Earth Without Dusk
51. Diary as Witness

Dusk returned to his house in a doldrums. His encounter today with Earth made his day cloudy. He himself did not understand what was wrong with him so that the Earth seemed to hate him earlier.  

Even at dinner, Dusk seemed to have no taste. Only occasionally did he spit his food into his mouth. The rest is just stirring.

“What's Mama's cooking tonight not good?” ask Liliana who restored the Dusk consciousness.

Dusk confirmed his sitting and quickly stuffed a spoonful of food into his mouth. “Enak, Mom. Very good.”

“If it's good why from earlier your food is only reduced a little?” ask Liliana again. Dusk is not used to eating like that.

“Nothing, Ma. This Dusk is still eating,” replied Dusk then back spooning food into his mouth several times so that his mother did not ask again.

Liliana looked like she wanted to speak again, but Andika quickly shook her head towards her. Liliana also abandoned her intentions. Andika knew there must be something that made her daughter like that. But I don't think now is a good time to talk about it.

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After finishing eating Dusk intends to return to his room. When he was about to close the door, the father immediately came to hold him.

“Can Papa talk to you for a minute?”

Dusk shook. “Tired table, Pa. Go straight to sleep. Next time, yes.”

His father was increasingly convinced there was something his daughter was hiding when she saw Dusk's refusal. This was the first time Dusk refused to speak to his father. But he did not want to force the twilight. Maybe twilight is taking some time right now.

“Yes already, do not stay up late and go to sleep,” said the father then kissed the forehead of his beloved daughter.

“If you feel better, you can tell Papa anything. Papa loves you, Dusk,” added the father who got the nod from Dusk.

Then Andika went into her room and Dusk closed the door.

Dusk opened the desk drawer that was beside his bed. He picked up the diary and pen there and took it to bed.

He began to lie down while writing something in his diary.

Lord Bumi Langit Aerospace, only here do I dare to reveal that I love you. I don't know since when this love appeared, I didn't realize it myself. Clearly, just by remembering your face, I felt extremely happy.

Hey, Earth! I'd love to protest you when you scolded me during that meeting. Didn't you know that your actions hurt my heart? Why is your attitude back to what it used to be? You again looked cold and haughty in front of me.

I don't know if I should be happy or sad when you treat me like a stranger. On the one hand, I do want to make a distance with you so that my feelings are not deeper into you. But in a small corner of my heart there is a rebel, this heart is already adrift by you. Then what should I do?

You know, I couldn't have taken you from my cousin. Moreover, you are the only last happiness he has. I'd feel guilty for the rest of my life if I took you away from him. Although I actually feel sorry for you too because my cousin betrayed you from behind.

Earth, let the distance between us remain this big. It's not my will, but it's my destiny. Maybe fate brought you and me together to teach me that everything I want is not necessarily what I can have, and that includes your love.

Tests.

A single drop of the Twilight tear escaped so easily that it made the book wet. He quickly dried the book and closed it.

Relieved. That's what Dusk feels now. At least what was stored in his heart he had already poured out. He kept books and pens back in his drawer. Then he went into the blanket to rest himself.

“Hopefully my mood is back tomorrow. Calm Dusk. You have to face all this. You certainly can,” said Dusk cheering himself.

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In another corner of the room was the Earth still awake. He sat on his bed looking at the phone in his hand.

Several times he seemed to type a message, and then the message was erased again. And so he kept doing it over and over again. The message he typed was for Dusk.

He was worried between wanting to apologize to Dusk for his actions this afternoon or not. Honestly, he actually felt very guilty for treating Dusk like that. But on the other hand he is also still upset when he remembers Dusk in Dimas' arms.

“Ck!” The earth just clucked and threw his phone carelessly. He was still too jealous to remember that. Finally, he abandoned his intention to send a message to Dusk.

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