LOVE OR DEAD
CHAPTER 41: JIRO'S CONFESSION

The dragon-circled back with a fierce bandage wrapped around Kawaki's burly back was on my back. He put out his cigarette in an ashtray not far from where he was standing. I sat on the floor to regulate the rhythm of my breathing, then he turned to me.

“TAP...TAP...TAP” steps approaching me.

Carrying me to the bed, laying me down as her body tilted towards me. His fingers touched the scar of the phone cord that was wrapped around me just now.

“FUH...FUH..FUH..” she blew – niup my neck then kissed it softly.

I was right – really did not stop thinking about his attitude that is difficult to guess, I don't know what is in his head.

“This is a form of concern for my victims who are desperate to live” he said with a flat face.

I didn't flinch from hearing it, my body was quite limp through it. Her fingers then touched my nape to my back, instead of zipping my dress surprised me. I hold his hand.

“I beg you not to do anything to me” my request softly.

“Calm down, I won't fuck you” she said as she lowered my dress to the chest.

He observed his kick scar, the cigarette butt at the top of my chest and the bite on my shoulder. He went out for a while with a towel wrapped around his waist, wearing nothing. A few minutes later he came with a P3K box. Preparing some saleb and other drugs.

“SRETTTT...” He took off the dress I was wearing then threw it on the floor. I just put on a bra and cel@na inside, curled up to cover my body.

“You don't need to cover your body, I've seen everything. Lie on your back, I will give you free treatment as compensation”. I also obey him, even though he is uncomfortable touching my whole body.

After he finished giving the saleb to my entire wounded body, he thrust a pill and a glass of water at me.

“Minum” said.

“Not” reject me.

“This is not a poison or narcob@, this is a medicine to heal your wounds from within” he explained.

I still keep my mouth shut, I'm not sure about the unpredictable war.

“You choose to drink it or I will rape@samu now” he threatened me with his cold face.

I sat down and took a pill and a glass of water in his hand. I drink it even though my feelings are right – are really scared. He took the glass from my hand and placed it on the table while tidying up the P3K box.

“SRETTTT...” she pulled the blanket and covered my body.

“Sleep, tomorrow Jiro will take you to your parents' home” he said.

“What you said just now, promise me not to deny it” said I made sure.

“I promise, as long as you keep playing with me. If you try to escape, I will kill Jiro and his entire family” threatened me.

Instantly I realized why it was Jiro who was assigned to drive me, because he subverted Jiro to tie me up. Sneaky ground, I'm in a misguided position.

“I understand” replied me.

He left me in the room alone, my feelings mixed up in my desk trying to close my eyes.

The next day…

I was changing clothes in the toilet after a shower, combing my hair in front of the sink mirror. Arrived – arrives Kawaki opens toilet door “Ceklek”.

“Your face is the market does not need to look at the mirror sticky – too long, let's go down we eat” chirpnya.

Then he grabbed my waist and rolled me down to breakfast.

Enju and Jiro were already waiting for us in the hotel's dining room for breakfast.

“Let go of my waist” said I was uncomfortable that had been held by Kawaki.

“Let everyone see, that we are a couple. So if you make troublemakers like last night, they know who to report to”.

“Why don't you like the word partner, I'll turn it into an employer and a mop@cur. Like it's better to hear” he said as his fingers from my waist went up to my chest and squeezed it.

“AAAAUU” I was surprised while releasing his fingers.

“Do not act indecently to me, do you have no shame? It's in public place!” my protest was trying to keep a distance from him.

“Means I can do it when it's just the two of us, alright”.

“I didn't say that, and didn't approve it” upset me.

“I don't care if you agree or not, for me your whole body is mine” he said haughtily.

We arrived in front of Enju and Jiro and sat down for breakfast.

Jiro seemed to be misbehaving to respond to my presence in front of him.

“Antar is he today to his house, let him see his family. After meeting his family, bring him home” ask Kawaki while eating.

“Ya, will I do” Jiro responded.

“Make sure he's back…. Jiro” Kawaki put pressure on the intonation of his voice.

“I understand” Jiro reassuring.

“Keep Kawaki, Jiro will deliver this girl back” added Enju.

“I have always believed in you, so with you Jiro” as if Kawaki was putting pressure on Jiro.

The atmosphere between us was getting awkward making me uncomfortable.

Jiro and I boarded the white sedan to my house. The atmosphere in the car was quite tense between the two of us.

“You don't want to say anything?” I started the conversation.

“To be honest I want to say this, sorry” he said as he looked towards the front of the driving focus.

“Maybe I can forgive you for your decision to deceive me for the safety of your family, but I cannot forgive you for killing Azura”, I replied coldly.

“I had no choice, that night Azura asked me to drop you off the car. He said he would not leave you even if he had to die in my hands” he said.

“She was suspicious from the beginning of driving me, I shouldn't have asked her to drive me that night. I thought he left me, I couldn't believe he was finding out what I was doing. Until he decided to do a rescue action ended in death” I said with a chest that was so tight.

“I asked Uta to do a proper funeral for him, after his body was cremated his ashes in the sow to the sea. That night guilt cursed me, for the first time I killed people with this deep guilt my”.

“He took care of your family, when you left them. Azura becomes a 24-hour standby for Sanchi's aunt, grandmother and grandfather. Even I worked there on Azura's recommendation, how unfortunately Azura was to your family. He considers them his own family” added me.

I looked at Jiro, his eyes started to look – glass. He could not cover up his guilt and his pain had killed a person of value to his family. In her silence, I knew she was very depressed with a deep sense of guilt.

“Aunt Sanchi must have been looking for us after that night, he must have lost for our sudden departure. I can't even say anything and can tell you anything until now. My phone was confiscated by Kawaki with all my identities. If you know you killed Azura, surely aunt will be very sad and disappointed in you” I said.

Instantly Jiro pulled the car over and then came out to shed a cry that from when he could stand. He squatted on the side of the road while rubbing his eyes. I walked up to him while patting – on his shoulder.

“I can't do anything, I'm sorry. I'm right – really feel sorry, but I have no choice. Nemo tapped my phone, Kawaki found out everything and made me choose when it was you or my life and my family. I had to do all this.

From the beginning it was Kawakilah who helped me pay off the gambling debt my father left me, he was very respectful towards my family. Made me join the Endo clan. Kawaki couldn't have killed my family, but this is all about you. For him, betrayal cannot be forgiven. His uncle was killed for letting you go to Tokyo back then” Jiro's story.

DEGH'S…

My heart hurts to hear it…

All those killed were because of me, the one to blame should be me. Realizing that it made my chest even more congested found myself the cause of the serial murders all along.

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