I'm Surrendering, Mom!
THE AMM 68

"Please don't talk like that, Gis. I don't want to part with you. I don't want you to leave me." Dirga looked very begging. However, Gisela shook her head weakly.

"I won't be able to continue if I have to be patient like this. If you love me, don't just pass my lips, Dir. Show with an attitude that you can be firm on your own feelings" Gisela said. She turned her face away because she didn't want to look at her husband. Worried that his heart would be paralyzed when their gazes clashed. 

"Gis, I'm only asking for two weeks and it's not a long time, is it?" Dirga began to get a little upset and considered Gisela's behavior like a child. 

"Yes. But I'm also not sure my patience will last that long." Gisela chimed in fast. 

Silent. 

The two people were both silent and struggling with their own thoughts. Gisela began to dare to look at her husband's face that looked filled with anxiety. Really, Gisela wasn't sure if Dirga could be firm on her feelings or not. 

"alright. I'll try as soon as possible to find a replacement." Dirga silenced their conversation. 

"Yes. Then I'll go home first. Don't meet me if you haven't kept your word. I'm leaving, Dir." 

"Geo ...." 

"Never hold me back, Dir. Forgive selfishness. I have to go and let my heart calm down for a while." Gisela quickly left Dirga's room. Leaving the man who was just flinching in his place. Dirga was eager to chase after his wife, but he was worried that it would make Gisela further away from him. 

For now, indeed moving away and mutual self-introspection is the best way. 

***

With a tremendous struggle, Gisela pulled both corners of her lips. Showing a sweet smile so that the two people were not suspicious. 

"Where are you from, honey?" ask Vera. Rubbing the top of his daughter's head was full of tenderness. 

"Meet Dirga, Ma. But, he was busy with patients." Gisela's lips pursed. Makes it look adorable. 

Hendarto and Vera who heard that just chuckled. "It's okay. Let Dirga work for you." 

Gisela just smiled and then invited her parents to chat a lot of things. Before returning to the room, Gisela first looked at her parents very closely. Staring at the faces as young as they made Gisela's heart rustle violently. There is a heavy burden that feels squeezed the chest until it unconsciously makes the woman's clear liquid flow wet the face. 

"Why are you crying, Gis?" ask Hendarto worried. Feeling anxious when he saw his daughter who was currently rubbing both eyes. 

"Gisela's okay, Pa. I just suddenly feel sad. It's this big, but Gisela can't make you happy at all. There, Gisela always adds to the burden." Gisela spoke with a heavy voice. 

"Don't talk like that. It is my duty to look after and raise you full of love. You are not a burden to us. You are the source of the happiness of our little family. Yeah, right, Ma?" Hendarto looked at Vera who nodded in agreement. 

"Yes, Honey. You better not be like this. Pity your baby if you have a lot of thoughts. Keep happy. Even though you are married, but you are still papa and mama's favorite. Remember, Gis. Don't be sad because your mom and dad love you. Also Dirga as a husband who loves and accepts you sincerely," said Vera. 

Gisela simply remained silent and inhaled a long breath many times. 

If only you knew that I wasn't entirely happy to be married to Dirga. Will you keep talking like this. Forgive me for lying and pretending to be happy in front of you. I don't want to further add to the burden of your life with a love story that I myself am beginning to reluctantly go through.