YOU'RE DUAL
Chapter 43
At Abel and Dion's wedding, Vira and I decided not to bring a husband and we were enjoying the food.
"Rai loe why?" ask Vira while enjoying the Padang satay
"why am I?" ask me to come back which I do not understand
"loe okay?"
"yes okay dong, when my own best friend married me so upset? carelessly loe"
"ck, I became loe's best friend from loe born ceprot-ceprot oeeek oeeek" he said to make me amused.
"that's it, laugh! the effect is loe happy" he said again makes me roll my eyes lazily.
"gue wants this, you want to answer?" his tan..
"eh Vira bangkeh, you rich journalist aja daritadi nyerocos continue hahahaha yes my dear my love you want nanya apahhhh" while tone made up
"what love do you maintain with that loe relationship?"
the deggggg!!!
I didn't answer right away, I stared forward at a glance and then I took a slow breath
"self-worth! actually not the relationship that I maintain, not also mas Bram but my self-esteem.yes I gave up in the middle of the household that I was building?"
"Loe's self-esteem does not deserve to be trampled, there are still many ways to appreciate yourself, do not have to survive"
" if I can, why not? true loe said, but it's not time for me to step back.at least let my children feel a little more how the togetherness of the whole family" while holding my tightness.
"gue always supports loe, others also ngedukung.if there is anything loe story to us, okay?" then I nodded
"dah ah yuk photo" I said
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After Abel and Dion's wedding, we hadn't met at all, but suddenly a car was parked in front of my house. I who did recognize the car was not directly to the owner but chose to stand in front of the door .
The car owner got out
"guest woy came instead of being welcomed" he said, yes he was Abel and Dion.
"wrong-wrong? is anyone here?" my sahut is triumphant.
Then I went inside and made them drinks
"where's it?" I asked while looking at the two in turn
"from home, I've changed clothes" said Abel
"where you going?" ask me for wonder
"main, I'll buy it!" dion's Law
"it's crazy to still call me you" I chanted while Abel stood up.
"just relax, Rai, our special call, dear " cried Dion
"wuhuu newlyweds, geez" I said as I went to my room.
We had arrived at a cafe, and there was Vira and some food. I sat at the very edge of the fishpond .
"why don't you come get me Vir?" much
"Yee very important ya loe until picked up everything? not all RT sir RW sir Camat sir mayor also invited?" irked Vira made us laugh out loud.
"guys that's not my play anyway?" ask the three of them.
The three immediately turned around and saw who I was pointing at but a moment later they looked at each other, no matter what the meaning of the gaze was.
"not" said Dion
"iya Rai is not, you are wrong to see that" Abel said
"really?" ask me again
"already, you don't have to think about it, what you have to think about is......."
"loe's son" lirih Vira
"does that mean Bram's right?" I said slowly while holding back the crying
"Rai loe don't cry, loe must be strong"
I smiled "gue is okay, I often broke my heart so I forgot what it felt like. i'm strong, okay?"
Dion sighed, then we saw him like he wanted to say something but he was reluctant to talk.
"let's just say, don't be harbored" I said
"Rai you want to know what I think?" dion asked while I smiled while nodding.
"The Raina we know is independent, intelligent, resolute and cheerful, please give us back our old Raina."
"gue can not, sorry.the burden that I carry is very heavy, even I do not know how to crawl, stay in a place is not always safe, not always safe, I know it but at least the way it can make me rest "
"Rai, all this time I support everything you choose. Rai, from the first time, from the first! loe Gonta changed my girlfriend on the side of Loe, keep loe married with the Bram you just know also I ngedukung loe, until Bram often cheating on you I always have for you. but not for now.sorry Rai, we are one goal but we are not in line. I love the same loe, I care I want loe it happy Rai, it is time you are happy. If you choose to stay, then I'm on your side to let go" Abel chanted to make me shed my tears.
"enough bell, enough" said Vira
"loe said you survived for self-esteem? I don't agree when your self-esteem is trampled on by your husband.Loe says hang on to the kids? I agree that you want to be happy with children but you should know that happy many versions. There are many ways to happyin children but the way loe it is far from the word that should be. sorry I am angry loe, again this is all because of cave care ! children can be happy with our own version, what key? loe's heart must be healed, the pain that you suffer will not make the Bram was melted, so free you admit it to him. I'll excuse you, excuse me!" abel continued and left.
Dion who saw it instantly panicked, chased after his wife or calmed his best friend.
"do you shut up? go after bini loe" I said
"how do you keep going?" ask Dion again
"there I am, chase Abel fast" said Vira
Dion nodded "you take good care of yourself, sorry Abel ya Rai. I nyusulin Abel first. bye"
After they died I was in Vira's arms crying, no matter how much I saw the important thing my heart was calm.
"don't you take a headache Rai, Abel again emotions" said Vira
"he's not wrong, I'm wrong.he's right, I have to learn to be sincere" with teary eyes.
"is it wrong to fight for self-esteem?" I asked Vira
"Rai, I don't know what it's like, but one thing you should know, Chloe is great, you can definitely get through this. Let the dog bark and let it go."
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after reaching home I had prepared food, again I was still acting ordinary, as if I knew nothing.
"assalamu'alaikum" he said
"waalaikumsalam "sahutku