Letter to Atlanta
61. I want to survive

Inside the peach-colored room, a girl was still sitting in front of the corner dressing table of the room. His gaze was still staring straight at the glass that reflected a shadow of himself complete with water of a sad face. Pale lips and eye bags due to insomnia make the girl there look like a human who can not be said to be okay.

Breathing again sounded for the umpteenth time. Since her return from the halfway house, Elisha chose to confine himself in the room, he did not want Mama or her brothers to know the situation. He himself did not know why his body had become so weak. Is it possible that kidney failure is getting worse? If true, is the girl's life time in the world dwindling?

The more he thought about his age which most likely will not be long, the greater the fear that always attacks his mind, they always come in a wiggle way, making his chest thump, pounding, never one bit to forgive the great tremors that hit his entire body.

Elisha closed his eyeballs for a moment, feeling the quiet atmosphere of silence increasingly enveloping him. One drop of clear water out of the corner of the eye. It turns out that it hurts, it hurts a lot, when you try to look strong and strong, but reality always breaks everything, as if you said you would not be able to.

Next the girl grabbed a flat object that since morning she accidentally deactivated. Turn it on and see lots of incoming messages from the green app when it activates mobile data. His thumb then selects the topmost order message that he deliberately pinned.

...ATLANTA 🐰...

Elisha sorry, did you see the keynote paper yesterday?

09.10

After reading a short message from the man, Elisha immediately moved towards the study table, seeing if the sheet of paper was meant Atlanta. He was looking for the existence of the paper but the results were nil, there was only a copy of the paper from Atlanta key notes yesterday.

^^^Nothing, Ta. Why anyway? The original^^^

^^^ is in you^^^

^^^15.11^^^

Power's missing. I forgot

15.12

^^^Yes is already gapapa, there is still mine.^^^

^^^Untung sepet dipotocopi, hehe^^^

^^^15.12^^^

Ah yeah. Thanks ya😊

15.13

^^^You're working again?^^^

^^^15.13^^^

I'll be at work soon. Ye

are you resting, huh? Sorry if I

intrude.

15.14

Elisha widened his smile, the girl now turned to sit on the bed while cross-legged. Stare at a row of chats from Atlanta, before his fingers re-typed something.

^^^Atlanta, do you want to promise?^^^

^^^15.14^^^

What promise?😊

15.15

^^^You promised not to leave me.^^^

The promise will continue to be by my side.^^^

^^^ Promise will not go anywhere anything

^^^_my circumstances^^

^^^Yes?^^^

^^^15.15^^^

The girl's gaze blurred, along with teardrops flooding her cheeks. He bit his lower lip withstanding any whistling that might be coming from his mouth. Along with her chest that was pounding fast, Elisha cremated the tight area there. The shadow of Atlanta, and the man's smile was making his heart ache.

He did not want to leave the source of his laughter, he did not want to leave the figure that managed to make it last until that second. Can you blame destiny? Why God is so evil gives a severe trial when he has found a very meaningful figure in his life. Does God not want to make the two men to stay together?

While he waited, there was no response from Atlanta yet to the message he sent. Elisha immediately wiped away the trail of tears that automatically left a reddish mark on the cheeks and watery eyeballs.

The sound of the phone ringing diverts the attention of the girl. He looked at the number of Doctor Tian-Doctor of internal organs who had been dealing with his illness. Elisha raised the call.

"Hallo Elisa's. Don't you forget today's control schedule?"

"Ah, yes Doc. I'm going to the hospital now."

"good. I'm waiting for Elisha."

Tut

Hearing the phone call closed by Doctor Tian, then Elisha moved from the bed, holding his head that felt dizzy. He returned to wearing a jacket, looking at the appearance in front of the mirror. The girl grabbed a lipstick and applied it to her lips, then pulled both corners of the cheek to make her look more relaxed, took a breath, tried to present herself as best as possible in front of her later.

"Elisa, where are you going?" vina said when she saw her son coming down the stairs approaching her in the living room.

"Elisa's going to the house, Ma. Can be."

"Same who. Don't be alone ah. Call Bang Joni there," said he who was immediately given the headband of Elisha.

"Again in the den, Ma. It's busy."

"Yes, you've been sent with Bang Yunaka, yes?"

Elisha breathed slowly. "Bang Yunaka is sleeping. Gapapa, Elisha left alone, not far away, this Elisa already pesen ojek online." The girl grabbed the Mama's hand, peeping briefly at the back of Vina's hand.

"Bye, Ma!" Elisha immediately walked a little run.

"The habit of the child. Gini's afternoon still sleeping." Monologue Vina who he believes is grumbling for Yunaka.

"SYRAM TAKE THE WATER, MA!" Shouted the girl on the doorstep.

In front of the fence of his house, Elisha had seen Mr. ojek online had been waiting for him. The girl approached and they immediately went to the hospital address that Elisha had requested.

Not long after, about 15 minutes Elisha was in front of the high-rise building he was headed.

"Thank you, sir," he said as he gave the green helmet, and was given a nod by the 40-year-old.

He walked back, walked through the main door and then into the lobby to the reception desk.

"Good afternoon, Ma'am, how can I help you?" Greet the girl in the blue sea uniform there kindly.

"Sore. I'd like to see Doctor Tian, Sus."

"good. Did you make an appointment with him?"

Elisha nodded, then said, "It is already."

"Whose name is it, Mommy?"

"Elisa Horatama."

"good. Please wait a minute."

The girl again circulated the view to every corner of the lobby, where there were some patients who were passing by accompanied by relatives, some were still walking in the front garden of the building. Elisha sighed, put both hands in his jacket pocket while thinking about how he himself who was in a position like them, no?

"Sir Elisha." He immediately looked at the woman in front of him. "Doctor Tian was already in his study. Ma'am please meet him on the 6th floor at number 65."

Elisha lowered his head politely. "Thank you."

He immediately headed for the elevator at the end of the hall not far from the reception desk, pressing button 6 that would take him to the girl's main destination. Until the elevator door opened, and the hallway was a little quiet, there were only a handful of nurses walking in the opposite direction to him, he went back to look for room number 65.

As she reached the door with the number 65 on it, Elisha raised his hand, knocking on the door in front with a slightly agitated feeling.

Htc .. tok

"Lake in!" Answer the person inside.

Elisha reached the door knob, turned the object until it made a gap there, then his iris caught the figure of a mature man in clear glasses sitting on the throne of a Doctor.

The man who was doing writing activities there then raised his head when he heard the sound of the door being opened. The physician named Tian immediately gave a friendly smile, rising from his seat.

"Elisa, please come in" he said.

The girl gave a small nod, walked up to Doctor Tian and sat down in front of the man. Noticing Elisa who looked very nervous, the Doctor with a tall stature contained it slightly chuckled.

"Don't be nervous, Elisha. This isn't the first time you've met and checked yourself out with me, is it?" Said.

Elisha smiled awkwardly, then replied, "Yes, Doc. Sorry I should have come this afternoon. If the doctor didn't call me, I might have forgotten," he said there was a tone of regret there.

Doctor Tian shook his hands in the air. "Ah, no problem. Incidentally this afternoon I was a lot of patients, just a little loose afternoon."

"Where are you now? Any complaints?" Its effects.

Elisha turned to lip smacking, playing his fingers that felt very cold like ice, there was a fear when he had to express complaints that often happened to him lately.

"Don't be afraid. Just say. We're here to find a way to the outside, and try to cure the disease, right?"

Hearing the Doctor's words, Elisha began to speak up.

"Last-lately I have often felt soy sauce, dizziness, nausea Doc. Every night I couldn't sleep, insomnia. A few days ago, when I peed, there was a little blood in the urine." Evidently.

Physician Tian looked at the girl before him, the two eyebrows twitching more and more showed the seriousness of the man when he heard the complaint from Elisha. He folded his hands on the table after previously confirming the layout of the glasses worn.

"You often feel chest pain too? Or are you urinating less and less?"

Elisha nodded slowly, Doctor Tian's words were indeed true. Seeing the nod of Elisha's head, the Doctor there immediately massaged his temple, and breathed heavily.

"Elisa, it looks like you have to do another check. The goal is to review kidney function, and detect your current kidney damage."

"What to do, Doc?"

"Should. Because of your complaints, I'm afraid the disease is getting worse."

For a moment, the girl seemed to be thinking. Fear and anxiety growled in his mind.

"Russia ... It's for your good."

He looked up, looked at the Doctor in front of him with a hard-to-read look, before he finally nodded, agreeing to the Doctor's suggestion.

The man in white clothes immediately called his assistant to prepare all the necessities during the examination of Elisha. Doctor Tian made the decision to take a blood test option to find out the work of the kidneys by checking the levels of waste from the blood such as ureum and creatinine.

Also Elisa who only follows the procedures of Doctor Tian. Not long indeed, but when waiting for the test results to the outside that takes a lot of time. It could be seen from the window of Doctor Tian's study, where the sky was starting to blacken, a sign that the day had gone into the night.

Elisha was still sitting on a chair with many belligerent thoughts attacking his already messed up brain. The feeling of uneasiness was still lingering in his mind like a parasite that was hard to get rid of. Thousands of times do'a-do'a asked for help and miracles he said to the Almighty.

Until the door of the room opened, Elisha chose to raise his head which had been weakly bowed. Doctor Tian returned with a piece of paper in his grasp. The girl straightened up as the Doctor in front of her unfolded the paper, perusing the table of Elisha's examination.

The sound*******heavy breath heard by Elisa then made the girl raise her voice.

"Where, Doc?"

Doctor Tian looked straight ahead, looking at Elisha's face meaningfully.

"Tell me Doc how it turned out. I've put everything together."

The man sighed. "Elisa .. from the results of your examination today. Turns out the kidney failure disease that you have been experiencing so far has been...." Doctor Tian hung up his words, it made even more curious Elisa half to death. His chest was pounding violently.

"Why, Doc?"

Doctor Tian shook his head, as if saying something unkind to Elisha.

"It's entered the final stage."

His heart melted, the girl's body weakened instantly. He rounded the glassy eyeballs until the clear water came out of the fertilizer.

"So, for now all you can do is treatment by hemodialysis, or dialysis," he said with a heavy heart. Honestly, seeing the helpless girl in front of him no doubt made his heart also eroded pain.

Elisha immediately wiped off the trail of tears using the back of his hand. Imagining himself having to do dialysis is already very scary, as well as painful, not to mention the side effects that will be experienced after washing blood.

"If I don't do hemodialysis, how long will it take me or my age, Doc?"

"Elisa .. all humans no one knows when death will come, no matter we Doctors, we cannot predict the age of our patients will survive when faced with trials like this." Doctor Tian turned to fold his hands on the table, his gaze never escaping Elisha.

"But, how good we as humans still try to do the best for our healing, right? The rest of us give everything to God."

Elisha looked at Doctor Tian with a pushy look. As it turns out, right now he is struggling to stand between life and death.

"How's Elisha? It is true that hemodialysis will not fully cure, only limited to action to avoid various complications. If hemodialysis is not done immediately, the last step that can be taken is a kidney transplant."