A Youth In Life "AL"
A Real Mirror

21, 22, 23, 24, 25,,

january, february, march, ah….

The numbers and letters on the old calendar are getting faster and faster, it feels like they are changing,

make narrow conditions.

especially considering my old age is consuming time, too,

maybe some people like to see their age consumed by time and increased like that.

not me, though,,

for me…

it's all suffering!,

troublesome for me,

my masaku is over!,

..........!!!!!!!

18 Years, though,

soon I'll be 18 years old, though,,

feels heavy!!!

as some add, a kind of scales that are too much load, unbalanced !!

I don't know what I'll accept, then,,

him,,, he,,

shadow,,

figure,,

it never appeared but felt real in my mind..

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loneliness for the sake of loneliness is filled with shadows that always haunt my life.

A young man who can never be revealed and I can never tell.

God, God, !!!

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On a high hill covered in mist, a soft voice sounded,,

whispers,,

groans,,

ah what,, uh,,

do not understand this ear to pick up such insignificant signals.

But…………

Ogre is heard in this ear hole a slow sound, a kind of bus in a roaring music,,, a,,

who's?

Whereabouts?

I want to see the origin of that voice immediately,

want and want.

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Maybe, everyone has a weakness !!

but it is impossible for all people to have an advantage,.

I'm not giving up on that, man,,

I'll make sure this little leg is lifted up to walk in search of it and keep looking for it.

uup !!

almost forgotten…

that sound?

Soon this leg ran over or maybe just to look at the head aggota as a treatment for curiosity.

I don't know, really, really I didn't expect……………

that voice?, man?,

that voice?, man?,

figure youth?

Rain water, o0h My god !!,

I can’t belive?, Really?

Before long it was possible for the clock on the wall to run out of its beat just like what I had noticed or……….

I don't know I don't care about everything,

I don't care !!

really !!,

he put a smile on his face that I now really know,,

lips,,

Dimple,,

Glass-coated eyes,,

black strands,,, the,,

even body posture,

ah !!

it feels like I'm actually finding mutira maybe even diamonds on the seabed.

But why?,

these lips seem to be locked tightly or a burden that is being blocked, or,

OMG !!!

what should I do !!

I don't want to waste this opportunity………….

Really !!

I just want to scream, though,

I want him to understand what I've been through and feel this slama.

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Seen next to him, a person I really knew, really understood, really became my best friend at school.

Jerry…

but, what I can't understand is “1”,

the two of them were standing together in front of the door, in the shelter I had, my humble home.

Maybe I never imagined it that way before,

never got that far, though,,

impossible !!

Slowly this ear hole seemed to catch the wind pitched like it was calling, like,

ah !!

like jerry's voice, I don't know.

“al, hello...........al, from earlier I called koq did not reply.” jerry yelled maybe the number of times he voiced.

“ah, maap......... jerry what's here, koq tumben ngajak who?”sahut.

“o0h...ini brother I al, who studied in jogja moved to college here ntar,” replied jerry who might for that answer form peace in my mind can even harmonize my life later, hopefully…

“Kenalin ni, her name is kak adhit, Adhitia pradigda. My ugliest brother in the world, uhh.

“Gak ah jer, even for me he's the prince with glasses” said I'm clean,

either they both heard it or not.

“apa al?” ask jerry

“gak koq, come in..” ask me.