LIFE (Han, Ian, Dina, Ute & Pras)
Ep. 4 - INTRODUCTION (Perspective of a DINA)

As a middle child, Dina had experienced what was called second child syndrome (second child trauma/middle child).

At that time, he often felt that no one loved him, even his parents.

Dina once considered her mother to pay more attention to her eldest brother, who was more in need of attention because it was often less healthy/sick, while her father devoted more of his affection to his youngest brother, who was more, which is funny because it is small.

Achievements for achievements he has achieved, but always minimal appreciation from both parents.

Perhaps because both parents do not want to cause envy from other sisters who are relatively minimal achievement.

Dina's sister who was only 10 months different from him, was indeed classified as physically weak.

Maybe because of being born prematurely and lack of breast milk intake.

At that time people still think, that if ASI is given while pregnant, it will make the fetus in the womb of nutritional deficiency.

So only 2 months from his birth, the provision of breast MILK for Dina's sister was stopped and replaced with formula.

This is what might trigger the feelings of guilt Dina's mother, so more attention to the health condition of Dina's sister than the state of Dina, who is healthy and very rarely sick.

Dina's father was a sailor who often sailed for months² and returned home only once or at most 2 times in 1 year.

Little sister Dina even had a chance to feel afraid (because they do not know, understand the toddler does have short term memory/short term memory only) and for some time did not want to approach his father when he came home.

So after collecting a lot of coffers, Dina's father pushed the steering wheel into the field of construction/building housing/real estate, to be able to spend more time with his wife and three daughters.

Realizing the rebellion of her second child, Dina's mother had brought Dina to a consultation with a psychologist. After undergoing therapy several times, Dina began to be able to make peace with the situation and accept the existing conditions. Dina teens learn self-maturity a little faster than their peers.

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At the beginning of his father's business, everything went smoothly and the life of the Dina family was also getting more and more prosperous. Dina was even interested in civil engineering to support her father's efforts and she was educated at a bona fide private university in her area.

However, what unfortunate power can not be denied, in the second year of Dina college, his father's business suddenly bankrupt due to the fraud of his father's colleagues.

Their life changed 180⁰(one hundred and eighty degrees).

His father, who was powerless to face reality, suffered a stroke and had to spend a lot of money on treatment and self-recovery.

When family savings are depleted, then one by one assets are sold or mortgaged to survive.

From a large mansion, they were forced to move into a narrow rented house. Which is not even as big as the main bedroom of their previous home.

His mother struggled to support her three daughters who were still in school.

Finally, Dina and Dina's older sister, who was already in college, decided to quit college.

Dina's sister applied to be a flight attendant for an airline, while Dina enrolled in this official school.

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This year was Dina's second year at the school. The status is no longer Young Praja, but has risen to the rank of Madya Praja.

Dina, who dislikes crowds and social life, chooses to concentrate on her education alone. It does not follow any cadres and extra-curricular activities. He prefers to spend time alone in the library, percolate the teaching eye (so there is no need to buy literacy books and so on) and follow the activities in accordance with the existing schedule only.

Compared to his classmates, Dina's age is older and he feels less suitable to chat with his classmates.

For example, just before the last level increase, many of his classmates who have been from far away planning a vacation where (utilizing friends throughout Indonesia, from all over Indonesia, most of which are children of people in their respective regions), so only the capital ticket/private fare but can already travel to many destinations, but this does not apply to Dina.

He knows enough to stay at the guesthouse during the annual vacation/holiday.1 month is not a long time for those who travel, but, but make Dina it's the right time to finish preparing for lessons in the next semester of school and even write some short stories/articles to be sent to magazines/tabloids, for extra money, for the sake of money, which he can send to his parents.

The first year of school was over and Dina did not have 1 close friend. For him it's not a problem. He does not care much about people's opinions, as long as it does not interfere with his privacy and activities.

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This morning before noon his stomach began to rebel for food, it seemed like the bottles of drinking water he had drunk could not relieve the rebellion. So forced, the foot is headed to the front gate to find the nearest food stall.

During this rate hike, Menza (the place where the government usually eats) does not provide food/drink/snack for the king who lives in the guesthouse. The canteen under Menza is also not yet open because it is considered that there will not be many minions. So if you want to eat, the king who remains in the guesthouse must indeed go out ksatrian.

Then suddenly he was seen by a senior figure, a Nindya Praja (in the rank on the shoulder of his Habrian/PDH Service Clothes), walking with a father who carried a file in a large map. He reflexively performs ppm and says "Good morning, sir.."

Si-senior replied to her ppm with a sweet smile and said "Good morning by noon de' Dina.." seemed to be continuing her greeting with another sentence, saying "Good morning by noon de' Dina, but suddenly realized there was a need to drive the father next to him. And with a sense of unwillingness that was not well covered, he stepped back.

Although it felt strange because there was a senior son who knew him (dina felt that he had been so close and did not participate in any social activities in this knight for a year ago), he kept his feet out of the gate of the knight, to quell the rebellion of an increasingly uncontrollable stomach.

But soon after, his memory returned to the embarrassing incident some time ago, when he was abandoned by his classmates who were punished for the balairung kurvey (big hall for the ceremony). Their class was punished for not reporting to the Academic if at that time there were no lecturers teaching their class and when there was a class examination, almost one class is sleeping on each table.

Dina left alone because she had to clean the cleaning tools used.

In haste, fearing also being alone in a place this big, I walked without looking at the road. Not paying attention to the stairs I was about to climb and accidentally bumped into someone who was seen throwing cardboard boxes in his grip in order to catch my body.

I tried to erase those embarrassing memories and did not pay much attention to the face of the king who helped her. But the senior's face looked a little familiar.. ‘Aish.. hopefully not him.’ my inner hope in the heart, without feeling hot (maybe this cheek has turned red) while shaking my head, trying to repel the memory.

He then saw a large-bodied Wasana Praja walking towards him while carrying a handbag that was not too big. Ka'Han..

Damn, the government turned out to have also many who returned to the knight apparently, even though the learning only started about a week away. Apple reception leave is also still a few days away from the schedule.

"Where are you going and where are you de'?" ka'Han's reprimand was straightforward after replying to his ppm.

"Ready, from the homestead will come out ka.." I replied no less straightforward. I was forced to stop my footsteps to wait for his next response. It is an obligation for a junior to respect a senior and that also means to stop when spoken to.

Semenyust anything mince, if the same senior is obliged to do the law. But I don't have to be friendly either, do I? Let her know that I am disturbed by her greeting. Distracted because his gaze triggered an increase in the intensity of this heart beat.Inner Dina briefly looked at the direction of ka'Han's gaze.

He glanced at my sign that read DINA.

Hah, senior is indeed not obliged to know his junior and I feel like this ka'Han is thinking that he has never seen me before.

Well, it is only natural that in fact, even though we go to the same place, our world is completely different. Ka'Han with his fan club and me with my solitude.

Who does not know Handoko Simangunsong? Talented music players whose distinctive voice is very rare to hear, but if played occasionally, will be able to easily drop the hearts of many women, even lecturers, caregivers or trainers.. no exception to him..

Wasana Praja a large-bodied, who rarely smiles, maybe to minimize his charm, because although notoriously stiff and fierce, but the members of his fan club quite a lot, probably to minimize his charm, because although notoriously stiff and fierce, not only from these knights but also from university students around the knights.

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I bowed this face again in such a way as to prevent the whole universe from knowing my thoughts and I made my view very unfriendly, to camouflage this heartbeat that began to be irregular in order to see the sense of attraction on his face.

"Dad you know, where do you mean to go?" the question was further slowed down in every word spoken, with a slight smile, perhaps feeling strange or funny because my friendliness did not respond with the expected response.

"Ready, looking for your lunch" I answered again showing an impatient expression and remained without the slightest smile, trying to think of some reason to leave before him without offending him.

Our eyes had looked at a split second, but again I bowed this head, again trying to cover the pleasure of having a chance to exchange with him.

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"Oh ka'Han is waiting for me huh?" suddenly a carefree chatter (tends flirtatious) from a beautiful rosy-haired female candidate, breaking the silence that was created between ka'Han and me.

I had a glimpse of the lyrics to his nameplate, written UTE. 'Oh was waiting for this beautiful girl anyway ka'Han here, kirain.' my inner being turned back towards ka'Han and said: "If you may excuse me!" then I did the ppm and passed from before the two of them as fast as I could pass.

Well indeed seh, ka'Han did not have to be a psychologist to be able to see my differences with the beautiful girl earlier. Who am I compared to that beautiful girl?

Anyone would choose to be with him rather than with me.

Not only because of its physical advantages (beautiful face, white-clean skin, seductive round eyes, etc, thick hair with a reddish color that frames his face proportionately) but also because of his friendliness and cheerfulness that might easily and quickly be able to melt a block of ice as big as a refrigerator. His smile is also always diobral as if it will not run out of stock.

While lowering my head, I took a step down the road looking for the nearest food stall. Not much attention to the black-and-white lines that have oriental faces (such as opa-opa in K-Pop). Nor is it too concerned about the sun getting hotter, warming the asphalt this afternoon.

The main purpose is to eat, in order to stay alive in this knight..

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《This photo inspired the author describes the character of a Dina》