First Wife's Last Tears
Mental disorder

After the discussion, Lisna returned to the room and immediately fell asleep. There was no crying and no complaints from him. He was just sound asleep resting his heart and mind at least tonight.

Fauzi was sitting next to Lisna on the edge of the bed. She wore the soft face of the woman she called her best wife.

"I'm sorry, Lis. I'm such a despicable husband who would break your heart. I'm sorry Lisna." He warmly kissed Lisna's forehead which really has entered into his dream.

"I promise I'll never divorce you, Lis. You will remain my best wife at all times. I do love Wulan, but you are my life, Lisna."

After saying that, Fauzi went to lie down next to Lisna. Then, he sent a message to Wulan that he had received the blessing of Lisna to marry Wulan.

And in her room, Wulan seemed very happy because she finally had to step in, she would soon marry Fauzi. His first love and girlfriend. Fauzi who was loved so much from the beginning until now.

Not wanting to miss the happy night, Wulan invited Fauzi to meet. At first Fauzi refused because he did not want to leave Lisna alone at home. But, then Wulan sent a picture of himself dressed in night service complete with his powerful voice that teased Fauzi.

Faith Fauzi who was weak and easily defeated his passions, immediately rushed to the Wulan house by taxi.

It didn't take long, it only took about twenty-five minutes, Fauzi arrived at Wulan's house. She is greeted by Wulan who is bent down like a caterpillar teasing Fauzi.

"Wulan, you're so seductive darling." The whisper of Fauzi in Wulan's ear.

"I will give you the best service tonight, my dear." Temptation of Wulan again.

Long thought Fauzi carried Wulan up the stairs to Wulan's room. Once in the room, Fauzi locked the door shut and there was a deadly fight inside.

Meanwhile, Lisna who had really slept soundly woke up when she heard the sound of the door opening. Unbeknownst to Fauzi, Lisna kept silent about her husband's departure.

Lisna could only sigh deeply and take a deep breath. And because her eyes no longer want to be invited closed, Lisna also took wudu and prayed sunnah istikhoroh two rakaat, asking for guidance from God how she should face this situation.

"O Allah, if You still want the servant to maintain this household, then help the servant to continue to be patient. However, if You are condoning the servant to end this household, then give the servant your best guidance, O Allah."

Her tears flowed after ending her prayer. Truly Lisna could no longer reveal what about her heart that was smashed to pieces.

He continued to read the Qur'an and continued preaching non-stop. All that he did to make his heart feel calmer and patient facing the toughest test in marriage.

It did not feel that it was now at two in the morning, Lisna even fell asleep in her alphabet. When he woke up, his ears heard the sound of the door opening.

Fauzi came home after a fight with Wulan. He didn't want to be caught by Lisna.

Lisna quickly cleaned the prayer mat and her face, then she went back to lying on the bed and pura sleeping, as if not knowing what.

Once Fauzi slowly opened the room door, and when Fauzi entered the room, Lisna's nose could inhale the pungent smell of perfume from Fauzi's body. Yes, Fauzi brought fragrant perfume on Wulan's body.

Azaghfirullah O Allah. How beautiful you are. I have even given permission for you to marry that woman, but you have instead done this cruel thing to me.

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Just before Fauzi woke up, Lisna had already left for the office. Although her heart was broken and wounded, Lisna still did her duty as a good wife and gave her best service to her husband. At least that is still being commanded by his heart and mind.

Lisna left for the office feeling unsettled. Even until he arrived at the office he could not control the pain that was increasingly tormenting him.

Lisna went to the toilet many times, she vomited. It wasn't that she was pregnant, but she had indeed been holding back this puking feeling since last night while smelling the stinging perfume from her husband's body.

That's Aida's voice. She was curious to see Lisna repeatedly going to the toilet this morning.

"I just catch a cold, Da." Sahut Lisna from within.

"Want me to buy you no medicine?" Ask Aida.

Lisna was silent for a moment. It was strange to hear Aida being considerate of him.

"No, Aida. I'm fine."

Lisna came out of the toilet in a neat state back. Although her lips and face looked pale and it was very clearly visible to Aida.

"If you're sick, you shouldn't have to go to work, Lis." Oceh Aida while giving a cold medicine pill.

"Thank you Aida. You're growing attention today just like me." Tempted Lisna with a slightly suspicious look.

Aida just smiled. "That's because we both equally judge a book by its cover." Aida's chirps that make Lisna confused.

"I've never judged you on the outside, Aida." His protest.

"Oh yeah? Then, why don't you ever ask or find out, why am I just pretending to be nice to you when you're fasting on Monday.."

Aida asks Lisna to return to their desk.

"Because I thought you were like that.." Lisna replied not feeling well.

Aida's smile was visible on her lips. "I don't have the money to treat you when you're not fasting." The answer.

"That means that when I fast on Monday, you have more money, is that it?"

"Not really. Precisely because I don't have any more money, and I should try to get along with you, so I thought it would be nice to offer a treat when you fast. It's." Aida was ashamed.

Now they're back at their desks.

"But your salary is more than mine and you're still single too, right?"

"Rubber. But, some of my salary money to pay my papa bank installment, Lis. My father's broke, so I have to pay the debt here and there."

"Oh my goodness, Aida. Why don't you ever tell me that? Oh I'm so sorry, I judged you to find out first." Lisna felt bad day to Aida.

He thinks Aida is just a nosy co-worker and pretends to be nice. Lisna really did judge a book by its cover alone.

"I'm sorry Aida." His master expressed regret.

"It's normal, Lis. I'm also sorry to be impressed with your life. I just want to be more familiar with you. So that I can also be free to tell stories about my life with you."

They smile at each other and apologize to each other. And indeed, the quiet and mysterious Lisna made it difficult for her co-workers to befriend her.

Lisna did not want to open up and be safe with many people. It's just that he has a past trauma that makes him afraid to open up and feel familiar and even love someone. That's because he was afraid that someday the person would leave him when he found out that he was not as patient as they thought.

Actually Lisna is very selfish, stubborn and temperament also has a mental disorder in her past. Until when all of it came out to the surface, making Lisna end up abandoned by her loved ones.

The only way to refrain from bad behavior is only by being alone and being patient with her husband and family. Facing them alone almost made Lisna run out of patience, so Lisna did not want to add new friends to keep the bad nature from coming out again to the surface and injuring the people closest to her.