Alexa Kethzie's
Chapter 0: The Unreached Apology

My name is Lala...

(.......)

*However…

I've never seen your tears

Flowing in your cheek

So strong are you

Mothers…

I love you

My god…

I'm begging you

Peace him

Forever*

On the pulpit I read the poem by Chairil Anwar with great appreciation. My eyes looked straight at the audience with hundreds of people until my neck felt choked from nervousness.

I tried to keep my intonation clear and adjust my nose and body language as perfectly as possible, and the cup easily changed hands towards me. I feel very happy...

But my gaze was suddenly fixed on the figure related to the poem, My mother. Not far away was my father. They were smiling widely because of my success.

"Good dear son!" Shouted them in front of the crowd.

I can only smile while enduring the shame.

...****************...

...In-house...

Tok...

"I'm sober..." I said lazily while opening the doorknob, after opening the door I went straight to the living room without taking off my shoes.

"HUKK!!"

It was obvious in their eyes I was mocking. Pretending to vomit in front of the two people who were now approaching me, it seemed like they were planning something bad.

"Lala... Congratulations my son, you won the race, that was cool and really nice, baby?" Mother said while facing my father, and she nodded.

"Devil, you know not. That kind of talk makes me sick every day! Even so'an sweet in front of the child, there must be other intentions right!" I yelled at the person I used to call the old man.

Mother was just speechless, she began to shed her cultural tears that fed me up.

"Stop Lala! Don't yell at your mother like that! You are invited to speak well even songong! Every day is just that!" answer me to defend my mother.

"I didn't talk to Mom! To dad too!"Obviously with a high tone.

Because it is easy to ignite emotions, my father took the glass cup that I just put on the table, then he slammed it hard.

It didn't take long, everything had now turned into broken pieces of glass strewn across the floor. We were all shocked including my father who did it.

The situation became silent for a moment, only soaking my mother's cries were heard by me. I just stared at the broken glass. It was the thing I got from my own snare and he so easily smashed it in front of me.

I bite my lower lip hard while clenching my hand, holding all the hatred towards those who are growing bigger and at their peak at this moment. I feel so hateful to them right now.

"I hate you guys!" I yelled at them.

Because anger had taken away my senses, I took the lump and threw it at my mother. But my arm deliberately moved so as not to hit it. Seeing that, my father's emotions instantly ignited back.

"Based on your disobedient son! Get out of here!" expel father. But the mother immediately prevented it.

"Don't! that's your own son," he argued.

"Okeeyyy I'm gone and will never come back here again!."

I immediately got up and stepped out of the house without bringing anything. With a loud door I closed so that a loud voice arose.

"Lala dear, sorry I'm the same mom..."

That was the last sound I heard before I left.

I ran to my friend's house and my former college friend Alice, hoping she'd support me.

Maybe he was a close friend of mine who to me was crazy, but he was also a very reliable friend of mine at times like these.

After getting to his place, I just went in without knocking on the door because the door was open. Usually I also do that, so they as residents of this house already understand my attitude.

This is what I call family. They joke around with each other and get along without any fights.

"Ehh Lala, what's wrong with you?." Ask Alice.

I hugged her while crying in annoyance. Then tell me about the incident. But he said I was the one who was wrong, of course it really offended me. But despite being upset, I still listened to his advice and respected his advice.

He spoke as if to corner me, but I only fell silent because it was true, I always thought so.

I was the one who was always looking for trouble first. But I never realized it until it went on like that every day. It should be me who deserves to hate myself, not them.

"Maaciw ebeeb Aliceee" I told Alice. He chuckled while looking at me in disgust.

"Today I'm doing yaah,"

"Hmmm always dong for my princess Auroraku."

I smiled happily, then began to sink my mind into the orange world contained in the rectangular box and began to read an online story.

I prefer the Slice of live genre whose story is flat and the plot is not easy to understand. But now my eyes are fixed on a novel I read when I was in high school...At that time my hobby was reading comics and isekai novels.

"Ahhh so miss the youth," I murmured.

"Are you old now?" ask Alice suddenly.

"No, it's still pretty" I replied spontaneously.

"Yeee lu tuh kepedean level snapper, aja girlfriend does not have, certainly because there is no guy who is interested in the same face that he said beautiful,"

"Who said, I just passed by here a lot of guys who met me all the way... Hohoho is certainly fascinated by my blaring beauty,"

"Ngelantur continues. They see you because you wear a strange costume, "

"What the heck, this shirt is still I wear when the race tau...." Obviously, I was singing my lips.

Then I continued my busy life exploring the world behind the scenes while reading romantic novels.

...*The Next Day*...

Today I want to go home, I want to apologize for my behavior last night. This is my first time trying to apologize to them.

Maybe for some people apologizing is easy but not with me who need a great struggle to gather intention and courage against the prestige that is on my mind.

I walked on the sidewalk of the highway slowly, the weather was so hot and hot. I occasionally wiped my forehead full of sweat. My hands are also cold sweat.

Hufffftt...

I don't know why I feel my heart beating so hard. I don't know why I feel so scared.

I saw a man my age who was busy with his android walking from here to the road without using a zebra cross and of course there was a car passing by there.

A middle-aged woman tried to call him and warn him but he did not hear because his ear was covered with earphones.

My body started moving on its own. My humanity began to rise when a minibus came towards the man.

It's very risky, but if my drive is strong I can save myself and him. My inner.

"Well!!" I screamed while pushing all my might towards the side of the road.

But unfortunately I was just a woman, my strength was only enough to push her to the edge but not to myself.

DRRRRIITTT...!!

I felt like my body was thrown a few meters away. The rapid flow of blood just came out of my limbs that hurt. The squeaking sound of the car stopping was still clearly heard in my ear.

At least I can save someone at the end of my life.

If I were asked, what is the biggest regret in my life?, of course the answer is regret because my apology has not been conveyed to those whom I should have loved before.

...****************...

I blinked slowly to gather my life slowly.

ehhh I survived? my thinking.

I immediately got up and sat on my bed bed at this moment. All I could see was a tiny, still delicate hand clinging to my body.

This room did not look like a hospital or my usual room, it was so dark and quiet.

Even the wounds on my body were not there, even though I just had an accident. One question that continues to be on my mind at this time.

This where is it? Why is there a girl sleeping while leaning on the bed? Is he waiting for me?

The girl immediately woke up from her sleep because my movements were slightly disturbing her.

"It turns out you're not dead, are you?" Ask with a flat face.

What kind of question is that?!

He succeeded in making me stunned because of the sharp eyes and dark red. Don't tell him...

LA... LAVENDER KETHZIE??!!!

...ΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩΩ...

Seriate...