to return home, but I refused his request. After all, my house and shop are here, God willing... With that shop I can support Reyhan and May. A decent life, just like before I got divorced from Hendri.

For now, and I don't know when I haven't opened my heart yet. Although I did not deny several times Rama gave his attention to me, even for my two children. May was sick, she was shivering at midnight, I didn't know who to ask for help because I wasn't good enough to drive a car yet, even contacting Astri was impossible, so I was forced to interrupt Rama's rest schedule, I contacted him and with open arms he was ready to extend that help. In fact, he also often comforted Reyhan, once a week to take my children for a walk, and for the umpteenth time, I thank God, Rey and May did not reject Rama, Rama, both of them looked very happy because there was attention on them. Although the time at the beginning of the third encounter, Rey a little tired, but Rama did not mind it, he instead continued to try to persuade Reyhan, and finally Reyhan who increasingly wanted to know.

Mas Rama did recently move to this area, he said he opened his company branch near here. So that's the reason why now it's easy to meet me. Rela sacrificed her time is already narrow take care of the company by taking my children away even if just to see the zoo or go to lunch at the chicken restaurant.

Tin...

The sound of the car horn ripped me from the long daydream, about my flashback in the past 3 months, I snapped the curtains of my room to see who was coming. I smiled, as it turned out, Rama. Must be picking up May and Reyhan because it's Sunday.

I took the time to look at the reflection of my face on the dresser, feeling that there was nothing lacking I began to step out of the house. Walk towards the gate that I still lock, because before I go out then the gate will always be in that condition.

Rama's car went into the yard, and he quickly came out, giving a bright smile, as bright as the sun this morning.

"Assynogaal?" He spoke softly, a voice that sometimes made my heart tremble erratically.

Astarghfirullah... No, I'm not ready to accept love anymore.

"Mosur." Reply with a thin smile.

I allowed Rama to sit on the chair on the porch of the house, where May and Reyhan waited as usual.

"Dorr."

I rubbed my chest a little surprised by the nosy behavior of May and Reyhan, even my little daughter was able to follow her brother as it turned out.

"Sister, adek, make you shocked." I said while pretending to suck.

Both of them laughed, crisp as if without any burden.

"Om Rama has come?" Ask Reyhan. And I nodded, no matter what magic was used in Rama until my children felt at home once playing with him. The sparkle of sadness in Reyhan's eyes had now disappeared, if May, my little daughter was just following along with her brother.

The two boys immediately ran out without waiting for my permission again, they had been danced before Rama mas came, even they had breakfast, I was also willing to take Rama mas breakfast together, he said, but he said he had breakfast too, so yasudahlah...

I came back to let go of my two favorite children, because I never came, afraid that many neighbors were not nice to hear. Moreover, only the four of us left, unless there was Astri, maybe I came along was no problem. But now Astri is busy taking care of his clothing store, yes he opened a small shop at home. He said he worked at the company.

"Kal, this time it's coming." Pinta mas Rama as soon as I'm standing next to May.

"You mean, I'm coming with you guys?" I asked to make sure, and Rama nodded, even with Reyhan and May who seemed to have compact wanted me to go.

I held on for a while, I didn't think I deserved to go with another man, I didn't want to have much gossip about me, just like this they've been guessing a lot, especially if until I am right to go, ah better later, there is still plenty of time to go together with the three of them.

"Sorry, I can't come. I hope you understand." I said carefully, I saw Rama nod, but he smiled understanding my situation.

"Rey, May, the streets are the same as before. Later the same new nda, nda promise for later nda will always meet Rey with May streets." I rubbed my two children's heads with attention, I lowered my head, then instructed that the two boys kiss me, quickly their lips were already stuck on my right and left cheeks.

After that I really let go of the three of them, with a smile that continues to expand, even it feels not want to recede from my lips even though the car Rama mas has disappeared from view.

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