Your name is Secret
The Pajajaan Hati Nabila

Just contact Niken directly hit the pillow to Juna's face. Pressed by the pillow so that Juna could not breathe, Juna replied by pushing Niken until Niken fell on the bed. Not to be outdone, Niken pushed Juna's ear until Juna cried out in pain. Juna held onto Niken's waist until Niken joined in screaming. Be they persecute each other, yell, beat and laugh.

With heavy breathing they lay down on the bed because of fatigue. Niken took the pillow and grabbed it.

"I'm serious Jun, I'm confused as to how to turn it around. Do I take it?"

"DON'T!" Niken looked shocked at Juna's screams. Juna was misbehaving.

"I mean do not lie to the heart, if you like to say if you do not say no, why do not establish a relationship but because of force, because forced, kasian Bayu if you know all this time you are dating him because of the confused factor of how to refuse." Niken digested Juna's long sentence in earnest because of the tumben once Juna said using sanity.

"Tumben, Jun," said Niken suddenly after they had been silent for a long time.

"Huh?" Juna turned to Niken in surprise and did not understand Niken's words.

"Tumben sane." Niken flat. Juna was about to throw Niken with a pillow but immediately pushed aside Niken with a laugh.

"I'm serious Nik, besides you don't look like someone if you accept Bayu as your girlfriend."

Niken frowned at Juna's words, "you mean?"

"When I like Bayu."

***

Niken daydreamed along the school corridor with very slow steps. I don't know why Niken can't get rid of Juna's words that Nabila likes Bayu. Many times Niken asked Juna about the validity of the info and many times also Juna assured Niken that he did not lie.

'Why doesn't Nabila say frankly that she likes Bayu? Why is it that Nabila seems ordinary if Bayu deliberately came to school to take Niken home?'

Many ask why in Niken's mind, which of course will not Niken find the answer.

'Have I accidentally hurt Nabila all this time?'

Niken rubbed his face in frustration, guilt bursting in his chest, 'Oh Allah forgive me.'

At this first break, Nabila met and invited Niken to eat in the cafeteria. For some reason from class 10 until they moved to class 12, they were never destined to be in the same class even though their class divisions were always random every year. Instead Niken was always found in the same class as Juna.

Niken stirred his chicken noodles while continuing to look at Nabila. Somehow Niken could not look at Nabila in the same way as yesterday since hearing from Juna that Nabila liked Bayu, maybe because of the guilt that resides in the chest.

In retrospect, all this was not Niken's fault entirely. Who likes Niken is Bayu not Niken.

'But you welcomed Bayu's attention, you joined Niken.'

'But I don't know if Nabila likes Bayu.'

'What kind of victory do you, gebetan temen own time do not know.'

Niken shook his head, trying to get rid of the complicated thoughts that were milling around in his brain.

"Not feeling well, Nik?" asked Nabila who found Niken shaking her head. Nabila also realized Niken did not eat her food and instead daydreamed to look at her.

"Bil, I've never known a guy you're after." Niken tried her luck to start a conversation about men because as long as they were friends they never discussed the problem of men except Nabila who teased him when he got a greeting from Bayu. Without Niken know behind the temptation thrown by Nabila tucked in pain that stabbed the chest.

"Which story did I ever tell you about having a crush on a guy?" Nabila asked in wonder while trying to remember when he had told me about the people he liked.

"Never, so I asked, is there a guy you're appraising?" Niken asked casually, not wanting to arouse suspicion.

"Tumben wondering?" Nabila also asked no less relaxed while continuing to eat meatball sauce in front of him. Niken became his own hustle because he began to realize Nabila as convoluted and reluctant to answer his questions.

"Just be sure." Nabila glanced at Niken who had displayed a sebal look.

When she smiled, "there's a thing I'm assuming."

"Who?" Niken asked enthusiastically even to advance his body docked to the table.

"You don't know." Nabila answered briefly and hoped Niken would not continue with this sensitive question.

"Know dong let me know. What kind of kid is that? Not our schoolboy?" Niken is still trying to persuade Nabila to just a little to tell himself that he likes Bayu.

Nabila shook his head slowly, "I don't like men who are the same age as me, less mature, his mind is still unstable, I like the same figure who is mature and can protect, and I love, and can guide me to be better."

***

"complicated too. Mama's involved in a love triangle." Marsya made a comment.

"At that time mom really did not know if Nabila likes Bayu. Though already a year mama deket same Bayu, Nabila also often convey greetings Bayu to mama but mama as a friend even insensitive." Niken gave an explanation while glaring.

"I'm more focused on Juna's feelings, ma?" Marcel commented, "His feelings are still ambiguous. She's sincere not really the same mom or she just has the same taste of mama."

Niken just smiled thinly. Marsya and Marcel exchanged lyrics out of curiosity.

"So ma, after mama tau Nabila like Bayu, what did you do at that time? Receiving Bayu's tip? Kasian Nabila, Ma." Marsya showing a sad face mimic makes Niken shake his head slowly.

"There are still a lot of surprises going forward. Today we feel sorry for each other, it could be the next day it is precisely us who are looked at by others."

"I mean Ma?" ask Marsya and Marcel compact.

Niken glanced at the clock hanging on the wall and took a breath, it seems there is still time to connect a little continuation of the story.

***

'A mature figure and nurture.'

Those words continued to haunt Niken's mind. Not wrong again, the figure referred to Nabila must be Bayu. Bayu is an adult and like Niken, Bayu is also a patient and understanding figure. Complete package for women who need a protective figure.

All day, Niken was preoccupied with the contents of his own mind. Niken even forgot the turmoil last night about how to reject Bayu. Who filled her mind was precisely Nabila and her pent-up love for Bayu as well as her guilt that did not know that Nabila liked Bayu.

Instead of dizziness and increasingly complicated his thoughts, Niken decided to go to Juna's house. If lucky Niken can meet with brother Eta and watch Korean drama, if brother Eta there is a lecture schedule Niken will come to Juna only and disturb the peace of his life.