I NEVER REGRET LOVING YOU
THE PAIN OF THE HIDDEN HEART
"My sisters are small, they all need help with food and school costs."
"If you only rely on my mother's income, it will not be enough, after all you know the cost of college is not cheap."
"Although this semester has paid tuition fees, but the cost of meals, boarding and others still have to pay every month."
"Put it can be resolved, then the cost of next semester and then..."
viona looked down sad.
"I really like you, if it wasn't for this, believe me I would have chosen you to be my companion."
Andi just silently listened without making a sound.
"In... My father coincidentally owed Uncle Rio, now thanks to Rio my father's debt can be delayed until next year.."
"I suspect this might have been Rio, but even if proven I can't do anything either."
viona said bowed sadly.
"Yesterday when I went to the Toilet at the restaurant and Cafe V, my mother called me and told me all these things."
"The point is they want me to foster a relationship with Rio, so that Rio can continue to help my father overcome his problems.."
"After calling my mother, I happened to cross paths with Rio there."
"As soon as I had a little chat with her, she invited me this Sunday night to accompany her to her cousin's party."
"I was powerless to reject her because of my mother's message, as well as her invitation this morning to come to campus together.."
"And now you understand my difficulties.."
Andi nodded then pulled Viona into his arms and said,
"I understand Vi, it's okay if you just do what you think is best, I will definitely support all your decisions.."
"Frankly right now I don't know what to decide, on the one hand I really want to continue with you at.."
"Only with you can I feel happiness and comfort."
"But on the other hand, I also can't choose to have fun over the suffering my family will face.."
Andi let out a long sigh and said,
"Vi you don't have to rush to decide, we just go for it."
"Until you are absolutely sure of your new decision, no matter what your decision, I will support you wholeheartedly."
"Vi can you tell me, how much your father owes right now..?"
"Viona raised her head looking at Andi then raised her hand showing 3 fingers."
"three hundred million..."
guess Andi while looking at Viona.
Viona shook her head and said,
"30 billion in.."
Andi was almost stricken to hear it, if he was not holding on to the edge of the bed, he would have fallen from the bed.
Viona smiled bitterly at Andi's reaction.
"Forget it in. It's none of your business, you don't have to think too much about it."
"We'd better go through our days of happiness while we still can."
"Tomorrow or the day after tomorrow we will see while walking.."
Andi pensively thought, maybe after graduating from college and working in a big office for life was difficult, he raised that much money.
"In. I'm a little hungry we're looking for yuk, which is cheap as long as you're full.."
viona distracted Andi.
He does not want Andi burdened with his family affairs that are not the responsibility of Andi.
Andi turned her head to look at Viona with a helpless look and said,
"Well Vi you're right we'll just go..."
Andi who saw Viona eat it just take a piece of tempeh and vegetables, Andi felt sorry and did not have the heart to see it.
Andi ate in a hurry with egg and vegetable side dishes, while the roasted chicken did not touch Andi at all.
Finished eating Andi using his hand to peel the grilled chicken meat, then sheet by sheet Andi bribe into his mouth Viona.
Viona accepted it with a smile and looked at Andi.
The more Viona eats the more touched, when she is imagined to be separated from Andi later.
Without being able to stand it again the water fell into a drip mixed with rice on his plate.
Andi could only stare helplessly, because both hands were full of soy sauce and seasoning, used to peel grilled chicken meat.
Finally Andi used her little finger and her clean ring finger to pull out a piece of tisue and handed it to Viona.
"Udah Vi don't nangIs anymore, or I'll cry too.."
andi joked, to get rid of Viona's sadness.
Viona's sadness is the thing that Andi doesn't want to see the most, especially when Viona cries.
When you see these two things, Andi will feel his heart is very sick, like being stabbed to hurt and bleed.
Viona received a tisue from Andi wiping away the tears on her cheeks and eyes, then she wiped her slightly greasy lips.
Viona looked at Andi and tried to smile but the smile that came out was a smile full of pain.
Andi could not bear to see it, he put a chicken that was clean he peeled.
"Vi I'm going to the toilet for a second.yes.."
Viona nodded.
Andi hurriedly ran to the toilet, and arrived at the toilet Andi hurriedly washed his hands, then washed his face that was wet by tears that flowed incessantly.
Andi repeatedly punched the wall of the WC to make a sound,
"Dukkp..! Dukkkp...! Dukkk...!"
Andi wanted to reduce the pain in his heart by venting his helplessness of the WC Wall.
Andi did not care about his two fists which were now covered in blood.
Finally Andi sat on the floor and cried bitterly, holding the pain in his heart.
This is the first time Andi has cried since she started attending school until now.
Viona was the only one who managed to make her cry miserably like this..
In..! Andie...! you're okay, aren't you !? you're still inside at..!?"
there was a call from outside Viona whose tone sounded very anxious.
Andi hurriedly got up, washed his hands and face clean, then he put both hands into a bag of pants.
So that Viona does not see and realize it.
Andi stepped out of the WC with a gentle smile, as if nothing had happened.
"In.you why so long in the WC what happened ?"
viona asked looking worried.
"I'm fine Vi was a little mules, maybe mostly sambel, so yeah so deh.."
andi said with a laugh.
Viona smiled relievedly and said,
"now still mules, want to buy drugs loose first not, before returning to the boarding house ?"
Andi shook his head and said,
"No need for Vi, it's been healed yet Yuk, we're home.."
Viona nodded and went forward with Andi's hand, then they walked back to Andi's boarding house.