DISPUTE OF HEART
Sha, Where are you?

Loss will always present trauma, especially to those worshippers. There will be no good word for those who have lost, especially when we lose the person we love and love the most. Let alone when you remember every incident that has been passed together, even just glancing at clothes or smelling the same aroma, the taste came back the same.

Everyone's mentality is different, there are many impingements that they do to forget the trauma, some choose to hurt others, some choose to hurt themselves, others choose to hurt themselves, many people also choose to hide it, and keep smiling full of falsehoods.

Please, don't tell me those who do things that are considered unnatural are people who lack faith, people who have no religious basis, people who are far from God, forever are not like that, he said, because once again each person's mentality is different. You feel strong through this test, not necessarily with others, others are able to pass the test, we are not necessarily.

On this earth, there are people who are experiencing trauma, maybe they are trying to recover and continue to fight for all that. We are just ordinary people, as usual humans, can be wrong, can forget, can be kilaf, forever will not be perfect. Eliminating the trauma will not be a blink of an eye, it takes a very long time to restore his mentality.

“I'm fine”

“I'm strong, I'm okay”

The spell was repeated by Asha all the way home, the words would suggest to himself to come back strong. Although in reality Asha's heart remained fragile, tears continued to flow on her smooth cheeks, her eyes closed firmly avoiding the bad shadow that had previously flashed through her mind. His body shakes unruffled.

Hours after a painful journey for her, Asha finally arrived at a place she had never thought she would return to, but as footsteps led her there, Asha stopped her steps, staring at the towering building before her, Asha had petrified for a moment, her gaze peeked around, her forehead shrinking, why did it feel like her heart was becoming more unsettled?

Walking slowly to open the gate, Asha squinted her eyes, her chest pounding, her hands slowly rising stroking her chest.

“You've gone Briyan, now I'm alone”

“I'll let you go”

“No! It's just my illusion”

Asha's lips trembled even more, along with her head that was increasingly throbbing in pain, then her consciousness became floating. In the end Asha collapsed!.

***

Briyan shuffled her head in frustration, all the shadows of her past with Asha continued to flicker with each other as if mocking her who was in a panic, now her body had decayed on the floor, her hands bending her own knees, and her, occasionally his head was smashed against the wall next to his body.

Meanwhile, Raisya, the girl who was struck by disappointment had left Briyan a while ago after knowing all the secrets of Briyan all this time, indeed which girl would be willing to be lied to? Which girl would be betrayed? Maybe the answer is none! Raisya chose to leave, giving Briyan time to choose and determine the attitude.

“Sha ..” Briyan muttered, regret coming to her heart, her mind wondering, where is Asha now? How's he doing now? Is Asha okay? Amidst the excitement of his heart, won't Asha do bad things again? What if Asha goes back to committing suicide?

“Sha, sorry I” Briyan murmured indistinctly, her head still denying, if she did not love Asha and instead happy if Asha decided to leave her side, but her side of heart told her that Briyan, she was happy, the man was not willing to lose the attention as well as the sincere love and affection of Asha all this time.

‘I hold Ayang promise, if Ayang tries to cheat or leave me, I will go and die, we will never see you again’

Asha's voice was heard again, Briyan shook her head repeatedly. Hope all the Asha threats in the past will never happen.

“Gue should what Sha?” briyan's eyes were getting red and slightly swollen, the man was really feeling upset himself.

Ringing cell phone calls continued to ring, since his parents took turns to call him, but none of Briyan responded, his body was still frozen, his soul was in a state of turmoil.

Until finally, Briyan's attention must be diverted to the tone of the call that never stops, Briyan glanced at a glance, it turns out from the new number, Briyan hesitated when he wanted to lift the call, but he steadied his heart, but he was, press the green button to know who called. Secretly in his heart hoping, if Asha who contacted him.

“Hallo ..” hoarse voice Briyan said.

“Hmh ..” the sound at the other end sounds flat as well as cold,

Briyan's forehead frowned in confusion, then once again looked at the new number, considering whether Briyan knew the person who was now contacting him?.

“Who?” briyan's nasal voice rang out, making the person over there who was now holding back a furious rage could only snort in annoyance.

“Briyan, can we meet?” the sound is heavy.

“Ya?” feeling confused and dazed, Briyan could not digest the words thrown by the caller.

“I'll see you tomorrow at the restaurant near where you live now, I hope you come on time” that straightforward voice sounds domineering, making Briyan confused, still not recognizing the voice of the person who called her.

“Wait! It's sia ..”

Tut .. tut ...

The call was cut off unilaterally, Briyan was confused half to death, when his condition was not okay, why there were also people who made him become more dizzy.

Briyan chose to ignore it, her hand reopened Asha's writing, read it over and over again, until her tears fell back on her cheeks.

“Sha ... where are you now?”