A Gay With His Angel
Temporary Break...

"Come on, you'll feel the pleasure of coming in from behind. You saw your girlfriend go limp"

The man's hand tried to touch Sean's

"GIRST!"  Snarl Sean violently.

"Don't touch me!"  Said Sean firmly.

The man and his friend immediately left the room because they felt Sean was not able to have fun. They didn't want to cause any trouble in Madam Rain's Bar.

"Wake up. Clean yourself. We go home" said Sean who was already uncomfortable there.

Erik thought Sean was angry and jealous to see him satisfied with the two men.

Not daring to argue much, Erik immediately cleaned himself in the bathroom in the exclusive room and dressed neatly.

Sean takes Erik back to the shophouse. Inside the shophouse Erik tries to hug Sean and apologizes.

"Sorry baby. I don't want to cheat" Erik said.

"No problem. That's your right" Sean said flatly.

Hearing Sean's unusual way of speaking made Erik astonished.

"Why with you? Not usually like this" said Erik spoiled.

"Erik. Can we talk all right?"  Sean asked with a serious face.

Erik who felt something else on Sean was getting scared. He was afraid Sean left him because of the incident at the bar.

Moreover, it was Erik who asked Sean to accompany him to the rainbow madam bar. But there Erik was in contact with other men.

"There's nothing to scare me" Erik said.

Seeing Erik's expression that was already about to cry made Sean even more dizzy. It always made him not have the heart to speak loudly to Erik.

"Don't cry. I just want us to go through a period of calm first" Sean said as he stroked Erik's head to calm the young man down.

"Quiet time? What do you mean?"  Asked Erik with teary eyes.

"I mean, I want us to calm each other down. Some of this time we just fight and honestly I'm not comfortable. My problem is a lot Erik. I want us to break for a while" Sean said seriously.

"You want to break up?"  Asked Erik who was starting to get annoyed and did not accept.

"We need time to calm down from this unhealthy relationship. Every time we just fight, Erik. Honestly, I want to feel calm, not constantly fighting when I meet you. I also always fight with my family. I don't have time to calm down" Sean explained with a bit of emotion.

"You angry? You yelled at me Sean" said Erik, who ended up crying.

"Please be more mature. You realize our relationship is difficult, so please don't make things difficult for us anymore. I want you to be more mature in terms of all the problems. You keep pestering me in my private quarters when you promise to be careful. But what's going on? You broke the rules we made. You showed up suddenly in my apartment, you came to where I work"

Sean took out his teeth that had been piled up in his head.

"You're not aware? I'm like that because you changed!"  Shouted Erik hysterically.

" And I changed because of your nature. Look at you now. You always threaten and yell without trying to solve the problem properly. I'm tired of Erik. I can also get tired of facing you" said Sean who was increasingly uncomfortable seeing Erik's behavior.

"But not in a way to break up. I don't want to live without you!!"  Erik spoke uncontrollably.

"That's up to you. I'mtired. My decision is unanimous. We just break it while thinking about whether this is called love or just our obsession. If you love me, you'll make me comfortable. But that comfort has not been felt again lately. So I beg you to think better" Sean said, leaving Erik alone in his shophouse.

Sean had to strengthen his heart not to look back at Erik so that the young man could be more mature later.

Sean's decision has been unanimous to leave his wrong world and really focus on the right thing.

Sean was sure he could make Linny want to marry him, but it took time and struggle. One of them is by leaving Erik and their gay community.

That's proof that Sean really wants to be serious with Linny.

But not everything can go as it wants. Sean is unaware that it could trigger even greater conflict for him.

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Sean's car arrives at Linny's apartment. Sean enters the apartment room, having the passcode Linny gave him.

The room was still dark, a sign that Linny hadn't come home. Sean is laying on the sofa bed.

For a moment Sean was relieved, at least what he felt he had told Erik.

I don't know if the young man will destroy his entire shophouse or try to kill himself again.

Thinking of Erik possibly going to kill himself made Sean quite worried. Sean immediately picks up his phone to send Danu a message.

Danu turns out to be a distant brother of Erik. But Danu always kept her mouth shut and pretended not to recognize Erik. He did not want to deal with that gay young man who was unstable. Staying away from people like that is the best thing according to Danu.

' Dan, can you help me? ' - write Sean-

'  What's up, Bro? ' - reply Danu-

' Later try to pay attention to your cousin's shophouse. I'm afraid he's acting short of wits again ' Sean- wrote

' Who? Erik you mean? ' - asked Danu-

' Yes. I just met him. Maybe right now he's on a rampage ' Sean wrote again

' You guys fighting again? ' - Reply Danu-

' No, I just asked for a break and asked him to think clearly about our relationship ' - Sean- wrote

' Well, you seriously want to go back to normal. I'll have my cousin look for him. But what's my reason? ' reply Danu who is confused

' It's up to you. Arrange ' - Sean wrote

Sean turned off his phone and went into the bathroom cleaning himself. The clothes and pants he was wearing were thrown into the trash.

I don't know why he felt angry because he had been touched by a gay man in the bar earlier. Unlike before, Sean now feels uncomfortable when touched by people who can openly relate freely.

Hey Sean did you forget that you used to be the King of the famous ONS in that bar??? Oh sure it doesn't. Sean remembered that so he felt even more disgusted with himself. Although he still appreciated the rainbows who were not as outrageous as the two men. For him to have intimate relations must be on the basis of willing to be equally willing. It cannot be done if either party refuses or objectes.

He always applied it long ago when he did ONS with other men. Sean also doesn't want them to use their feelings in relationships. For Sean it's just a hobby to release fatigue and excess stress.

After the bath, Sean cooked a packet of instant noodles and ate them. Sean's stomach was suddenly hungry.

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