I'm Surrendering, Mom!
THE AMM 44

"I don't want anyone to feel sorry for. I also don't want to make other people as an outlet. I prefer to live alone as long as my heart is comfortable. It's better than living together, but not in love. I've been traumatized. However, I have to realize one thing as an ordinary human being shouldn't be for us to be selfish."

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Hendarto continued to urge his daughter. He realized it was not good to use others let alone the goodness like what Dirga offered. However, Hendarto will consider because Dirga is willing to do so sincerely. In fact, the man was willing to accept Gisela as she was, including the fetus that was in Gisela's womb even though it was not her flesh blood. 

"How, Gis?" ask Hendarto. I don't know how many times that guy asked. However, Gisela's lips remained tightly clenched. I haven't answered my question since.

"I don't need anyone's mercy." Gisela's voice sounded quite heavy. Honestly, he has not been able to make a decision for now. The heart of the woman was still very worried. 

"Om, let Gisel think things through. It is not good if the decision is taken in a hurry. I will wait patiently and whatever decision Gisel will make, I will accept" Dirga said. Confining everything. He realized, it was impossible to continue forcing Gisel. If he still insisted, which was not Gisela asking for consideration, the woman would certainly immediately reject him. 

"All right then. Later let me talk about this again with Gisel," said Hendarto. Come finish the conversation. 

"Then I say goodbye, Om, Auntie." Dirga greets both of Gisela's parents. Then he turned to Gisela for quite a long time even as if he did not want to let go.

"I hope you're not just thinking about yourself, Gis. Think also of your baby. Do not let him be born without the figure of a father because it will definitely make his life feel heavy," said Dirga Lirih.

Just as Gisela was about to argue, Dirga had already left the room first until Gisela's words were only stuck in the throat. He could only look at Dirga's back which slowly moved away and finally disappeared behind the door. Gisela's rough breathing was heard loud enough to break the silence in the room.

The woman was worried.

Gisela could never sleep well. Not because of his physical illness, but his mind is not careless. Many things he was thinking about right now included Dirga's words that were very disturbing to his mind.

The shadow when his baby was born and became the subject of ridicule for being born without a father, making Gisela suddenly upset. He didn't want that to happen. However, he also could not possibly marry Dirga just like that. She was afraid that her marriage would fail again. Leaving the pain deep. In addition, Gisela also felt a deep fear of the two Dirga parents who did not approve of the marriage. 

He is sure, parents Dirga would be opposed to knowing that she is currently pregnant and not the seeds Dirga contained. The failure of the household still left the woman traumatized.

"What should I do." Gisela rubbed a rough face. He's frustrated. No longer knowing what to make any decisions. 

In fact, because of his gala, Gisela did not realize that Hendarto had entered his room. The woman gasped when she heard the papa's silence loud enough to be heard in the quiet room. 

"When is he here?" gisela asked nervously. Trying to neutralize his heart. He was sure that the father entered the room not without reason. 

"Since you've been daydreaming." Hendarto sat on the edge of the bed next to his daughter. "Have you made your decision?" 

Right is not what Gisela said. He does not want to discuss this, but if he does not immediately give a decision then the father will continue to urge him. 

"I—"

"Don't say you'll reject a man as good as Dirga" Hendarto said, interrupting Gisela who had just been about to open her voice.