
Eps. 104
Clara squeezed both hands, occasionally rubbing the palms slowly to make them warmer.
Reyhan and Clara walked away looking for a quieter place to talk to each other. And after they were just the two of them in a place not far from before, Clara was so nervous that her hands went cold.
Clara doesn't know if her decision is right or not. Time and again Alice and Dita continued to advise but Clara remained on her stance.
Clara lowered her head nervously, while Reyhan was already standing before her staring at Clara fixedly.
"Are you still not willing to accept my feelings?" ask Reyhan disappointed.
Clara is still silent. All the words that he composed and repeated many times before meeting Reyhan, now disappeared instantly. Clara could not think clearly and her brain felt empty.
"Have you ever loved me?"
"Yes. I love you," Clara finally gave up on her silence.
"Then what else?"
"Did I ever tell you that I could feel Lisya's feelings when she borrowed my body? I fully understand her love for you ... and I .. feel bad if I have to be with you while Lisya still holds so many feelings for you."
Reyhan clenched his hands with a colder face. "Is that how you escape?"
"Rey–"
"Lisya wants you to live with me," Reyhan cut in disappointment.
"Don't cheer me up!"
"I'm not comforting you! He kept asking me what if you liked me? Do you know that?"
Clara was fixated, then lowered her head to think about the words Reyhan had just said.
"Don't lie to your own feelings, Clara. You know I wouldn't like someone that easy. I never equated you with Lisya.
You and Lisya are different people, of course I like you not because of your body that Lisya often uses.
Don't you think about how I feel either?"
Clara was downcast, enduring the pain in her heart that was so firmly grasping. He wants to be with Reyhan. He wants to be with the man he loves so much but Lisya's shadow behind Reyhan never wants to go in Clara's eyes.
"I'm sorry Rey.I'm sorry I will believe if Lisya says it directly to me" said Clara then turned around and left Reyhan.
However, Reyhan's speech afterwards was able to make Clara's tears flow so fast.
"Are you okay if I'm with another woman?"
Clara stopped her steps. Suddenly his tears broke through so much it could not be dammed.
Clara looked quickly at Reyhan nanar. If Clara stepped foot at this time, Reyhan would easily get another woman besides her.
The cold air around also greeted with cold passing through Clara's body.
"You even know that woman will never think about Lisya's feelings" Reyhan said. His face looks so bitter. Reyhan was also injured.
"Are you okay with that? Me .. and another woman?" said bitter.
Clara's sure it wasn't a bluff. With that kind of face Reyhan can do everything because Clara is not the only woman in the world.
With great difficulty Clara took a breath so that her tears would stop flowing. He can't think clearly. But, if he leaves now, he must be willing if Reyhan will be lost forever for him.
But ….
"Rey .. I'm sorry," he said last time and left Reyhan.
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Clara is currently going to leave with Alice, so she won't feel lonely.
"Be careful there. Make sure you call Mama if you need anything, okay?" harumi hugged Clara briefly, who was standing next to the car.
"Just calm down, Ma. Alice is with me."
"True Auntie, we'll take care of each other" said Alice, standing beside Clara, smiling slightly. At least that one friend was still smiling while talking to an older person.
"We're leaving" said Clara and Alice.
Cars set off to cut through the streets of the city, to another city where they went to college.
From that day on, Alice and Dita never talked about Reyhan to Clara. The heartbroken girl ran and cried as she hugged telling Dita and Alice everything. But the two friends were silent, not giving much of a lecture, but they comforted Clara well.
The news that Alice heard, Reyhan also studied in the department of architects in the city of J which took twelve hours by car and six hours by train.
The city is the largest city in the country, Clara believes, many girls will stick to Reyhan and the man she loves is enough to choose one of them.
Clara's chest pains suddenly recalled that. But what you can do, this is Clara's selfish decision. He hopes to soon forget Reyhan quickly, or Clara will be single forever.
Clara's first year of college, she spends it moody and crying if she misses Reyhan. Alice just silently looked at her roommate who was already injured by her stupid choice.
Once again, Clara drowned her mind just to study and sleep so as not to think about the man she loved anymore.
But in the third and fourth years, Clara has begun to open her heart to re-friend some of the others.
"Clara, what are you doing?" alice asked Clara who was cross-legged on a pile of scattered paper.
Clara's long hair was just tied together to the top, still looking disheveled.
Clara turned her head with panda eyes that were very visible under her eyes. "Aliiice, help me process this data," whined Clara for help.
Alice has passed the thesis exam while Clara has to catch up with the maximum limit next week. If not, he should repeat for the next few months.
"Before that, I'll give you your intake first. Look at this," tell Alice and show Reyhan's inslagrum.
Clara looked at the phone as if she was reluctant to look at the others. This is really intake for his heart.
In the short video, Reyhan is seen walking around the magnificent building. In another video, Reyhan appears to be filming a project with his friends. Not only men, but also beautiful women there.
Clara gulped her saliva rough. Does Reyhan still remember him today?
This is what Alice showed that was able to make Clara quit her crazy act of crying and immersing herself in studying or sleeping all day without eating.
Alice shows Reyhan's activities on campus, showing the change in Reyhan's face that looks more mature and of course more handsome.
"Hey, why are you so moody?"
"Ah, no. I just ...," said Clara, not finishing her sentence.
"missed her?"
Clara gasped but looked back down at the face she missed on the screen.
"Yes Alice. I miss her so much" said Clara.
"Yes, thank the fool who left this handsome man," Alice's circus said.
Is correct. Alice is getting more and more talkative without being filtered if it's about Clara's stupidity leaving Reyhan. And Clara can't fight that.
"There's something I want to talk to you about. I actually wanted to say it a long time ago. But I was afraid because your emotions at that time were still unstable" Alice said seriously.
Clara sculpting. What would Alice say with such a serious face? Does Reyhan already have a lover?