Heart Sincerity
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Hearing Nissa's consciousness, Dara went straight to the hospital. He left Azka in his father-in-law, but Ara and Alan still he brought. For one week Alan continued with Dara. It also changed the jealous nature of Ara into a more understanding child. That little girl was indeed very different from a child her age.

Dara was silent for a moment when she saw Arnold sitting in a doldrums.

"How's Nissa doing?" Dara ventured to ask.

"come in" said Arnold without looking. Then his gaze was fixed on the little boy who continued to hide behind Dara.

"Let's go baby" Dara said as she noticed Arnold's gaze on Alan, she pulled Ara and Alan in.

"Assalamualaikum" said Dara when he went inside. But Nissa was still asleep. Alan let go of Dara's grasp and immediately ran at Nissa.

"Mama" call Alan up the gurney. Dara who saw it was about to hold Alan back, but Nissa's eyes had already opened.

"Alan" said Nissa stroking Alan's head, her eyes still looking cute. My eyes now turned to the hooded woman Navy who was smiling at him.

"Become" said Nissa so weakly. Dara nodded and walked over to Nissa.

"Hows it? What are you feeling huh?" dara asked while bringing Ara to sit in a chair, while she chose to sit next to Nissa who was still empty.

"I don't know" Nissa said with tears in her eyes. Dara who saw that instantly shook her head and swept away the tears that drenched Nissa's cheeks.

"People who are patient and always sincere in everything will get happiness. Don't have bad thoughts over what happened, we humans can only plan. But what governs everything is Allah SWT." said Dara stroking Nissa's head. Hearing Dara's words, Nissa grew sobbing. She hugged Dara and cried.

"I can't keep my son Ra, I'm so weak" Nissa said with a trembling body.

"No dear, it means not yet sustenance. God willing everything will be replaced with a better one" Dara cupped Nissa's face, now they lock each other's eyes.

"Look, you're a great woman. You can go through all the hardships alone. You are great, no woman is as strong as you" Dara smiled. Nissa hugged Dara.

"I'm sorry, I'm not your best friend" Nissa said.

"Mama don't cry" said Alan staring at Nissa so sad, his tears had stemmed perfectly.

"Alan, mama's boy. Mama apologizes dear" said Nissa immediately hugged Alan. Dara smiled, she wanted to cry. But it was impossible for him to do, now Nissa needs a strong backrest. Dara must be a solid wall so that his fallen friend does not fall into a deep abyss.

"Alan don't cry, Ara is not angry anymore if you hug Alan. Don't cry, will you? Later Ara will cry" said Ara so innocently. Dara smiled, she was so happy that Ara had now changed. No more spoiled and sulking Ara.

"Alan did not cry Ara, Alan was just sad to see my mother cry continuously" said Alan wipe his own tears. Nissa and Dara who heard that could only smile. The two children become their own entertainment for Nissa's grief.

"Thank you Ra" said Nissa holding Dara's hand.

"Don't hesitate, we promised we'd stay together. It's just that Syila can't attend, at the moment she's not well. Congenital pregnancy" said Dara.

"I see, send her a greeting" said Nissa.

"You must heal, we will gather again" said Dara so excited. But Nissa's face showed no happiness at all.

"What's wrong?" dara asked when she realized that.

"Huh? Wh why? Don't you still have Nis' husband, what's up, huh?"

"I'm tired Ra, I want to live a normal life. I also want to be happy like everyone else." now Nissa looked at Alan who was playing with Ara.

"Then what about her?" dara asked, looking at Alan.

"He will be with me, no one wants him" Nissa said. Nissa looked back at Dara, her hands clasping tightly onto Dara's hands.

"Do you want to help me Ra?" nissa looked at Dara with hope.

"How about your husband Nis, however you still have a husband. A wife who goes out without her husband's permission is a great sin"

"I'm getting a divorce" said Nissa, letting go of her hand. He resuscitated his body and looked straight ahead. Dara looked at Nissa in disbelief.

"Nissa, you know not ka... "

"I know it's Ra's sin, but I'm not the one who can continue to be patient. I can't take it anymore, I want to be happy too" Nissa said, her voice trembling. His heart is very sick. Dara looked at Nissa so pityingly, her hands outstretched to stroke her best friend's shoulder.

"Don't make a decision when your heart is hot, think with a cool head. I'm not forcing you on Nis, but I want the best for you."

"Well, you can come with me for some time. At that moment you also have to think about your future Nis, don't let the wrong step" Dara smiled and hugged Nissa. He knows what his best friend is feeling right now.

***

The sound of the hospital device broke the silence. The couple were silent to each other, no one wanted to start talking.

"Is there no chance for me?" in the end Arnold relented, he started to talk. Nissa who heard that was still speechless, her mouth locked tightly.

"I know I was wrong. I'm a jerk, I'm a fool and I'm so mean. But I want to change, I'm sorry. Give me a chance" added Arnold, he was about to tap Nissa's arm. But Nissa quickly avoided. He turned his back to Arnold.

"I'm really sorry" Arnold looked at Nissa's back, hoping that the body would turn around.

"It's too late, it's too late. Our son is no more, it's because of you. I hate you, I hate you!!" nissa shouted, she turned her body. His eyes turned red with anger. He rubbed his tears violently.

"You're the one who said that everything I had was worthless. You'll never accept anything I have. And that's right, that innocent child became a victim of your crime. You're evil, I hate you."

"Go!! I want to be alone" Nissa turned her back to Arnold. His body trembled and the sound of his sobbing was clearly heard.

"MISSY... "

"I want to be alone, please respect me a little" Nissa said. Arnold closed his eyes. He does not want his emotions to take over.

"All right, I'll go. I hope you think about everything. I really sincerely want to fix everything Nissa, I love you" Arnold said before leaving. He looked at Nissa's back which was still shaking. His feet stepped up to leave the room. For the last time he turned his head and hoped Nissa would stop him. But it was all just in Arnold's shadow, Nissa's patience was completely exhausted.

After Arnold's departure, Nissa turned her body around. His cries broke, he stared at the door and wished the man back. He pulled both of his legs and drowned his face. A roaring cry filled the room. Only he and God know what he is feeling.