DISPUTE OF HEART
Do'a and Hugs

On a thick night, the cold burst into one of the rooms whose windows were slightly open, allowing the cold to pierce the skin of a woman struggling with her work. It was almost a third of the night, but the girl still did not want to get away from a table full of expensive fabrics that were being sewn.

Trying to get busy is his ninja path so that he can forget a little about the chaos in his life. Repeatedly his heavy breath sounded, then exhaled violently, repeatedly his lips grimaced and his forehead frowned when the needle he was holding pierced his skin accidentally. His fingers already contained a lot of plaster, but he did not seem to want to give up!.

“It was cold, but I felt thirst” murmured slowly, the steps were shuffled towards the door leaf through the slightly open nightstand on the small drawer, the steps had stopped and glanced at him slowly, there is a picture frame there, a picture of his childhood with someone he had and may still love. But ... his hatred exceeded his love now, until he decided to throw the photo, then close the drawer meeting, immediately rushed to walk to the ground floor of his house, just to drink so that it can eliminate the heat in his chest.

His steps stopped when he heard the sound of a sobbing coming from a room, stopped drinking a drink that had been in hand, Asha chose to walk closer to the room which was allegedly the source of the sobbing sound.

“Yes Allah .. protect Non Asha, I love her very much, so let her be happy, hiks ..”

Asha was stunned at the slightly opened doorway, her ears sharpened again, catching a soft voice clad in sobbing.

“Non Asha is a good child, then let Non Asha be free from all her suffering Allah ..” that little stuffing is heard again, Asha is still sculpting, he said, never thought if the curvaceous old woman could sincerely pray for him, all this time Asha was very ignorant of the circumstances around her, Asha was just busy chasing Briyan, hating Briyan, and being very ignorant, and now Asha is busy wanting to escape from the invisible snares of Briyan, as well as the real bond of the man who has been hurt repeatedly.

“Bi ..” Asha approached when the old woman was folding her mukena cloth.

Bi Inah turned her head then smiled looking at Asha with her dear gaze.

“Non Asha needs something? Why are these nights Non Asha is here?” Bi Inah frowned.

“Aunt dear Asha?” asked Asha softly, tears had already grown in her eyes,

“Of course, Non Asha beloved Bibi” Bi Inah smiled sincerely, then pulled Asha's arm and sat her on the edge of her small bed.

Asha was silent, all this time she had never felt sincere affection from anyone since her parents left, but Asha never realized if there were prayers that climbed so sincerely from a Bi Inah, a domestic assistant who had never seen even one eye.

“But, I've always been mean to Auntie, I always bother Auntie, why is Auntie dear to Asha?” Asha looked at Bi Inah fixedly, the old woman who was using the loose negligee smiled back.

“Who said Non Asha is evil? Non Asha is a very good girl, Non Asha always gives a lot of pocket money to the workers in this house, giving THR money every year with a lot of nominal, until our family had all their needs met, Non Asha also often distributed food to people in need, to beggars by the roadside, to garbage collectors, Non Asha also ..”

“Bi, where does Aunt know all that?” Asha stopped Bi Inah's speech, clearly Asha was astonished by all that Bi Inah knew about her.

“Thank you for loving Asha” the girl was stunned in Bi Inah's arms.

“Asha is evil because it is often difficult for Bibi, even though Bibi is very good to want to doain Asha in the tahajud prayer Bibi” Asha again sobbed, remembering his shadow that often torments Bi Inah's body unconsciously, chasing after Briyan made Asha forget about the many good things around her.

“Non ... everyone has their own hard times, and they will also be given the solution of each problem by Gusti Allah, just believe, and, Gusti Allah will always love Non and protect Non from all the bad things that befall Non” Bi Inah smiled, his hand stroked Asha's shoulder.

“Really?” Asha blinked her eyes repeatedly, all this time she was a little indifferent with her God, her world turned upside down, Asha lost her grip, she was only given an abundance of material, without being given the love and direction she should have.

“God is all-good, whatever test God gives his servant solely because he wants his servant to be a better servant, God believes we are able to carry out this test well, that is why God entrusts the test to us, because we are able to”

“If Allah is good, then why did Allah take Mamah, Papah, also ... Briyan” Asha lowered her head listlessly, her tears dripping down in such a way.

“Because Allah knows this is best for Non Asha, because Allah knows Non Asha is able to pass all these tests”

“Although I passed it with a bleeding heart?” Asha looked up her head.

“Ya, Non Asha if you want to take the class exam also has difficulty right? Had to study hard, had to stay up late, had to be willing to skip a meal, but after the Non Asha exam passed, Non Asha felt relieved and happy right?” Bi Inah asked with her trademark gentle smile.

“Ya” Asha nodded in understanding.

“So also with this life test Non”

“Bi Inah want to teach Asha to be closer to Allah? In order for Allah to love Asha more, I want to pray and ask God, so that later I can gather again with Mamah and Papah” twinkle the eyes of Asha so excited.

“Of course Non, will Bibi teach, Non Asha the daughter who shaluhah, would pray Mamah and Papah”

Asha entered in the arms of Bi Inah, a soft hug to feel comfortable, Asha realized this hug is a hug that always makes her comfortable when she lost her direction.