LIFE (Han, Ian, Dina, Ute & Pras)
Ep. 21 Girlfriend Pura² (Han Perspective, Dina and Pras)
...~ HAN ~...
“Pras, can we meet in front of Balairung?” type-me in wa to Pras.
Ting. Not long later enter a reply notification from Pras: “Siap Kak, now?”
“About half an hour if you can. I'm still in Wisma now.” Type me again.
Ting. Pras reply came in a moment later: “Bok Kak, see you in half an hour.”
...***...
“Happy Afternoon Ka’ Han, sorry I met with Lecturer XX and he asked me to help deliver the file to the Care Room first, so sorry if it's too late..” sapa Pras without forgetting to give PPM.
“Nothing Pras, I also not long ago until earlier.” replied me while still concentrating on the laptop on my lap.
“Siap Kak, can I help you?” tanya Pras then, moved closer and sat in the front row of the Hall, right beside me.
“I need a clear nomenclature of the MSME Service in your area and if there is a name and no phone contact-person who can be contacted if you want to ask for data or complete information related to my research plan. Aga complicated because I changed the title LA in this injury time, but I am also very excited because I hope it will be very useful for many people.” I said later, a moment looked at him and continued typing with great concentration.
“For a while yes Brother, I also lack poultice, aga long nomenclature.” replied Pras open his phone.
“This Kak, its nomenclature: Cooperative Service, Small and Medium Enterprises, Manpower and Transmigration Jepara Regency, Kak.” Pras said moments later while showing the results of browsing on his cellphone. I quickly typed the nomenclature in Chapter III about the Overview of Research Objects on my laptop.
“If related to telephone contact-person, I only have a telephone number mba YY, a staff who had given a little information when I visited the office. But for a moment, maybe I can ask him if it is okay to ask for a phone number related officials.” Pras added a few moments later.
We ended up discussing more seriously the contents of my Chapter III LA.
...***...
“Thank you Pras, can’t complete this without you.” a moment later I looked back at Pras while closing my laptop. (translation: can't finish this without you)
“Sama-sama Brother. If possible later after LA Brother so, I ask for the file huh Kak. Next year I will make the basis for the preparation of my LA as well, of course with a discussion that is more adapted to the existing developments.” Pras replied, looking not too excited as usual. After seriously trying to finish Chapter III, I just noticed Pras again.
“Ok, enough about work, what’s up with you Pras? How’s life treating you so far?” I try to solve a little problem. Pras I know is the child of an open person and relatively not difficult to tell the ins and outs of his life. (translation: well, enough about the task, what is with you Pras? How has life treated me all this time?)
“Hm, I don't know Brother, like him no less beautiful if I vent to Brother.” Pras replied while sighing deeper.
“Oh, about the heart huh? Is it with Madya Wanita Praja that a few days ago you had met next to the Library building?” just a little kepo.
“Eh, Ka’ Han kog tau?” pras replied grinningly and seemed to be scratching the back of his head.
“You are not invisible creatures Pras. Yesterday, I saw you guys chatting next to the library. Looks like it looked okay back then?” I said I didn't understand the problem Pras was facing.
“Aish, not chatting Kak. I only had time to see Dina was reading in the Library and I immediately returned to the guesthouse to give leave souvenirs to her. But we ended up passing next to the Library, maybe Big Brother saw us at that time.” Pras said with a reddish face, maybe because of shame and guilt.
“Ga needs to feel guilty Pras. Dina and I have nothing to do now. If you want PDKT to him, yes legitimately, you also still do not have a partner. There is nothing wrong in that.” I said later, trying to look tough and have moved-on.
“Siap Kak. thank you. but if I'm honest, it's been a long time I like Dina, maybe before Ka’ Han and Dina soan first. But I always felt Dina shut herself down, like there was a secret she was hiding, as if all the weight of the world was on her shoulders. So I was very shocked and also sad when we met at the BIP. I don't know when Ka’ Han broke up with Dina, but lately I've noticed Dina is getting thinner and more introverted than I used to know.” the words of this Pras back into me.
“Well, our relationship is not up to the same age as Pras corn. Honestly, I still love him very much.. Dina is a kind and caring girl. But to guarantee the success of a relationship, not just play the feeling. There are many other factors that support or even hinder. But hey's.. If it doesn't’t work with us, doesn't’t mean won't work with both of you too.. It’s hard for me to say this, but I think you two are well-matched each other.” I said later with a new awareness. (But, if it doesn't work out between us, it doesn't mean it won't work out with both of you.. It's hard for me to say this, but I think you two are compatible with each other.)
“Thank you Brother.. The words of this Brother mean a lot to me.” said Pras with a look full of relief.
“Now just convince Dina that you are the best man for her right?” ask me again to try to understand the problem.
“Yeah, that's the main problem now Brother.. Dina looks more shut down than ever. Either maybe you haven't been able to move-on from Ka’ Han or there is trauma? Usually women are more brave than us, this man.” said Pras, who although a little pleasing to me (because it means Dina may still love me), said Pras, but on the other hand, I also feel guilty for making my loved ones unhappy.
“I do not understand if discussing the contents of Dina ya Pras. It would be better if that you ask directly to Dina. But I need to be informed, first time I PDKT to Dina as well, I need all the power I have, use a little bit of seniority-style maksa even. Hm. as we all know, Dina is an independent person, tough and does like to put all kinds of problems in this world on his shoulders. He is a good man who always tries to do good things. It can be a burden indeed for his partner, but hey.is not one of the reasons we are interested in his figure and personality?” I said then to reveal the real confession and shame.
But indeed talking to a sincere Pras and open personality, I also can be more honest to express what we experience and have felt to him. Both of these characters have a tendency to be contagious.
“Iya Brother, really. I need to be more excited to convince her!” pras said with full determination.
“Inget by Pras, Hard to get, hard to lose yes.. Spirit!” I said again trying to encourage him. Pras I no longer see as a rival, but rather a brother who needs encouragement. (translation: something that is difficult to get, difficult to release)
...***...
The guilt that had made a suffering Dina remained sticky in my mind these few days. Somehow eliminate it, not at all thought of the solution. Until I saw the figure of Ute wearing the PDL (Field Service Clothing and Armbands Keep Wisma, which means today Ute is picket), walking alone from the direction of the Post holding the package box.
“Wah there are more dapet neh package shipment? Already passed the examination of the contents of the package Ute?” I asked him to surprise him from behind a palm tree on the side of the road.
“Haish, Ka’ Han.. creative little dunks if you want to ngagetin people!” exclaim Ute shortly after seeing my signboard. Then add with a half smile and a blink of ignorant eyes: “Sorry Kak, can not love PPM, again bring package neh.”
“Muda many reasons, you are obligatory greetings even without PPM!” I said again pretending to be angry with him.
“Siap, good afternoon Kak.” said later while putting his shoulders witty.
“Telat dek..” I replied again and added: “Come my friend used to sit there!” while pointing at the Plaza Menza square above.
“Every wrong..” replied Ute while following my steps towards the place I pointed.
“So whats up next Kak?” he asked a moment later. (translation: so what's wrong?)
“Package from whom ‘te?” I just glanced at the big package on his lap.
“Nyokap Kak, just returned from the conference in country X and bring some new products that have not come out in Indonesia. He said it was okay if I wanted to share it with the friends at Wisma. Eh maybe Ka’ Han want?” he said he offered, while opening his cardboard and showing some TW branded food/beverage storage products that look colorful, at a price that is certainly not cheap.
“Rainbow is the new trend nowdays.” he said again, sorting items that might feel suitable will be given to me. (translation: rainbow is a color that is more popular lately)
“Place for a drink if possible ‘te.” I said a moment later.
“Okey, this is a good one for Ka’ Han, match the same color aura of Kaker” said Ute handed a purplish blue tumbler.
“Thank you.. hm, indeed you can know someone's aura? Will natural or ever learn where?” manya curious. Adding to my admiration for this beautiful girl who is always cheerful. Every time we meet, there are amazing new things about him.
“Can be a little bit aja Kak, had learned from the experts first.” replied Ute tried mysteriously, then back said: “But seriously Deh Kak... What's the problem? Kog Ka’ Han seems to be weighing that much?”
“Hm, you want to know what you want to know so much?” tanyaku jahil, let him change the topic of conversation from the discussion about the mastery of reading aura just now.
“Mau know aja seh Kak, do not use very, so if you do not want to tell you also nothin.” he replied while returning to push his shoulders belaga cuek.
“Oh ok then..” I said then fold hands and keep quiet.
“Iya-iya.. want to know banged deh.. hayu lah Kak’ story, what is it. don't make your sister is curious” Ute finally broke our silence.
“Hm, you know Dina right ‘te?” tanyaku later.
“Oh is still about Ka’ Dina anyway. he said it has moved-on, kog is still sticky in the mind huh? Or still at heart?” tanya Ute is getting nosy and insolent.
“Have moved-on kog beautiful, just yesterday to chat with Pras, who again PDKT to Dina, he said the possibility of Dina who has not moved-on and increasingly closed herself and seemed to suffer greatly. I feel very guilty.” I said at last.
“Hm. before I give a response, I want to ask you first Kak. Who asked to break up first is it? Brother or Ka’ Dina?” asked Ute after we went back silent for a while.
“Dina.. but with a very logical reason and finally we agreed together to part only.” I said quickly.
“It is clear then Kak, it does not mean because Ka’ Dina has not moved-on, but rather because of the guilt she bears.. The burden of guilt for not being able to fight for a relationship and being the first to trigger a breakup is heavy, Kak. So it could be, before making sure Ka’ Han is okay, Ka’ Dina will keep her distance from other men, even as good as Ka’ Pras though.” Ute explanation is quite reasonable as well.
“I just want to see them happy only ‘te.. I kog feel they both it fits each other, somehow.” I said after digesting Ute's words.
“Wah, it turns out that I am not the only one who feels Ka’ Dina and Ka’ Pras that fit in pairs? Let's help them be Kak, how?” ask Ute quickly.
“How to?” I don't lose fast.
“Hm, I seh have an idea that aga nyeleneh neh, but Brother do not kegeeran ya.. This idea is purely based on the intention of wanting to help, no personal tendency!” ute replied with a solemn mimic that made me want to pinch his cheek from anxiety, but I held my hands together by clenching them tightly.
“Yes, no personal interests, just want to help.. What's the idea?” my many.
“Kakak pretended to be with other women only in front of Ka’ Dina. Show me that Ka’ Han has moved-on and happy, hope Ka’ Dina is also so.” replied Ute aga beyond my estimation.
“The problem now, who wants to be my pretend girlfriend Ute? If you want to solve a problem, yes please do not by creating a new problem dunks.. I'll have my pretend boyfriend later.. I will not finish my guilt in the end.” I said explaining.
“Iya also yes Brother.” Ute said finally while lowering her head thinking.
“Unless my pretend boyfriend is you. but I also feel sorry that you will not be able to get caught again, dear is a rival Han..” selorohku crisp.
“Ach, no problem Brother. I don't have gebetan kog. Okeh, we are pretending yes Kak... From today only how?” tanya Ute again surprised me.
“Serious you want to be my girlfriend ‘te?” I still don't believe it.
“Kan ga really Kak, just pretend.all hone my acting skills deh.” replied Ute lightly. Then he put down the cardboard package, stood in front of me, thrust his right hand and spoke again when the hand was in my hand: “Today, it is, Ute officially becomes Ka’ Han's pretend girlfriend and will act with all her ability to convince Ka’ Dina that Ka’ Han has moved-on and is happy with Ute.”
I can't bear this happy laugh coming out. My amazement towards an Ute once again erupted, once again the pleasant surprise of her figure I could feel. ‘If this relationship is not pretend.’ my inner self a moment later. Suddenly remembered the song titled Pretender, which was popularized by a Japanese band called HIGE DANdism or better known as Higedan, as follows:
...Kimi to no Love Story afternoon wa you doori...
...Iza hajimareba hitorishibai...
...Zutto soba ni itatte...
...Kekkyoku tada no kankyaku...
...(translation: Love story with you as I expected...
...But when it started it was just a one-man show...
...Even though I'm always by your side...
...In the end I was just a spectator)...
*) For more clarity and continuation of this song can be asked to google yes guys..
...***...
...~ DINA ~...
Ting. Enter wa message in my old school hp, it turns out from Ute. I also covered the terrace bench of this mall and opened the message.
Ute : “Ka’ Dina, today out cruise kah?’
Dina : “Iyah neh dek, just to buy ATK only, then the mother Lecturer Z nitip for her children, he said ATK choice I make a make spirit and suitable for her family.”
Ute : “Ka’ Dina cruise where? Meaning buy his ATK where?”
Dina : “Di BIP Deck. Just nyampe. You're cruising too? Wanna meet? Yesterday you took a cruise with.”
Ute : “Totally can you meet? But I'm the same as someone neh.. ga anything? Won't you interrupt Brother's cruise?”
Dina : “Someone special right? Widih ga neh stories if you already have cemceman.. Sis seh ga will be disturbed, at most your intimacy will be disturbed because there is a brother so mosquito repellent. wkwkwkwkwkwk..”.
Ute : “Yes Yes Brother we can meet. It is very important, sister. We met at *ramedia BIP aja yes Kak, about ½ hours again I sampe.”
Dina : “Daddy, take your time dear, do not rush, just relax, brother also not anywhere. Abis buy ATK most directly go home too.” (translation: just relax)
Ute : “Okey Kak, c u when I c u yes.!” (read: see you when I see you. Translation: see you when I see you)
And our virtual conversation is over. I took my foot to the bookstore *ramedia and browsed through the stationery I was going to buy. Then after I finished choosing and paying for it, I set foot into a row of comic books and novels. Look around to see if anyone is already in an open position (usually sample stuff) for me to read while filling the time waiting for Ute and his friend.
“Ka’ Dina.. Good afternoon.” cheerful greeting a Ute greets my back.
I turned around and saw Ute giving PPM while grinning the horse, showing off her row of clean white teeth.
“Good day Ute.. don't be too formal, we'll be outside of Ksatrian!” I said while pulling his hand which was still in a position of respect.
“Where's your partner? He said again cruise together.” I said again while looking up Ute's escort figure. Kepo is also the same figure of a man who can finally destroy the defense of this cute and cute girl.
“She waited at M Kak's resto. but before we meet her, I want to ask for help first with Ka’ Dina to not get angry and become hostile towards Ute yes..” replied Ute while cupping her hand pleading.
“Apaan seh you ‘te? Why should I be angry let alone antagonize you?” I quickly replied, pulling his hand back.
“Soalnya, this man began to be important in the heart and mind of Ute Kak, but he will not be anyone Ute, even friends though, if you do not agree.” said Ute again with a firmness that surprised me a little.
“Loh, kog so depends on me? You feel and will live your relationship. Yes you have to dunks who ask your heart if he is worthy to be whatever you are.” I said again.
“For now, Brother's opinion will be the determinant of the continuation of our relationship. Anyway, if you say you can't be with him, then I will immediately reject him, but if you say try first and continue, then, then I will accept his statement and maybe our relationship will continue to the next stage.” said Ute again spoiled.
“Hadeuh this kid. Now I ask you first, how would you feel if you were next to him?” I asked again, starting to wonder what exactly is going on.
“At first as usual Kak, but there began to be rumors that are difficult to explain with words until later.” replied Ute with a bright look.
“Well that's the initial capital in starting a relationship. Interested, chemical-reaction is his name..” I said while smiling amusedly looking at his innocence, then again asked: “Trus you have investigated how the person is? Friendly? Rude? Can you accept the advantages and disadvantages? Oh yes, if the purpose is to be serious, you should also investigate the background of his family, tribal origin and most importantly his religion deck, it is better not to start the relationship.ntar hurt just the edges like Brother first. Haish, so curcol neh.. Another case, if you are the intention is just to fad and have fun, find experience.” (translation: have fun)
“Oh so. Yes, brother, I do not like to mess around in terms of relationships. If you want to have fun, it's enough.. If this brother is different, Kak, he also has no intention of messing with me. Our senior he's brother, his man is kind and dashing. I've never investigated how the original character was, but he has a lot of fans, which means he's most likely a good person, right? Our tribe is different but we are both Christians, although they are different, I am Catholic and he is Protestant.. Hadeuh, so please don't let me accept his love huh Kak?” asked Ute with a clear face and looked disappointed.
“Loh, if rejecting it makes your mind sad, yes just accept it. that means, without you realizing it, the figure already has a place in your heart..” I said again giving a pat on his shoulder an encouraging sign.
“Alright Brother. before I decide later, we meet the person first yes Kak.. Anyway, once again I reiterate, the opinion of Big Brother who will be the final determinant to be taken where our relationship is.” said Ute again holding my hand into a luxury-decorated restaurant.
“Hi Dina..” Ka’ Han's greeting keeps me glued for a moment.
“Good day Brother.” finally the sentence can come out of my mouth and awkwardly try to pull my right hand which is still in the arms of Ute, to give PPM.
“Udah just sit you guys, ga need PPM everything.” says Ka’ Han again.
I gave a questioning look towards Ute who nimbly (looks innocent without guilt) pulled my hand to sit beside her, while she herself sat before Ka’ Han.
“So this Ka’ Han and Ka’ Dina don't need to be introduced again right?” tanya Ute turned her face towards me and Ka’ Han. Then whisper in my ear: “Now you understand why your opinion will be decisive?” I just rolled my eyes.
“How are you doing Dina?” tanya Ka’ Han a moment later.
“Good Brother.. I see Ka’ Han's condition is also fine huh?” I said force myself.
Ka’ Han just smiled, then said: “I've ordered food and drinks for the three of us, hopefully my choice is suitable for you guys yes.” while flicking his finger asking waiters to serve his ordered dishes.
“Already out all orders yes sir? For his drink is there extra or enough hot lemon tea in this pitcher pack?” asked a waiter to break my daydream.
“I want Hot Americano only, but later after eating yes. Ute and Dina want to drink what?” ask Ka’ Han to both of us.
“I want ice summer-brize if there is yes.” replied Ute quickly, it is obvious that they both have often enjoyed the dish here, while I still need time to open the menu to determine the additional drinks.
But finally the menu book I closed (because it is not strong see the list of prices listed there) and said slowly: “I am enough, no need for additional.”.
“Okeh.. can you directly eat neh huh Kak-kakak?” tanya Ute jahil towards Ka’ Han and me.
Ka’ Han smiled cheerfully and said: “Please enjoy. welcome to eat Ute and Dina.”.
“Bon appetit..” says Ute again after praying for a moment. (translation: good meal)
“So in Ka’ opinion Dina how neh?” tanya Ute suddenly, made me surprised and slightly sprayed my drinking water.
“Wait for us to finish eating Ute, just chat again. Poor Dina until surprised ituh.” said Ka’ Han brought the tissue box closer to me.
“Abis is not strong I am in silence Kak.. as again in the grave ajah.” replied Ute again stubbornly, then added innocently: “Tadi we sepercah about the continuation of our relationship Kak, kak, anyway I leave it to Ka’ Dina who decides, whether we will win or can be more than temen..” said Ute again, more surprising than his previous sentence.
Then I felt goosebumps myself when I was looked at by Ute and Ka’ Han.
I tried to swallow the food that I just half-worn, in order to answer: “Herm.. I have told Ute earlier, if the relationship you two should not have any relation with me.. it's up to Ute.” and then I pour my drink into my glass and drink it.
“Daddy, Ka’ Dina from earlier refused to be involved. I don't know why. whereas Ka’ Dina is like Ute's own sister. Like a substitute parent, sometimes we need the opinions of others we trust when hesitant in making decisions. Is it Ka’ Han?” asked Ute with indisputable innocence.
“Your opinion is not wrong Ute, but maybe Dina aga doubt because me and Dina once had a story that did not end happily. It was only natural that Dina was reluctant to argue. Maybe he does not want the end of our relationship will experience the same thing.” Ka’ Han's words conveyed slowly pierced my heart in silence.
“But the story of Ka’ Han and Ka’ Dina is not over yet.. There can still be a sequel, who knows it will be again?” said Ute again while calmly feeding her food.
“Apaan seh Ute! Like to ngasal if you say.” I said to try his waist.
“So brother-in-law means Kak. ka’ Dina is Ute's only sister, while if Ka’ Han will be the same Ute, you will be your brother-in-law..” said Ute again explained while winking one eye towards Ka’ Han who again showed a happy smile responding to Ute's ignorance.
“I mean Ute might be like Dina. She wants you to bless our relationship. He doesn't want unfinish businesses between us. So your input is important for him to step up.. To be honest, I am also waiting for your opinion.and I will personally accept, if you think, the relationship between me and Ute should be enough just friends..” said Ka’ Han had taken me by surprise. (translation: unfinished problem)
I chugged my lemon-tea again, to relieve this throat, before finally being able to say: “Alright, it looks like the two of you made a deal before entering into this conversation. Once again I apologize to Ka’ Han.Our relationship did not go according to expectations and it is not my fault we both, it is just the condition. So if asked if I approve of Ka’ Han and Ute's relationship, my answer is YES. I think Ka’ Han and Ute are a good match, I think, they can understand and understand each other. Mengkin you do not realize it, but you often communicate without words and I really hope your relationship can last full of happiness.”
The silence was re-created, for a while no one made a sound. We were swept back in each other's minds. Until finally there was a waiter who approached us and asked if he could serve desserts and coffee orders Ka’ Han.
‘At last can be conveyed also this heart intent. I do really appreciate and respect them both, so I want them to be happy, even without my existence in between.’ my mind back nelangsa. As strong as my energy can stand shaking myself, as a result of the outpouring of grief that whack.
“Alright, I think my current existence is no longer needed. If I may say goodbye first and preferably Ka’ Han and Ute discuss with more depth his future relationship plan. Once again, congratulations for the relationship.” said after being able to calm down and feel quite self-knowing, trying to end the stiffness of the atmosphere.
“Thank you yes Dina. I hope you can also soon get a matching and best partner for your future.” replied Ka’ Han.
“Thank you Ka’ Dina..” Og Ute said while holding my hand tightly for a moment before I finally got up and left the restaurant in silence.
At first glance I could see that they were not moving and the hands of the two seemed to be clasping each other tightly on the table. Sweet affection that does not try to cover both. It's so envious of those who are single like me.
This incident again taught me that love has no place in my life at this time. I made up my mind to concentrate more on the lessons and collect money for your treatment. Well, before leaving for the cruise, I received information that my father is currently in treatment condition in RSUD. He had another stroke for the umpteenth time.
...***...
...~ PRAS ~...
I'm getting preoccupied with the plan to establish a cooperative in my hometown. Coordinate with a number of friends who are still active in cadet coral and arrange detailed planning with Ian and Ka’ Han.
This morning towards noon I was going out on a cruise, the plan was only for lunch, but when I saw the figure of Dina getting into the blue angkot, I could not help but follow her. Guessing from the direction of the destination, it seemed like Dina was heading towards BIP.
Sure enough, upon arriving at the BIP, I walked towards the bookstore *ramedia (the place I thought Dina would go) and immediately saw 2 familiar figures walking together out of the bookstore. Looks like Ute finally managed to take Dina on a cruise together. Whereas before, I had received news from Ute, if his request to Dina for a cruise together was rejected outright and so Ute finally planned to come out with Ka’ Han.
I could not muster the courage to approach the two, instead I avoided as much as possible so as not to enter within the visibility of the two.
They looked cheerful, discussing something seriously before finally getting into a fancy restaurant. I just sat down across the restaurant area, watching the entrance carefully. Waiting patiently, hoping that Dina will eventually come out of the restaurant alone, while listening to the chanting of songs that flow gently in the courtyard of this mall. If not mistaken that song ‘Permission to Dance’ belongs to BTS who are loved by young people today. At first glance listening to the lyrics is indeed the pantes of his favorite songs.
...It’s the thought of being young, When your heart’s just like a drum...
...Beating louder with no way to guard it...
...(translation: Thoughts on youth, When your heart is like a drum...
...It's ticking faster, nobody's guarding it)...
...When it all looks like it’s wrong, Just sing along to Elton John...
...And to that feeling, we’re just getting started...
...(.(.When things seem wrong, just follow Elton John's chant...
...And that feeling, we're just about to start)...
...When the nights get a folder, And the rhythms got you falling behind...
...Just dream about that moment, When you look yourself right in the eye, eye, eye...
...Then you say...
...(.(.It's getting cold at night, and you're falling behind in rhythm...
...Just dream that moment, when you look at yourself, right in the eye...
...Then say.)...
...I wanna dance, The music’s got me going...
...Ain’t nothing that can stop how we move yeah, Let’s break our plans...
...And live just like we’re golden, And roll in like we’re dancing stools...
...We don’t need to worry, ‘Cause when we fall we know how to land...
...Don’t need to talk the talk, just walk the walk ton...
...‘Cause we don’t need permission to dance...
...(.(.I want to dance, the music makes me do it...
...Nothing can stop our movement, just cancel our plan...
...Live like in the golden age, and roll over like a dumb dancer...
...We don't have to worry, 'cause when we fall, we know how to land...
...Don't have much to say, just do what you have to say tonight...
...Because we don't need permission to dance)...
...There’s always something...
...that’s standing in the way...
...But if you don’t let it faze yes,...
...You’ll know just how to break...
...(.(.There will always be something to hide...
...But if you don't let it bother you...
...You'll know how to get through it)...
...Just keep the right vibe yeah,...
...‘Cause there’s no looking back...
...There ain’t no one to prove,...
...We don’t got this on lock yeah...
...(.(.Just keep the right feel, No neck looking back...
...No need to prove it to someone, we're not shackled)...
...The wait is over,...
...The time is now so let’s do it right...
...Yeah we’ll keep going,...
...And stay up until we see the sunrise...
...And we’ll say...
...(.(.The wait is over, though,...
...Now is the time, so let's do it right, yes, we'll keep going...
...And stay awake until you see the morning sunshine, and we'll say.)...
...I wanna dance, The music’s got me going...
...Ain’t nothing that can stop how we move yeah...
...Let’s break our plans,...
...And live just like we’re golden...
...And roll in like we’re dancing fools...
...We don’t need to worry,...
...‘Cause when we fall we know how to land...
...Don’t need to talk the talk,...
...just walk the walk...
...‘Cause we don’t need permission to dance...
...(.(.I want to dance, though,...
...The music made me do it...
...Nothing can stop our movement...
...Just cancel our plan,...
...Life is like a golden age...
...And roll over like a dumb dancer...
...We don't have to worry, 'cause when we fall,...
...we know how to land...
...No need to talk much, though,...
tonight just do what you have to say
...Because we don't need permission to dance)...
...***...
My hope has finally come true. About an hour and a half later, Dina walked out of the restaurant with a sad face and shaky steps. I don't know what she's been through for over an hour, so there's a clear difference between before and after.
I gathered the courage to go back to him. It was not planned and it was just a coincidence.
“Hi Dina..” my handkerchief while juxtaposing her slow steps.
“Oh good afternoon Ka’ Pras.” said Dina after turning to me.
“For what search Dina in BIP here?” ask again.
“Tadi buy ATK only Kak, now want to go back to Ksatrian.” replied Dina briefly.
“Oh, then, can we go together? I also want to go home this kog.” I said later, ignoring the stomach that started this rumbling, hoping he did not make a loud noise that would only embarrass me.
Since Dina was just quiet, I walked beside her.
Several times I tried to open a conversation with Dina, but her residence and the position of her face that was bent too deeply stopped the words I was about to let out. I finally sat down silent. Trying to enjoy our togetherness, even though our bodies are side by side, clinging tightly from legs to arms, but I can feel the soul of Dina is not here.
We went up and down in silence and when I paid the freight for the two of us, Dina said nothing either, she just smiled weakly, too tired to argue, it was as if his power had drained.
Finally we returned at our last farewell point, the portal of the youth area.
Dina stopped her steps and looked at me at a glance, smiled weakly and said: “Thank you Ka’ Pras, get here first yes, I seem to be unwell.”
“Iya Dina, happy rest yes. hopefully soon healthy back.” I said finally, take off his departure. Back to feeling miserable and losing appetite even though the stomach has revolted.
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