First Wife's Last Tears
Should I go?!
Yumna's mother did not ask Lisna to continue her story. He tried to give a word that might make Lisna feel that the world is not that cruel and Lisna should know that there might be other problems that make both her parents hate her.
"What would Lisna want to say if Lisna's parents were still around?"
"I love my mom, I love my dad and sister Lia. It's okay you hate me and won't listen to me. Just let me love you guys."
Yumna was amazed by Lisna's heart which remained soft and forgiving despite her life being ruined by her own family.
"Son Lisna isn't angry with them?"
"No."
"Why? Didn't they make Lisna like this…"
"I've heard advice from scholars, no parent hates his child. If the child feels his parents are panning him, then something is wrong with the child's heart."
"Then what does your heart want with them, son?"
"I'm being too selfish. I just want them to always give me affection and not compare me to Lia's sister. But, I never tried to be like Lia's sister who was always submissive, smart and not whiny."
Yumna gently stroked the back of Lisna's hand. He was proud of Lisna.
"Will Lisna forgive Lisna's parents' mistakes?"
Lisna nodded quickly.
"I've forgiven them since the day they left me forever. At that moment I realized they loved me too. It's just that I was wrong, for being too selfish and stubborn. But I haven't been able to forget all the bad things of the past."
"Will Lisna forget all their childhood mistakes, son Lisna?"
"I've been trying to forget it, but every time I meet someone who doesn't appreciate my presence it makes me think of it again, ma'am."
"Did anyone hurt you now, son?"
Lisna nodded.
"Who, son?"
"My husband, my in-laws and my brother-in-law."
"What do you expect from them?"
Lisna was silent for a moment. The question seemed to be a big deal to him.
"I hope they will accept me sincerely as long as I give them all my love." The answer is somewhat doubtful and less certain.
"Then you got it?"
Lisna nodded doubtfully.
"What would you do if you knew your husband and family didn't give you what you expected?"
"Go…"
"Where are you going, Lisna?"
Lisna did not answer. His eyes were still closed, his hands clasped tightly onto Yumna's mother's hand.
"I love my husband, I'm afraid my husband is leaving me. But, I'm not a wife to splinter for her. I can't get pregnant, I'm not happy.." Lisna crying.
He opened his eyes. She was not ready to tell me about her husband. Doctor Yumna understood and immediately hugged Lisna with a warm hug like a mother's embrace.
Yumna invites Mirna to join them. Mirna happily approached him sitting next to Lisna.
"Lisna feeling better now?" Ask Yumna.
Lisna nodded. *Yes I feel better after revealing all about the past that I have been living in myself. Now, I am no longer angry at the treatment of my parents. I'm sure they have their own reasons. They love me so much. Even they lost their lives trying to chase me down to apologize to me that night.*
"Try to remember every fun moment with both parents and Lisna. Slowly forget the bad moments that happened in the past. Believer, a mother loves a child born from her own womb."
"Thank you, ma'am." Lisna.
"Mmm, and one more. Do not feel discouraged because you have not been given the opportunity to get pregnant. Nak Lisna must know better what Allah says in the Quran. Verily, Allah will give the offspring to whom He wills. Don't be sad about not having children. It could be, it's God's way of keeping nak Lisna from a mischievous child for example and many other things that only God knows. So, be patient, son."
"Oh, may I give up on surviving with her husband and family who no longer consider me to be present?"
Yumna smile. She briefly stroked Lisna's cheek and swept away the remaining tears at the end of her eye patch.
"Go son. Find a place where your presence is welcome, find a place where your shortcomings are valued as an advantage by them, and find someone who can give you happiness without your command."
Mirna embraces Lisna. She took care of Lisna's back which was very tired of supporting her tyrannical husband for the past seven years.
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Lisna asks Mirna to drive her home to Wulan. There were still things he had to do before he completely left behind those who had never considered his presence.
When he arrived at the house, the sight seen by Lisna really made his heart ache.
Wulan sat on the sofa while eating fruit, while Fauzi lay on Wulan's lap. Fauzi's face he buried the area of Wulan's stomach that was still flat.
"Papa's son, healthy healthy in the womb of mama yes, son. Papa loves you very much." Fauzi spoke to the baby.
"Sir, Lisna's home!" Wulan exclaimed as she realized Lisna's presence.
"It." Lisna answered just that.
He continued his steps to go to his room. It was painful to see her husband's affection with his honey.
"Round rapo playing with that brondong?"
That's Fauzi's voice, that's what he's pointing at Lisna. Lisna's move stopped by itself even though she doubted whether Fauzi spoke to her or not.
"It turns out, all this time the wife I was proud of, played with fire behind me." Fauzi.
He had risen from his position. The Wulan cell phone arrived, and then she walked over to Lisna.
"Did Brondong drive you more crazy than me?" Fauzi's whisper in Lisna's ear.
"What do you mean, I don't…"
"This what?"
Fauzi showed a portrait of himself as he got into Eagle's car that night.
"Where did I get…"
"What's? You think I'm a fool Lisna. You think you can fool me?"
"Mas, she.."
"He's yourlover. Rich people who can afford to buy your body at a high price? So Lisna?"
"Astaghfirullah, sir. Listen to me first, don't just accuse.."
"Who originally accused Lis. I have proof. I didn't think you were a player. Disgusting." Shouted Fauzi while pointing right at Lisna's face.
Wulan is like watching a husband and wife fight drama in person. He smiled as he continued eating the apples.
"Mas, listen to me first.."
"I don't need any more explanation from a disgusting woman like you Lisna."
"Then divorce me now, ma'am!" Lisna cried out in the end because she could not bear to hear Fauzi repeatedly calling her a disgusting woman.
"Oh you dare to yell at me now? You must be proud because there are people who are crazy crazy about you, right?"
Fauzi pushed repeatedly on Lisna's shoulder. But Lisna just kept her eyes closed.
"You want me to divorce you so that you can run away on that flock. Don't expect Lisna. I will never divorce you." Fauzi whispered in Lisna's ear, before she finally pulled Lisna to take her to the room.