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The next morning Niken left for work as usual. His mother had a hard time releasing his son to work but Niken assured everything would be fine. Niken did not stop by his boarding place because of the short time. Once at his desk, Niken immediately busied himself with the scratches of the picture of the dress that the customer had ordered so that his heart and mind were slightly diverted.

Sure enough, Niken felt the lunch hour time came so quickly. Maybe because Niken was too immersed in his work. In instead of the lunch box that was brought from his mother's house and Niken sighed because he felt full first even though a mouthful of rice he had not eaten since this morning. Just breakfast with a piece of bread.

"Jun," said Niken. He decided to call Juna so he could accompany him to lunch even with his voice alone.

"What?" sahut Juna is across there. He also seems to be eating his lunch.

"After lunch?" ask Niken.

"Yes. You eat too, right?"

"It's also eating?" Even though what Niken did was just stirring rice in his lunch box.

"Then a sluggish suit? Sick? It must be because you're looking for Nabila. So it's a flutter!" Juna without scolding is like a vegetable without salt. Tasteless!

"June." Niken ignored Juna's spicy mouth, "I broke the wedding."

Juna was speechless, seemingly surprised by the news that Niken brought.

"Aren't you papa?" Lirih Juna was worried about Niken's situation.

"sick." Niken wiped away the rough tears and shifted the supply box that had not diminished at all its contents.

Today Niken chose to spend his lunch hours without getting out of the chair he occupied. He did not go out to eat for the reason that he had brought provisions when the real reason was that he needed calmness and was not disturbed by the outside atmosphere which was definitely full of noise.

"Don't be in the pendam. If it is crying can make you relieved, remove it. Once you are satisfied, forget it. He's not your soul mate."

Juna's words were simple but able to make Niken cry. Niken slapped her face in the folds of her hand without turning off her phone connection with Juna. Juna was also just speechless and listening to Niken's sobbing. His appetite is gone.

The tightness that from yesterday Niken pendam in front of his mother seemed to spill today. Niken does not care if after this his eyes will swell. All he wants is all the pain and grief that he has been suffering since hearing his marriage to Bayu can be lost and melded with his cries.

Almost half an hour Niken cried and lamented his fate. Besides being tired, his neck was already sore because it was too long down. After brushing his snot and cleaning his tears, Niken saw the phone connection and it turns out Juna is still faithful to be the listener of his cries.

"Jun," call Niken slowly. Niken thinks Juna left his phone without turning off the phone, but Deheman's voice over there makes Niken know that Juna is still listening to him.

"I'm relieved. Thanks though. I want to continue working."

"Stay healthy and eat three meals a day." Juna turned off the phone without waiting for a response from Niken.

Niken cleaned her face with water in the sink and looked at the mirror before her. Looks plain face without make up there. Don't forget about the eyes too. Various thoughts raged in his head. There was one question that always bothered him. Could it be that she is not attractive to be made a wife?

Tears trickled back and Niken hurriedly wiped them off and cleaned them back with water. The clock has shown at 2 o'clock, which means Niken has to be back to work. Hopefully there are no miscellaneous questions from colleagues about the condition of the patch on his face.

Time came home and Niken chose to go home to his boarding house instead of going back to his mother's house. His mother told him to go home. Niken agreed but in reality he still chose to go home to the boarding house.

Once arrived, the cost situation is not too crowded because some residents are still outside activities. There are only a few people who pass by. Niken went up to the second floor after previously greeting some of the occupants of the boarding house who were visible to his eyes.

Arriving at the door of Nabila's room, Niken stopped and tried to open the door. Nabila may have returned from her parents' home. But the door is still locked.

"What do you want, Nik? The room is empty." The voice of someone surprised Niken who was holding the door handle.

"empty? Meanin?"

What surprise is this?

"His stuff was picked up this afternoon?" Anna's voice neighboring Niken's room added to the information.

"When it comes to settle the goods is not?" ask Niken curiously.

"When there is no. We asked the same who carried the goods they did not know because they were also just working. Ask Ms. Ros, said Ms. Ros, Nabila suddenly moved when only a week she paid the cost."

Ms. Ros is the owner of the contract. The sudden departure of Nabila further adds to the question in Niken's mind.

"Emang Nabila did not say goodbye, Nik? You guys are as familiar as sugar and ants. Often the two streets even eat often a plate of both."

"He also did not say goodbye to me An, did not say also if you want to move," replied Niken lethargic and excuse me to enter the room.

Upon arriving in the room, Niken tried to call back Nabila and again the results were nil. The Nabila number is still inactive. Calling the number Bayu was the same, not active. Honestly Niken still hopes Bayu comes and explains everything. Because why he canceled the wedding which is only three months left. Niken promised to continue to accept any reason Bayu.

Niken got up and immediately grabbed her small bag containing her wallet and mobile phone. Niken ordered an ojek and gave Bayu a home address. Niken could not keep silent and only cried lamenting fate. He needs an explanation and the only way is to go to Bayu's home address.

The sky was already dark when Niken arrived at the Bayu photocopy shop. Sayup-sayup Niken heard the sound of Iandang adzan isya. The store closed and Niken turned from the back door. On knocking on the door and no word at all. He saw ventilation and no light at all. Niken thinks there's no one in there. Usually Bayu will keep the lights on until the morning when he is in the store.

Niken did not lose his mind, he went to the house of Bayu's parents still armed with a motorcycle but the house also looked dark and only the porch lights that look shining. Niken was confused where else to go. Only these two houses that Niken know as the purpose of Bayu unwind.

When Niken was standing in frustration in front of Bayu's parents' house, came a neighbor who seemed to suspect Niken's whereabouts.

"What's the deck?" Niken was shocked to hear that voice.

"Find Bayu and his parents ma'am, where are they mom? How do these shops and houses look empty?" Niken answered as decently as possible.

"Two days they went to the deck" said the fat-bodied mothers.

"Where would you like to know?"

"No idea about the deck, like his brother's place. They also don't want to go anywhere."

"But they all say mom? I mean, isn't one of those families sick?"

"The last time they met, they were all very healthy. No one seemed sick. What do you need deck? Let them go home, I say."

"No need for anything, ma'am. If so, excuse me ma'am. Thanks for the information." Niken pamit and resign. The mothers went back to his house after completing his curiosity with the whereabouts of Niken.

Niken ordered a gocar because the night was getting late. His mother's house came closer but Niken was not willing to talk to anyone and decided to go back to the boarding house.

Niken rubbed the tip of his eye with a tissue once he was in the car he ordered. Wanted to cry and scream but Niken was embarrassed by the driver who was in front of her.

Is that worthless until they leave without explanation?

Or does he deserve to be appreciated until they play tricks on him?

Niken felt at the lowest point once set foot in the store and house Bayu. He lowered his self-esteem by looking for the existence of the former husband candidate even though his self-esteem was trampled. Niken just needs an explanation. Although Bayu was present before his eyes Niken would not want to let them stay together. The shadow of living and aging together had already shattered in his dreams.

Niken just needs an explanation.