It's Happier After Divorce
1. Request Marriage Permit?

POV Mia's.

"Mas wants to marry Sarah, Mia."

"Uhuk, what?!" i'm appalled. Is it that easy for my husband to ask permission to marry another woman?

"Who's Sarah, Mum?" I tried to ask, speaking as softly as possible hoping that Mas Dimas was not angry.

"He was my first love" replied Dimas briefly.

Suddenly this heart aches, "First love?" ask me not to believe. "Isn't it me and Audrey's first love?"

"She loves her real mas," said Mas Dimas lightly.

Oh my God .. I can't believe Mas Dimas is able to say it as easily as turning a palm!

Did Dimas not pay attention to my feelings that always try to be a filial wife for him?

"I have a shortage, huh?"

Dimas shook his head, "No. You're a good mom to Audrey."

Hearing the word mas Dimas I corrected the word 'Good Mom for Audrey'.

"That means I'm less of a good wife to you?" My heart is starting to get uncomfortable. I wanted to be angry, but I was afraid my husband was playing with his hands and actually left the house.

Mas Dimas shook his head.

"Then?"

"Sarah has divorced her husband, because Mas is still in love with Sarah, Mas wants to marry Sarah. You want Sarah to be Mas's wife?"

I didn't know Mas Dimas was asking permission or anything. "So, would you like to ask permission to marry Sarah?"

Again Mas Dimas shook his head, which made me scratch my head, between confused and upset with the attitude shown by my husband.

"Come mas. Don't play with my feelings. Or some prank, huh?"

Again, Dimas shook his head. Her flat, expressionless face was very supportive if only she was playing tricks on me.

"Try explaining, Mas. What do you want?"

Mas Dimas seemed to glance at me for a moment. "Not that I told you, I want to marry Sarah! That's not enough?"

"Sorry Mia. But the love in my heart was never there for you."

I'm speechless. Confused, and feeling strange about the situation. "Is there love in my heart for me?"

"Yes. Honestly, I never put love for you in this heart. It was heavy, but I tried. It's just, Sarah's face gets more and more imagined in every second of Mas's blink of an eye."

Tight, sad, disappointed indeed. But I'm grateful that Dimas was honest.

"So you want to end all this drama?" ask me to make sure.

Mas Dimas nodded. A solemn expression that she had on her face made my chest hurt.

"There's not the slightest love for Mia, Mas?" I asked him a second time.

"No. There's no."

I tried many times to ask the same question, but there was no answer. Finally I'm sure she didn't have love in her heart for me when I tried to touch her hand and do some passionate touch-inviting, now I know she's just lustful to me, not to love me.

It's okay

I'm trying hard.

"It's been that I didn't love me, but wasn't I happy for seven years living with me and Audrey? Mas, don't you feel sorry for Audrey? He was a kid, mas. Audrey needs you in her developmental period."

I'm still trying to keep my husband from his crazy decisions. Marrying another woman when we are not at odds is not a strange and rare thing?

"So you rejected Mas's intention in Audrey's name, did Mia?" the sound of Mas Dimas began to rise.

"It's not .. It's not so, Mom. Mia just–"

"What only? Mas want to get married is up to Mas, if you do not want to be able to marry without permission from you. Enough of this charade. We're just a couple tied to an arranged marriage, and I'm not at all happy with this marriage. Bummer, Mia. Sick of it!"

Mas Dimas' voice sounded so disappointed, I quite understand. Seven years ago I felt it too.

It was still in the first weeks of our marriage. I feel very different and uncomfortable in other people's homes. It doesn't matter if the other person is my husband.

But I tried to calm myself down and accept destiny. Trying to do my job to the best of my ability and learning to love my husband. We did not know each other, because this marriage was started because of an arranged marriage. And now, the one I tried to do is now reaping the rewards. I managed to love my husband.

Why can't my husband do it?