Your name is Secret
Mutual forgiving

"I got this address from Brian. Yesterday I accidentally saw your husband at Brian's house." Nabila started the conversation. Perhaps he was not at ease just keeping silent without any decent conversation between them.

"Yes?! You don't greet my husband?" asked Niken pretended to be surprised when her husband had told her that he met Nabila at Brian's house.

Nabila shook her head, "I don't feel good about it. At Brian's house there were also many other brothers."

Niken nodded in understanding. Perhaps the effects of guilt still haunt Nabila until now.

"You're here with Bayu? Your kids weren't invited here, either?" Niken continued his pleasantries. He also did not know the motive of Nabila came to his house for what. Just visiting or something else.

"The wood and the child did not come. I came here myself. That's your kids?" Nabila pointed to a family photo on display on the wall right behind the sofa that was sitting on Niken.

Niken turned to look for a moment at the family photo taken about a year ago. The photo was taken while still in the atmosphere. Muslim clothing is the theme in this photo.

"Yes, it's my kids. How many children are you?"

"My son is still one. Now it's work. Your children are beautiful and handsome."

"Thank you," answered Niken confusedly to respond with what sentence for the praise that was thrown Nabila for his children.

Excuse me for saying back because he forgot to serve drinks to his guests. Maybe because of shock over the arrival of Nabila who suddenly made Niken forget that his guests needed a drink.

When Niken was putting biscuits in a jar, Niken suddenly felt a hug. Niken turned a little face because it was blocked by the head that was now sobbing on his shoulder.

"Sorry, Nik," Nabila's cry broke as she said the word. Niken stroked Nabila's head and the hand that was coiled around her stomach.

"Hey, why? Sorry for what?" The sound of Niken. Niken began to guess why Nabila to cry like this.

"I'm sorry for my bad behavior decades ago. I'm sorry I just dared to meet you and say this now. Sorry for all the sins I've committed with you." Isak crying Nabila accompanied his words.

Niken turned around and looked up at Nabila who was taller than him.

"Life lines are already set. Maybe this is the destiny we will live. I forgave you decades ago. Do not speak of sin, for sin is not man only God can determine. We all have no right to that. You're my friend, my best friend who once filled the beautiful days of my white-gray days. I'm also sorry for being a friend who never understood how you felt." Tears also flooded their cheeks.

Nabila hugged Niken and Niken returned the hug. Niken had indeed felt the deepest heartache over the wound that had been incised by someone who was now hugging him but the wound soon disappeared along with the presence of new people and sincerity to accept destiny which is appointed by the Almighty.

"Your feelings are not make up, Nik" said Nabila while following Niken's steps forward.

"Ngapain make-up, anyway I also want to cause it," joked Niken while sitting on the sofa followed by Nabila.

"Drink and eat his snacks. Sorry that's all there is."

"It's special too. Sorry ngerepotin."

"What's ngerepotin anyway? You vomit and lemes do not want to eat only I take care of it," said Niken and after they were both silent.

Niken wanted to sew his mouth because it was realized that his speech indirectly reminded them of the dark times. The time when Nabila was cravings with unmarried conditions.

"Where do you live now, Bil?" asked Niken to divert the conversation and cut off the awkwardness that occurred between them due to his presumptuous mouth.

"I live outside the province" replied Nabila with a smile. Trying to shake off the pain in his heart.

They continued to talk random things and occasionally reminisce about the times when they had made friends so familiar. Nabila until willing to move costs when the distance traveled further from the campus just to be closer to Niken until the words of Nabila make Niken's eyes glazed.

"I'm glad Nik, look at you now having a happy day. You find a husband and children who are so good and become a harmonious family. I'm sorry I ever ruined your dream. I'm sorry I was such a selfish friend." Nabila wiped away the tears that flowed down her cheeks.

Niken was silent and let Nabila reveal what had been stuck in his heart. If in the past Nabila who has always been a place of complaint is now Niken who wants to listen to the contents of Nabila's heart.

"When I asked Bang Bayu to take me to campus, I took the opportunity to ask to be picked up. That's where I teased Bang Bayu and took him to the hotel. At first bang Bayu refused, but I seduced him. I offered my virginity. I have loved Bayu since before you knew him. I'm happy when bang Bayu you refuse but I'm heartbroken when bang Bayu ngelamar you." Niken held out a tissue to wipe away Nabila's tears that were increasingly flowing.

"I tried to put up with this feeling but I couldn't. My love is deeper especially when the Bayu bang often come to the cost and you guys walk together. Love, jealousy, envy and heartbreak all come together. When I offered my virginity and maksa bang Bayu to the hotel, bang Bayu agreed and we confessed. From there our relationship grew closer and we did it again for the second time in the store. A month before I got caught pregnant, Bang Bayu stayed away. He does not want our mistakes to continue. He wants to focus on your marriage."

"Udah Bil, do not need to continue. I am happy with my marriage now. Let us not remember the painful things that have passed." Niken tried to stop Nabila's story. At first he wanted to be loyal to be a listener but seeing Nabila who was increasingly sobbing made Niken not have the heart.

Nabila shook her head, "You should know how bad I am to be your friend, Nik. As long as we are friends and you live the good times together, Bayu, there I hold back the turmoil of love and revenge. I'm envious, Nik. Envy the same you who can get love bang Bayu so easily while I hold love for years and never be reciprocated."

"I'm sorry you had to take care of me when I was vomiting when I was cravings for your fiancee." Nabila. Not daring to look into the eyes of Niken who was still staring at him with a shady look. Tears also wet Niken's cheeks.

"I knew you were pregnant. But I don't know if you're pregnant with baby bang Bayu. I didn't accidentally find a prospect on your desk when I was cleaning."