Holy Marriage
Disappointed Expression
“And you didn't turn me down there because you knew Rafa was there? You're excited about my decision, aren't you? I don't know how you spend time with Rafa or Aldi on campus.”
“Mas Alan, enough! Don't suspect me!” exclaimed Anna with a rather high tone. “Why can't you trust me as much as I trust you? When you are very close to other women who are clearly dating, I can still hold my trust in you. I keep trying to think positively.”
“There's no reason a woman would want me to doubt me. I'm yours, and you know it. As for me, what reason would I be able to trust you? From the beginning, I knew you still harbored feelings with your ex. And now you guys look always close.”
“I can what? What makes me this way is just the situation and the conditions. I had absolutely no taste for Rafa, and Aldi was just a lecturer I had known for a long time. That's aja. Do you still not believe that?” Anna gritted her teeth, her emotions had been provoked.
“Entai!”
What a frustrating answer. “What does that mean? So now what do I have?”
Alan rubbed a rough face then passed Anna and exited the room.
Anna could only gawk at Alan's departure. His body fell and sat on the side of the bed. Her cry broke and her shoulders trembled. Anna is so confused, actually Alan is acting like that because of jealousy, or just a reason to be able to find Anna's fault so that he can freely relate to Cintya? Why can't Alan believe it? How else should he behave?
“Huaaaa...” Anna's cry completely broke the silence.
Alan was driving the car with an erratic feeling. Is this how it feels to be in love? Heartache, jealousy peppered fear of losing the edges even feel irritated. He loves Anna so much, but why is he so angry and wanting to vent his anger just for jealous reasons?
Her overflowing love for Anna made her feel a great sense of jealousy. That's why I was hurt.
Alan felt himself childish. But sometimes, in certain people, the childish attitude of men actually appears to the woman who is loved. And it happened to Alan.
He should be able to take a mature attitude, but in fact not.His heart cannot be controlled. This is how you express disappointment.
If only his love for Anna was not deep, perhaps his jealousy was not as deep as it is now. Precisely because his love is too deep so that his jealousy is sometimes unreasonable. It's not that he's concerned with his own feelings, but it's too difficult to manage his feelings to flow as he wants. He feels his love is being threatened, and he does not want what he loves to be disturbed by others, he just wants to be number one in Anna's life. His exaggerated attitude was only the effect of fear of loss. Does his great love make his sense disappear?
Time and time again Alan hit the roundabout of the set. Confused, all wrong. He loves Anna, but why not put his ego aside? Why still put emotion first?
Even when he reached the office, Alan could only be pensive thinking about what had just happened. Reno had gone back and forth into the room where Alan was staying, but Reno did not dare to speak because she saw Alan's face bent. Eventually he chose to leave again and left Alan alone.
TB