Give me back my son
A Decision

I left the room of Aunt Seruni with a very broken heart. In the lobby, I deliberately sneaked to be invisible to mas Akbar, then passed quickly to the house in a taxi.

At home, I prepared a large suitcase filled with my clothes and Sean's clothes. Then take one backpack that I filled with my laptop and some maps of my work.

After everything was done, I hurried everything I put in the red car that used to accompany me on the move if not ushered Akbar mas, then I picked up Sean at the parlor next to our house.

"Where is Yan going? Have you met Akbar's mother?" ask aunt Vienna.

"Bi, sorry, I can't tell you now. But obviously I have to go for a while. Oh yes, please pick up the kids. If there's anything tell me through WA. I will also ask Vishnu to help aunt take care of the children." I said, then immediately passed while holding Sean who was a little refused to be invited to leave.

"Aldi doesn't want to come. Aldi wants to play with friends." he started whining when the car started to go.

"Darling, we should go for a minute. Mama found a very nice toy store. Mom wants you to shop there. Want huh?" I use the seduction style with toys that usually always succeed in beating children.

"But buy a lot of games. So that you can be given the same Tono, Ical and Dede as well" he said.

"Ready. Aldi will be the one to choose." I said.

The car continued to go, not realizing we had driven far enough, Aldi to sleep because it had gone for thirty minutes. Meanwhile my HP kept ringing. Apparently a phone from Akbar's mas. Either he knows it or he doesn't, but obviously I can't lift it now.

Finally, after a journey of an hour, we arrived at the place I was headed. A place where I'm sure Akbar won't be able to find me. Not to forget that I also turned it off so that he could not track the GPS on my cell phone which is usually always activated.

"Darling, we've arrived." I said, as Sean's eyes opened as soon as the car stopped.

"Where's the toy store?" sean asked, he looked to the left right, but what was seen was a stretch of green plantation. Sean rubbed his eyes, asking where the toy store was.

"Sorry son, we go to the store tomorrow because now we have to come here first" I said, taking him down.

Sean shook his head. He refused. If there is no toy store, he asked to be escorted back to the orphanage so that he can continue playing with his friends.

"Later to go home, now go down first." I carried him so he would come down. The boy was fortunately getting used to me, although not too close yet but he was willing to interact a lot with me. Even wanted to be taken care of directly by me.

"Where?" someone called. Ms. Tari, the home mom who used to nurture and raise me and the other orphanage children. But it turns out the guy who had a dark past with my dad. He also helped until I got into the trap mas Dani.

"Mom" I said. Since deciding to pull over for a moment, disappearing from the life of Mas Akbar until finding a solution to our problem, only the name of Bu Tari came to my mind. Because he's the only one I know of whose family I have other than the orphanage, even though he betrayed me. "I'm sorry if my arrival makes you uncomfortable. But I don't know where else to go. I'm entitled to this house anyway, right?" my question, while pointing to the house he now occupies.

Miss Tari told me to come in. Our attitude is still equally awkward. He still feels guilty to me, while I have actually given up everything myself. Most importantly my son is back. Her story with my parents is not my right to judge because it is not my domain.

"I will prepare everything so that you are comfortable here" said Ms. Tari. He opened a room with a bathroom in it. Bu Tari said this is the largest guest room in this villa. "Rest. Must be tired on the road. I'll make you some food." and then he goes back.

I put the suitcase and the bag in the closet. Then ask Sean to sit on the sofa next to me. But the boy refused.

"I want to go home, Mama!" he insists.

"Please baby, tomorrow we go home" I said, trying to persuade even though Sean refused

***

Sean who was originally fussy asked to go home in the end also collapsed after being invited by Bu Tari. My son was invited to fish in a pond next to the house. He also played in a garden not far from the villa. The boy now looks very carefree thanks to Bu Tari who managed to persuade him.

The night his heart, after tired of playing all day, he immediately slept soundly after the prayers of Isya.

"It seems Sean is fit to live here" I said, recalling how cheerful he has been all day. Also eat so much when only cooked vegetable soup and fried tempeh. Sean also likes to eat boiled corn. Bu Tari until promised to take him to the market tomorrow morning if not fussy for corn kajan boiled again. "Thank you, ma'am." I said

"I don't deserve to be thanked" he said. "I've made you suffer. I was the one who made you lose Sean. I'm really sorry to see that kid like this right now." he looked sad.

"I've forgotten all that, Mom, for me, the most important thing is that Sean is back. Although there are many wounds to get her, after all, mother also has a lot of goodness that should not be erased just because of a mistake." I said.

"Then what about your husband? When do you want to hide like this? I don't care if you guys stay here long, even forever I'll be so happy, but ...."

"Sorry Mom, this is the best move for me right now. I hope there's a better way out." I said.

"Well, if you avoid there's no best way out."

I'm silent. Choose to play with your own mind.

I lost my son and know what it's like. Pain, sadness, anger, hurt. How could I do the same to another mother?

"Begging God for the best way, Yan. He can give you a way out. I know it's not worth advising like this, but I say InshaAllah is right" Ms. Tari said again before we went back to our respective rooms.