"DEBTED MARRIAGE"
#79..
"kalo emang you actually love Arkana you can't possibly hate her no matter how much she hurts you there won't be the slightest bit of hate in your heart" sindy said stop and set her breath"right now you're still confused that Ra actually you have the same feelings that Arkana you have to be sure what feelings you have for Arkana and don't ignore the fear and worry you have Ra maybe it's a sign of something once again you have to be sure don't make yourself regret maybe others don't know what the meaning of the words Iw but I'm sure you understand everything I sayain Ra and I'm sure you know what you have to do and I'm sure how painful you are you must stay strong" Sindy smiled at Zahra
"sindy thanks I now know what I have to do thank you very much, and I'm sorry I made you remember all the sad things that you have experienced" Zahra said hugging Sindy
"I'm good just look at the face I'm no more sadness no more tears and also the burden that I feel is getting thin all his lost Ra now I'm calmer and happier you're here next to me" said Sindy
"sin ate first already hugged his embrace, gw did not understand what you said so mending eat rather than dizzy thinking speech that makes me confused "say Giselle who tried to divert the conversation
"woven dit" said Zahra saw Adit push the button for the doctor
"call Ra's doctor earlier the doctor had come here for a routine checkup but because Sindy was still sleeping so he came back again and I had to call him again after sindy woke up" Adit said
"owhh" said zahra to help raise a little sindy bed to be more upright
"how do you sin there is sick" Giselle said interrupted by feeding sindy
"there is nothing just maybe a little bit achy maybe because the sleep continues" said Sindy
"excuse me" said the doctor
"hallo doc" Zahra said
"hallo, again eat yes sorry disturb for a while yes no papa right" said the doctor
"no papa ko dok" sindy smiled
"i'm starting to check on ya sin" the doctor said
"emmm there's something I want to talk to the doctor if there's time after my checkup" Sindy said
"well" said the doctor smiling at Sindy
Adit giselle and Zahra leave the room
POV sindy
after examination
"what do you want to say, Sin???you already know your condition, right??"doctor says
"i know doc, my time won't be much more, all this doing is just slowing my death dok" Cindy sighed
"i was afraid of Doc when I left" Cindy stopped to hold back her tears
"you're a strong woman and you try to be calm and as if all is well just to make them not sad,I know how you feel like there are so many lives that I hold many promises that I hold many hopes that I disappoint I already know what makes you afraid and heavy to convince all here, you know this is the best for you I'm sure you have a solution for them, we've known each other for a long time I've understood you because you're the kind of person I've understood I'm sure you can make them accept your departure later" said the doctor
"actually I wish I was still in this world with them and.."sindy looked at the doctor's face.
"hufhhhh but all that would not be possible God has other wills, I'm not sure doc can make them not sad when my departure later if I can see them crying for me if I can see them sad up there" said Sindy
the doctor could not say any more words just holding sindy's hand tightly
"the doctor of thanks has been accompanying me trying my hardest to save me, if I can ask 2 help from you for the last time" said Sindy
"i asked the doctor to keep the item in the drawer and give it to me at my funeral" Sindy smiled at the doctor who was opening the drawer that Sindy meant
"this is what" said the doctor

"please keep the doctor and open it when I'm calm" Sindy said
"you .." said the doctor immediately cut by sindy
"doctor I beg and my second request is that the doctor can give me 1 day to go out I want to spend my 1 day and feel happiness at the end of my life" said Sindy
"if you get out of the hospital in this situation you will feel pain I can't possibly let you out it will be very dangerous for your body" said the doctor
"not that you said you would do anything I wanted to do this is all I wanted to do spend 1 day with them I was afraid I didn't have that chance anymore I beg doc give me permission for the last time" Sindy said
"but sindy is very dangerous for your body, the condition of your body is not likely to be out of the hospital even if only briefly" said the doctor
"I beg doc give me 1 day to feel happiness with them for the last time I know how my condition if something happens to me I've been sincere whatever god determine I've received it" sindy said
"but sin I can't see you in pain and .
"this dock is my last wish I ask that I will not feel any pain until I return to this hospital" Sindy said
"but I can't sin" said the doctor
"dok I know you care about me, I know you care about me but this is my last wish, doc, before her I'm sorry I couldn't accept you to be my lover because I know I can't give you anything I can't make you happy don't want to accompany you to walk the road to just hug you I can't you the person I love doc even though we're not lovers I love you very much, you've helped me a lot of hardship because I I don't want to make you suffer with me ,I'm sure someday you'll find someone who can make you happy who can accompany you and can love you sincerely I promise you in my future life I'll be with you"sindy smiled
"sindy"the doctor hugged Sindy's thin body
"don't cry" sindy said
"you promised in your next life you'd be with me" the doctor said
"yes I promised Ranz" said Sindy
"i love you sin this time" doctor Ranz said
"i love you too and promise in my next life will love you so much" Sindy said
"would you give me Ranz's permission" Sindy said after the doctor let go of her hug
"are you going to be good" asked the doctor
"i'll be very kind, maybe even I'll be happy and very grateful to you" Sindy said
"i'll allow it but promise if your body happens something directly contact me don't force it and pretend good" said the doctor
"thank you good doctor Ranz" Sindy said
"i have to go there's an operation I'm going to do tomorrow you can leave after I take care of your permission" the doctor said