"DEBTED MARRIAGE"
#75
Zahra did not hear Bagas' words and took off his hand held by Bagas, Zahra opened the door of Vira's room and Zahra's brak fell to the floor in shock when he saw ready on the bed that belonged to Vira
"Zahra" Arkana said in shock to see who was presumptuous to open the door
Zahra smiled and then she stood back up
"sorry disturbs your pleasure" Zahra said closing the door tightly and immediately ran towards her old room and locked it
a while later Arkana shouted while knocking on Zahra's door
"Zahra please open the door" cried Arkana
Zahra did not answer and pretended not to listen
"what is it that scares me and worries about giving my body to her why is she able to do that here??doesn't she think I'm gonna look at her and know all that??how long has he been with her??"so many questions came to Zahra's mind
Zahra continued to cry grappling with her own thoughts without caring for the screams and knocks that continued to be heard calling her name in front of her bedroom door
"what should I do now???I should how??I need someone to hear me tell you a story, but who???there's no way I'm telling them this right now, I can't talk to Bagas, Lee or this dito is just gonna embarrass me, what is it because of this God that you gave me fear when I wanted to give my body if it is I am very grateful" said Zahra smiling as she continued crying
Zahra tried to keep smiling but her tears still could not stop so hurt Zahra knew her husband's behavior behind her
Zahra did not want to keep thinking about it and continued to wrestle with her thoughts and inner Zahra tried to sleep and assume all of her did not happen and her self did not see anything
at 3 o'clock in the morning Zahra had not yet fallen asleep zahra came out of his room and cooked food for someone trying to be ordinary and consider himself never to see anything
Zahra thought after cooking Zahra would take her things in Arkana's room and go to the hospital
but when Zahra opened the door to Arkana's room, she saw Arkana sitting as if waiting for someone
"Zahra" Arkana said as she watched Zahra open the door to her room
Zahra was shocked because someone who did not want to meet zahra at this time was not sleeping
Zahra turned around trying to return to her room however....
grep Zahra's hand is held by Arkana
"Zahra please terrorize me first" Arkana said softly
"no need to talk about it, I understand you need someone to take something off" Zahra said without turning her body
"sorry I'm sorry Zahra" Arkana said
"no need to apologize, I have to apologize to you for not being able to give what should be your right" Zahra said
"look at me Zahra" Arkana said
"sorry I can't look at you please let go of me and I have to go to the hospital immediately" Zahra said
"i know you're mad at me you must hate me but please Zahra look at me, I'm sorry for what you saw yesterday I-"Arkana
"i said I didn't have to apologize to me. I had to apologize to you, I did, I'm sorry I can't see your face because I don't hate it, but I just don't want to see you and I'm sorry I didn't talk about it again whatever ko mas anywayan from the beginning we have agreed I will not interfere with your personal problems I will not dispute that I have no right to be angry hate or anything but please let me alone first mas sorry I need time to be as usual" said Zahra trying to release her hand from the grasp of arkana's hand
"Zahra-" said Arkana directly cut off by Zahra
"mas I beg you to let me alone first, oh yes I have made food for you breakfast later mas do not forget to eat yes and warm again if you do not like the cooking that has been cold,and also you must have not slept right from last night you better sleep and do not care about me,I'm good just don't have to worry about doing your activities as usual and don't care about me you are happy like that do mas lahh mas sorry" said Zahra
"Zahra" Arkana cite
"give me some time to myself I'll definitely go back to this house anyway I can't go anywhere you know that so don't worry I'll run away and sorry again"zahra tried to stay calm
Zahra walked into Arkana's room and picked up her purse and car keys and walked past Arkana, still motionless, staring only at Zahra's departure
"Zahra is going where the clock is" Bagas said
"gw go first" said Zahra trying to smile
"where let me take you" said Bagas
"no need I can myself ko gas you rest it's still too early for you to wake up" said Zahra then out
Bagas followed Zahra to open the gate
"are you coming back here Ra" said Bagas as Zahra was about to exit the gate with her car
"gw can't go where the gas I'm sure to go back to calm down" Zahra said smiling at Bagas
Zahra passed and Bagas closed the gate and went into the house looking at Arkana who was still staring outwards
Arkana was silent without doing anything just listening to the sound of Zahra's car before her until the sound was gone inaudible
in the car
"gw where to go???it's still at 3 am I have to go to the hospital it's impossible what I'll answer if they ask why I'm there at this hour akhh I'm confused what I should do"said Zahra confused still in the car and walking somewhere
Zahra stopped her car planted not far from the hospital
"akhh confused what I have to go there is not" Zahra said
Zahra stared at herself from the mirror reflections so pathetic the random appearance of her eyes being puffy an ugly face without make up
"it's sad that life is why it's all happening" Zahra said, remembering what she saw and beginning to cry back to the pain that Zahra was feeling right now
Zahra continued to cry and mourn her ever sad life
"pengen lupain all of them even though for a moment I want to forget" said zahra crying while hitting the steering wheel of the car
after a long cry Zahra finally drove her car towards a bar
Zahra entered a bar where only a few people remained
"sorry our lady is closed" said a barista
"please give me a high alcoholic class" Zahra said
"but our lady is closing down and not serving any more guests "he said
"i beg you one thing I want to forget about this time I beg you to give me one glass only I will pay more and give you tips as well" said Zahra
"emmm miss but" said the barista
"give him what he wants" said a man
"well" said the barista
"thank you I'll only drink one glass after it's gone" Zahra told the man she said
"are you having a problem" he said
"yes, there are so many problems that come into my life" Zahra replied, her brain was not functioning properly because she was crying too much