Letter to Atlanta
22. I want to die

Purnama nodded slightly. "depends. If the patient routinely conducts psychotherapy, the feelings of anxiety experienced will slowly disappear over time without the need to take drugs."

Returning with their own thoughts, Yunaka and Joni were just thinking about Elisha's condition. How the girl secretly hid something that might be very important, how foolishly they just learned a surprising fact about the physical and mental condition of her sister.

The doctor returns to retrieve a pet bottle that Joni accidentally keeps on the table.

"If this is, Qysmia. A combination weight-loss drug from Phentermine and Topiramate. Actually this is not a hard drug, but if consumed continuously is not good either."

"What is this, Mom." Joni pointed at the pet bottle with the white tablet medicine.

The full moon frowned, rolled back the pet bottle, then said. "Oh, here, stomach wash. You don't have to explain what's the point, you know, Jon?"

Joni nodded, her brain thinking wildly about how Elisha was taking drugs that could be said to be quite a lot and varied, isn't that not good for the girl's body?

"This one, sleeping pills." After saying that, Purnama leaned his back on the head of the sofa, staring alternately at the two men in front of him.

The shocked look on his face mixed with guilt imprinted there. Purnama understands something that might happen to both.

"But why are you asking about these drugs? You want to open a pharmacy, a pharmacy business?" ask the doctor.

Joni lowered her head, massaging her temple which suddenly turned dizzy.

"Engga, Mother. But, if for example the drugs are taken simultaneously how, Mas. What side effects?" Joni again asked the question, at least reducing one by one the cause of his head that was increasingly buzzing.

Purnama straightened his body again, then crossed his legs. "Every drug has different side effects, Jon. But if these drugs are consumed together, yo obviously it's not good for the liver the same kidney, can be damaged later if taken continuously."

Yunaka stared at the row of medicine on the table. Not much different from Joni, the man felt like his heart was being crushed, he wondered since when did Elisha use the drugs.

"There's a possibility of dependence, Mommy?" This time it was Yunaka who asked the question.

"Depends on the time of use of the drug itself. If the user regularly consumes, it will become a habit and dependence. He'll be looking for the cure, he'll feel like he's missing something if he doesn't take the medicine."

Feeling that it was enough with all the answers from the Purnama doctor, Joni and Yunaka immediately said goodbye, which was in their minds only one, namely Elisha. They did not want to wait for Elisha to return home, considering that Pratama would probably hear and be the material to corner Elisha again.

They rushed gas to Elisha's school. The two wanted to hear the girl's explanation as soon as possible, hearing the cliche's reason that would later slide free from her own lips.

"Well, are you like me? Elisha could not take that much medicine if he did not stress the same demands Papa," said Yunaka in the middle of the trip.

Joni sighed, throwing it rough. "Gue thought so too, Ka."

On the streets that are stretchy with vehicles, Joni spurs the speed of his luxury car above average. He only wanted to see Elisha immediately that second as well. Joni slightly glanced at his watch, the school break would soon sound.

In front of the closed school gate, Joni gave a horn, security guard who stood guard as if he knew who was in the car immediately opened the gate, allowing the driver to enter. Joni parked her car in a parking lot full of cars.

Sure enough, when they got out of the car, the break bell rang until it sounded to the parking area. They immediately walked a little run towards Elisha's class which required quite a lot of manpower.

They did not care about the gazes of the students who were amazed when they saw the two tracing the corridor, like seeing an artist they had accidentally met. Some of them even capture rare moments such as photographing both. The hysterical sound of the students seemed not to be an obstacle for the two to continue to look for his sister's existence.

From a distance, the two see Elisha who has just come out of class with a man they do not know who he is.

"Sheel!" joni Sahut.

The girl immediately turned her head, two men were running towards her. The smile suddenly disappeared. Atlanta, the man who was with Elisha just noticed everything.

"Ang? Why are you here?" said the girl a little surprised by the arrival of her sisters.

Elisha just smelled lips. He should have known the arrival of his brothers to school, especially if not just asking for reasons that never raised the call.

Joni glimpsed at Atlanta, the man smiled as his bead met Joni's eyes.

"Now, come with Brother. There's something you need to clear." Joni grabbed Elisha's wrist. The girl pulled back when Joni was about to take her away.

"Clearly what the hell, Bang."

"Let's come along." The man drew Elisha's hand to get out of the place. Inevitably Elisa simply complies, walking adjusting the footsteps that Joni would somehow take to nowhere, leaving Atlanta still confused by the actions of the girl's older sister.

Joni takes Elisa to the school parking lot, right where her car is parked. Elisha forcibly threw out Joni's hand.

"What apaan, Bang. If it is not important to mending later at home," he said later.

"It doesn't matter what you say?" For the first time, Elisha saw the lip of Joni.

She shuddered slightly in horror at him, quite flirting when her famously calm, gentle, and non-talking brother looked like he was holding back the fury that could enslave at any moment.

Joni opens the steering wheel door, picks up something and slams back the door until it makes a pretty loud bang. No doubt made Elisha, or Yunaka who was in the place jumped in shock.

"Now, it's obvious what the fuck. You said it wasn't important?!" his words were full of emphasis.

Elisha rounded his eyes perfectly when he saw the plastic bag containing his medicines inside.

"What does all this mean, Elisha!"

With a handful of courage, Elisha said, "Why did you search Elisha's belongings?" his great-grandson.

It practically made the tall man snort. "You brother did not search your belongings, you will not know the secret that you have been covering, Elisha!"

The girl silently lowered her head, reluctantly looking at Joni who was very scary at the time for her.

"Why? You still want to fuck around, huh? Don't think you don't know about all this. Good, yes, pinter you hid this from your own brothers." Joni took her breath, kneading the temple with one hand perched at the waist.

"You think with this your problem will be solved, Elisha? Then what is the use of Brother and Yunaka as your brother? Are we so transparent in your eyes that you're reluctant to share our common problems?"

Elisha was creeping the fabric of her skirt, she was still digesting all of Joni's words which were able to make her heart feel stupefied. He bit his lower lip withstanding the cry.

"You wanna die slow, huh?"

The girl raised her head, with both eyes already glazed over, she turned her head to look at Joni who was looking at her sharply.

"If Elisha had died why, Bang. Not good, yeah."

"Elisha! Watch your mouth!" sahut Yunaka with an excited breath, pointed at his sister.

This time the girl clucked. "It would be great if Elisha died soon. Elisa has cape, Bang. Physical the same inner Elisha cape, already numb," he said accompanied by a drop of tears that fell.

"But this is no way, Elisha." Joni shook Elisha's shoulders with both hands.

"You'll never know what it's like to be Elisha. You will not understand, all this time El who is constantly in demand perfect. Elisha can't, Bang, Elisha can't." The girl was increasingly draining clear water from her fertilizer, she did not care about her fragile figure.

On the other hand, with a fairly close distance, only two cars adrift, Atlanta listens to everything. Listen to what they are talking about. How for the first time he heard the sobs of Elisha, the girl who had always looked tough, fierce, this time looking very fragile, revealed the weak figure of the girl.