Heart Sincerity
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"Why else would Lo Ham?" ask Reza who just came. Now they are in a cafe because Arham asked Reza to meet him.

"Become pregnant" said Arham, rubbing his face violently.

"Seriously lo, well congratulations bro. It will be ponakan berati gw" said Reza excitedly, but not with Arham. Reza realized that, he looked at Arham's face so closely.

"Why is your face? Are you unhappy about having kids?" ask Reza full of question marks.

"Gw can not accept the child, I am still afraid" said Arham so frustrated.

"Fearful? Afraid what?"

"Gw is afraid of the events that happened again, I can't lose Dara Za. I can't live without him, you know how crazy I was?" Arham was so frustrated, he ruffled his hair violently.

"Ck, that's the past. I'm sure this time Dara will be fine, at this time your wife is old enough to get pregnant. One more thing, now you're leaving your wife alone at home?" said Reza who answered a nod by Arham.

"Fuck lo!! I'm asking you to go home now, your wife needs you Ham. Don't repeat your mistakes before Ham, go home" Reza looked at Arham.

"But gw... "

"Go home, now is not the time to escape the situation. Talk about this carefully Ham, I'm sure you will receive prospective children Lo. You're old, bro, think grown up. Don't lose to adek lo" said Reza while patting Arham's back. Arham just kept quiet while digesting Reza's words.

After a while, Arham got up from his seat and left without a word. Reza who saw that could only shake his head.

"Lo doesn't change Ham, your mind is always shallow" said Reza, who rose from his seat.

***

The atmosphere of the house is very quiet, Arham entered the house with a shammer. The mind never breaks from past events that have destroyed his life.

Arham turned the door knob slowly, his heart continued to thrash to open the door and embrace the wife. But the fear in him was already in power until he was reluctant to approach his wife.

Arham looked at the slender body of the wife who was now asleep while hugging a rectangular object. Arham walked up to Dara, he took the object in Dara's arms slowly. Arham stared at the object that had been adorning his room for 3 years. Yeah, it's a picture of her wedding to Dara.

"Sorry" said Arham sitting next to Dara, he stroked Dara's head gently. Dara who was disturbed was now awake from her sleep, she turned her body to face Arham. Dara's tears flowed back on her smooth cheeks.

"Why mas? Why?" dara asked with a trembling body. Arham immediately pulled Dara's body and held her very tightly.

"I'm just afraid of losing you, I don't want things to happen again. I was afraid, afraid that you would leave me Dara" said Arham who also cried. Dara was very surprised by Arham's words, he let go of his wound and touched Arham's face so messy.

"Mas, look at Dara" said Dara cupping Arham's face with both hands. Arham also listened to his wife's orders, he looked at Dara's beautiful face so closely.

"Fool, sustenance, death are all God-defining. We as human beings cannot change or avoid it. This child is sustenance for us mas, we cannot refuse it. For the business of death, we also never know when it will come to us. One thing we must understand, if God has not willed then what we fear will not happen mas"

"many Istigfar, ask God for forgiveness" added Dara who then immediately embraced Arham.

"God will never test his people beyond the limits of our ability, so do not ever make a bad guess to God" said Dara stroking Arham's back.

"I'm sorry, I'm just scared. I'm afraid of losing you, I love you so much Dara. I wouldn't live without you" Arham hugged Dara so tightly.

"Mas, don't be too strong. Our baby is in pain" said Dara. Arham who heard that immediately let go of his wound. Arham stared at Dara's face so intensely, then he switched to kissing Dara's forehead very gently.

"Thank you" said Arham. His right hand now turns on Dara's flat stomach.

"Papa's sorry baby, papa didn't mean to hurt you" said Arham, he aligned his head with Dara's stomach. A warm kiss landed on Dara's stomach.

"Adek sorryin papa really" said Dara imitating the voice of a child. Arham looked back at Dara's face, he examined the beautiful face of the wife so painstakingly.

"I love you" whispered Arham as she rubbed Dara's smooth cheeks.

"I love you to Daddy" said Dara with a sweet smile. Dara pulls Arham's hand and puts it in her stomach.

"By sleepy, I hugged ya" said Dara so spoiled, Arham smiled and nodded. Arham wrapped his hand around Dara, while Dara tightened her body to seek warmth.

"Tomorrow we'll see a doctor, I don't want anything to happen to you" whispered Arham. Dara looked at Arham then nodded in agreement.

"Sleep, good night" said Arham hugging Dara so tightly. They both fell asleep in a beautiful dream.