A Youth In Life "AL"
Mutinous

This February, it may be for me a month full of pain that torments me deeply. Every night, and every dream in my dark sleep the shadow of my brother is always present, always appearing to haunt this thought.

Unceasingly this mirage began to recur, every time, every time I opened my eyes to look at the world that was so cruel to me. But I can't even give a hint of hate to the young man named Adhit Pradigda. I don't know why !!!

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14 February…

The figure of the young man came to me, hugging this body tightly, whether it was just my body or reality. I can't really feel between the two, the numbness between the concrete or the abstract. My brain is completely empty !!!

The campus that I feel like, the laughter of those who are playing the role of residents and I am also participating in the role of being one of them but, why ?? these lips can't seem to scratch a smile at anyone who sees.

“al... I'm sorry, I'm here now, I don't know.but a thought prompted me to go outside the island to see my parents, I want to say goodbye to them before I move abroad, you know al.” said brother adhit.

But I could only cry in the tight arms of her hands, I was completely speechless. What I feel now as if this soul is rising, feels to return. Like a withered flower, refreshed because it was splashed with water, it will definitely feel fresh for a moment.

“al, maybe this is a chance for me. One out of a thousand choices I want to realize my ideals al, therefore I do not want to waste this opportunity.” Say it while crying.

For a moment I looked at her crying eyes, with a flash of a smile on my lips but the reality was that my heart was in a complete revolt wanting to scream to hold her brother away, Adhit, go,, but I really could not bear to hear the desire that he had been hoping to come to him. I still have a heart, a feeling, maybe this is all God's will, to make you a truly successful person later.

“he’em” answers.

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When the day changes night and night is now changed morning, maybe tomorrow there will be a new life for brother adhit, a new way and maybe success will lead to him.

At 10 I have to attend the graduation ceremony, because maybe I promised him. And I'll promise myself, I'll never let out my tears at the graduation ceremony that you've been waiting for.

In the crowd, I saw a smile scratched on the lips of Brother Adhit that I so admired, it was beautiful God created. That is true, the words of brother adhit are always true, true and true.

The moment we both posed for pictures that I might one day see when I missed the figure of Adhit's brother who was far away from me, maybe not on this occasion I could have him, but I'm sure one day I'll get it, I'll be waiting for his return.

Although later what I will feel is a void without anyone filling my heart when Adhit's brother is far from me even from this country.

Ach, somehow I will feel, I really don't want to imagine it now !!!