I NEVER REGRET LOVING YOU
DRINKING AND SMOKING FOR THE FIRST TIME
While Papa Viona who felt being insinuated, chose silence to say nothing.
Instead of later wrongly said to make Mama Viona more angry.
Violin continued to stare at Andi with a look of pity.
He knew Andi's heart was suffering, Andi was just pretending to be tough.
So that they do not have to worry about their situation.
"Ma pa.. It's night time it's better we all rest .."
"Tomorrow morning until afternoon we have a long free time, Andi will bring papa mama and everything, walk the street and see the campus where Viona and Andi used to go to college."
"After that, we can try to play to the big temple in the cool L area."
"There we can walk, photograph, and pray for Viona's happiness in the future."
Mama Viona stared at each other with her husband, both smiling miserably.
"As far as Andi's concerned, just set it up, we'll just come along.."
papa Viona said, patting Andi on the shoulder gently.
Then she stood around Viona's mother's shoulder, the two of them walking into their room, which was located in the middle.
Now in the living room there is only Violin and Andi alone, after papa mama Viona chose to return to their room to rest.
While Viona's two sisters, Doddy and Rina, from the beginning entered the apartment, the two of them immediately happily and enthusiastically chose a room for themselves.
After that the two children immediately slept in their respective rooms, no one came out from inside the room anymore.
Violin looked at Andi with pity and said,
"Sister Andi, if Brother Andi wants to release the burden of feeling brother Andi, let go, do not be held.."
"Violin's ready to be a confiding friend to cheer up brother.."
Andi smiled widely and said,
"What are you talking about, like grandma.."
"Night, you've slept there. Rest, you must be tired too."
andi said as she stood in front of Violin, stroking her hair gently.
After that Andi walked away from Violin alone there, Andi returned to his room which was located at the very front.
While walking Andi pretended to yawn, then quietly remove two grains of your tears that collapsed into his cheek.
Violin sat there staring at the shadow of Andi's back, until it disappeared into the room.
She wanted to scream calling Andi, but she canceled her intention.
He knew Andi would not open up his feelings to him.
Andi does not want to burden his mind, what Andi wants from him, is the focus of the school and in the future becomes a great doctor.
Violin is well aware of what Andi's thoughts and desires are on her.
She was not Viona, there would be no one to replace her brother, treating Andi's wounded and bleeding heart.
Sighing a long sigh, with a sad face Violin walked into her room, which was located across from Andi's room.
Andi himself after entering the room, he walked towards the refrigerator, which was located next to the wardrobe.
In the refrigerator there is available, a complimentary soda drink, chocolate bean biscuits and several cans of beer, and there are several bottles of mini-sized alcoholic beverages, similar to tester on the plane.
Andi took out a few cans of beer and all the mini bottles of alcoholic beverages.
On the balcony there are two lounge chairs, which are limited to a small table.
On the small table was a cigarette ashtray, a pack of cigarettes and a lighter.
Looking at the item with a smile, Andi put all the drinks he brought on the small table.
Andi then sat there alone, pensive and smiling to himself.
Andi lit a cigarette sucked it twice and Andi immediately coughed.
After the cough subsided Andi stared at the cigarette on the clasps of his two fingers and said,
"A lot of people say smoking can damage lung and health, I obviously know that's why I never touched you.."
"But some say, smoking is the paradise of the world, can relieve all the problems and burdens of life.."
"Today I will try to try out your greatness, who knows you can help ease the pain in my heart.."
"If it works, then it's not in vain that I sacrifice my lungs and health for you.."
Then Andi continued to smoke the cigarette inside and then exhaled it out of his mouth again.
So over and over again that a cigarette runs out.
Andi is back on the line for the second time.
In the second trunk Andi began to get used to the smell of cigarette smoke, after smoking a deep cigarette, Andi did not emit direct cigarette smoke.
Andi let the smoke slowly out of his mouth, then again sucked in through his nose.
After doing so, several times, not half a stick, Andi had already started to feel his head becoming light.
Slightly dizzy and somewhat fly, Andi with a smile then started to open the beer can and again said,
"People say drinking you will damage the stomach, but at the same time people say drinking you can relieve sadness.."
"Well today I will try it too, as long as you can lift the sadness in this heart, all this will be worth it.."
said Andi while gripping tightly his chest that felt very painful.
Especially in front of his eyes appeared the shadow of Viona who was staring at him, with tears in her eyes.
Andi's heart immediately felt a tremendous pain, when he was alone, he would definitely scream with all his might.
Unfortunately he is currently with the Viona family, he obviously cannot do it.
Andi opened a can of beer and then drank it half, then he opened a mini bottle, which contained 45% alcohol%.
Pouring all the contents of the bottle until it is finished in a beer can.
Then Andi started drinking it, Andi felt his throat and chest very hot, like burning.
But Andi closed his eyes, and continued to straighten it, until the can was empty, and threw it into the trash.
It was hot at first but long gone, as the alcohol level rose to fill his head.
Slowly Andi's consciousness began to disappear, Andi could not drink and this was the first time he drank.
Of course his body was not prepared to accept the effects of the alcohol.
Andi began to laugh and cry alone, then with a staggering body while holding his head that felt twisted.
Andi walked into the room, towards his bed, Andi immediately fell on his stomach on the bed and blabbed carelessly.
"Actually what I fear is not dark let alone ghosts, what I fear is actually someone who hurts my heart to shatter into pieces and not shaped anymore.."