LIFE (Han, Ian, Dina, Ute & Pras)
Ep. 28 (part 3) Fantasy (H., I., Dina & P.)
...~ DINA ~...
I felt a cold but stifling air swish all around me, a sigh that somehow seemed to caress my bare skin but had been covered in blankets all the way to the top end of this neck.
I could hear the whisper of Ka’Pras' voice coaxing gently on the back of my body, feeling his powerful arms clench and pull my body into his sturdy chest, while his warm breath tickled my ears. I felt that his body was not covered by a single cloth.
I really enjoyed the touch of his strong palm and skillfully explored this body, giving it a sense of need when it seemed to seek and explore this sensitive point in the body that is most personal and easily aroused.
I trembled in the arms of Ka’Pras' body when we finally faced off. Ka’Pras's second-hand embrace was soothing, intoxicatingly scented in my nose and even more pleasant when it was smelled.
Even when Ka’Pras lips are hot but soft it stuck to my lips. I felt a kiss that made my knees weak and not powered.
Unruled, my arms embrace the neck and shoulders of Ka’Pras who are plane and as solid as a rock.
Every inch of my body has now been intimately attached to the body of Ka’Pras.
The way Ka’Pras swiped her body as if meant to awaken my feminine consciousness to the maximum. And of course I realized the existence of Ka’Pras in a way that I have never felt in any man so far. Even when together with Ka’Han.
Again without command, my arm moved by itself, down the muscles of Ka’Pras that were like chiseled on the front of his body. His sighing sound was heard as the muscles seemed to move under my hand.
I had thought, at this moment and in this place, that even if this was just a dream, I really would not wake up. My logic and common sense seemed to be in deep sleep, giving me the physical awareness of enjoying my own time.
Especially when Ka’Pras smoothly positioned my body on top of his body, then skillfully both hands felt to explore the back of my body before finally cupping my buttocks and increasingly sticking my hips to his hips which held a lump of meat that was no less hard with his chest.
The coldness again spread out amid the warmth that was coming out, now it felt in my spine and this body pulsates in places I never knew could pulsate.
The accompanying pain felt sharp and demanding, something I had never felt before, making me want to scream out loud..
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Grazing, I jerked until sitting down and noticed my friends a plot that had fallen asleep in their respective contest.
‘I must have been hallucinating.’ my inner self while returning to rest and trying to sleep again. My heart is still beating unreal.
‘It can't be real. I might just be too tired today, or maybe subconsciously my head has hit something blunt and made me unconscious. Yes fitting so!’ my mind does not understand why it can think ‘jorok’.
After a few moments of not succeeding also eliminate the small fires in my body due to the pornographic images that I imagined done by a Ka’Pras from my mind, I also went to the place to take ablution and rushed to the guesthouse prayer to pray tahajut or night prayer (qiyamul lail) to ask for His forgiveness in the iftah prayer from the history of Ibn Abbas.
...“O God, all that is yours, praise,...
...You are the light of heaven and earth...
...and whoever was there....
...Thou art all praise, only,...
...You rule the heavens and the earth...
...and whoever was there....
...Thou art all praise, only,...
...You are the creator of the heavens and the earth...
...and whoever was there....
...You are right, you,...
...Your promises are true, Your words are true,...
...the meeting with You is right....
...and the apocalypse is true....
...O Allah, I am resigned to You only,...
...only to You do I believe,...
...only to You do I trust,...
...only to You do I repent,...
...only by Your guidance do I argue,...
...only to You do I ask for a decision,...
...Because that,...
...Forgive me for my sins that are past and that are to come,...
...what I do is stealthy or what I do is blatant....
...You are the first and the last....
...Thou my Lord. No god is worthy of worship except You.”...
...(.(.H. R. Muslim, Ibn Majah and Ahmad)...
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When I got back to my bed, my mind was calm and the silence was back in my ears and somehow my chest came back to feel comfortable and serene.
Putting my body back on the bed in a sitting position and opening a book to read, I was again lost in thought..
For almost 2 years I have been in a relatively boring routine. Undergoing a series of activities (physical guidance) that seemed to be endless from dawn to far night, following lectures and training skills exhausting, back to the guesthouse with the effort to clean up, to clean up, read a book and go to sleep.
Everyone can see that all this time my life has been a short cycle of boring and monotony. But everything changed after the presence of Ka’Han and then followed by Ka’Pras not long after.
As if God had deliberately introduced him first to “sosokan salah” so that when I finally met with “sosokan right”, I can thank God.
But come to think of it, Ka’Han is not a heartless and selfish bastard. Instead, Ka’Han is a kind man who is sensitive to my feelings. In the short period of our relationship, I felt treated like the most important person in her life. And it's not something that can be made up or engineered.
But seeing the intimacy shown Ka’Han when with Ute, I returned grateful not to feel that deep closeness with a Ka’Han. Although it looks natural for Ka’Han and Ute, but if I will often use a black plastic bag or brown paper bag to cover my head because of the shame and carelessness I feel if treated like that.
If you remember again, the quantity of happiness and sadness that I feel when with Ka’Han is relatively balanced. The pleasure of being loved by the opposite sex is as great as Ka’Han and being treated special is beautiful, but when considering that there are families who do not approve and the relationship has no hope in the future, it is not, I do not deny the frequent eyes and inner crying. Is there not a woman who deserves to cry over a relationship? Especially if you are with someone who has said and showed his affection.
Very different from the attitude and style of intimacy shown by Ka’Pras.
It didn't take long for me to assume everything about Ka’Han was no longer important. Not as important as the existence of Ka’Pras.
And as soon as I tasted that mutual harmonious relationship with Ka’Pras, I felt free from the shackles of guilt and sadness that I had felt when I was with Ka’Han.
Well this is a good advance for the development of my soul. At least that's what I'm trying to believe.
During a short courtship with a Ka’Han, never once did I fantasize wildly like the one I just experienced. I don't know which demon had approached me and made the dirty mind was entrenched comfortably.
"Ach, life will be more interesting as it seems.. Because now it has been added to the spice of happiness in pairs.. Hopefully.." My mind is softened while it starts to evaporate.
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