Cahya Looking for Light
Operation Caesar

"Ayy, do you want to go to Mama's house today?"

"No, mama said today there's a show so it doesn't seem to be home"

"Ayy,,, caesar huh?" Devan is still trying to persuade his wife, the state of his wife's small hips while the baby has grown even heavier. It is more than when Rafa was born, later Cahya can be very difficult.

"I'm scared" Cahya held her husband's hand, they were watching a movie on television.

"No Ayy, you don't be afraid, I will always be beside you, said the doctor also caesarean section is not scary, anyway this is not because you are not able to give birth normally, the doctor said, but this is a condition that allows you to be operated on"

"I can give birth to Rafa, so right now I can too" Cahya held tightly to her husband's arm as if dispelling the fear and worry she was feeling.

"Darling, listen to me carefully, I know you can, but Ayy's condition is different, I don't want you to have any trouble"

"I don't want, pity our baby, if Caesar he will have low antibodies and easy to get disease" Cahya still does not want and tries to still be able to give birth normally.

"We will always take care of Ayy, you don't think about anything else, which you should think of yourself first"

"Can't, still my son is more important than anything including myself whatever the reason" Cahya began to cry and hugged Devan's body tightly.

Devan joined in crying in silence and continued to hold Cahya tightly, he really did not want his wife to have difficulties especially until something happened that he did not expect, because the doctor had also recommended for a cesarean section.

Cahya continued to cry in Devan's arms, she apologized again, Devan stroked his wife's hair to calm Cahya's heart, Devan has even asked for help from her in-laws and Retno's mother but Cahya still continues to stand up to give birth normally.

"Ayy, I want you more if you have to choose, I don't mean don't want this baby but if it makes me have to see you suffer, I don't want to, so I beg Ayy,,, please,, follow the doctor's advice" Devan could not hold back his tears and held Cahya's cheeks so that his wife saw his face, so that his wife saw the earnestness of his heart, Devan wished his wife knew how valuable she was to him, but Cahya still refused, shaking her head and embracing her husband again.

"Do you guys want to gang up on me?" ask Cahya

"Yes, you are very smart, we all just want you to know and realize that you are so loved and loved by everyone around you,, you also need to love yourself more"

"But that doesn't mean that if I choose a normal body then I must be dead,,, eeeeehhmmmm"

Devan silenced the mouth of his wife who had been too late to speak, Devan was angry and after releasing his kiss, he looked at his wife's face with his angry eyes, then went into the bathroom, he cried there, he did not want to look weak in front of his wife, nor could he force his wife to follow his wishes.

Cahya is shocked to see her husband's anger, but she is really afraid that if she has to do a caesarean section, Cahya knocks on the bathroom door but Devan is still silent not answering or opening the bathroom door.

Cahya then waited on the bed while lying down by continuing to look at the bathroom door,

"I'm sorry I'm weak, baby, sorry I always bother you and always worry you, but I'm really scared of having a caesarean section, there's a lot I'm afraid of, but if I see you like this, do I have to have a caesarean section?" cahya's mind while shedding her tears.