Mother (Lost Love)
MAAF

Arsen incised the temple with his fingers, his head hurt and it felt like it was about to break. He turned to his left side, The mother fell asleep in her gurney with a face so peaceful.

"You feeling better, sir,?" ask a nurse to come into the room and bring food and drinks.

"No Sus, my head feels like it's about to break,"

"Do you have a problem with...sorry, your psyche ?" ask a sister named Shima.

"Yes sus, I have an alter ego, which is hard for me to control!"

"Would you consult Hans' doctor, Mr. Arsen, later in the afternoon he's at the clinic, I'll let you know later" said Sister Shima.

"Thank you sister!"

Arsen got up from his bed, walked slowly to where his mother was.

Arsen stared fixedly at the face that was still asleep. Grab his fingers and kiss him softly. "I'm sorry, Arsen's mom! too long I've been gone, I know you've lived a very hard life. It's even too heavy, so you can't bear it yourself,"

"From now on, I won't leave my mother again, I promise, '" Arsen said.

"Arsen....!" call the mother in her sleep.

"It's me mom!" Arsen rubbed the face that had begun to shrivel, because it was never treated.

"Arsen, my son is home, my son is home" raced Marisa,

"Mother, get well soon, we go home together to our new home.

The woman opened her eyes, looking at Arsen with a sharp look. "Who are you?" ask again.

"Mother, it's Arsen! Arsen's only mother's son, "Arsen was confused by her mother's unstable state.

"I'm sorry, Arsen's mother! Because mother remarried to the bastard, you are the victim, hik.hik!" Marisa cried sobbing in memory of her husband's savagery at the time.

"Here you go, ma'am, don't think about it anymore, we have to live looking at the future,"

Arsen hugged his mother lovingly.

More and more days, Marisa's mental health has improved, since the presence of Arsen. Today, Arsen will take her home to a house that Arsen has prepared for his mother.

Before returning home, Arsen went to see Dr. Hans, and complained.

"That's how doc, I feel myself influenced by the darkness of my past, I take revenge on those who have harassed me, to cover my good side," Arsen told Hana's doctor.

"Your story is so sad Arsen, you better if you want the hate and resentment to dominate, try talking to yourself calmly, making peace with the past, you have to be honest, you have to be honest, telling someone about everything, or your partner," Arsen thought for a moment, he had never told Bianca everything. Arsen harbored himself the bitterness of his life. On the one hand, Arsen loved Bianca very much, but on the other hand, the hatred of Bianca's rejection in the past made Arsen hurt her heart.

"Are you married, Arsen? Ask doctor Hans.

"It was Doc, but I left him, so that he wouldn't get hurt more with my illness,"

"You can talk well, I guess!" advice of doctor Hans.

"He's in Jakarta, doc,"

"It's not like you can call him on a cell phone,"

"I'll try, doctor!" reply Arsen.

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Meanwhile, Bianca is still dissolved in deep sadness, Harland is very worried about the condition of his sister who is now pregnant young.

"How's Bianca doing, honey?" asked Harland that night when he got home from work. Shanum just came out of Bianca's room.

"As usual, brother! Bianca just kept quiet and her gaze was blank," Shanum replied sadly.

"We'd better take Bianca to a psychiatrist, honey, if it's allowed to drag on, it's not good for the baby's health!" harland's Advice

"Good brother! I'll accompany him tomorrow! Shouldn't we call Mommy, brother," Shanum continued.

Harland thought for a moment, it would be better for Bianca to be accompanied by Mommy Sarah, while Shanum was now heavily pregnant.

"All right, I'll call him!" Harland was about to step into his room, but he hadn't had time to walk, Bianca's phone shook in his grasp.

A name that is terribly hated at this time, appeared on the screen of Bianca's phone.

Harland picked up the phone, but he didn't speak.

"Bi, it's me Arsen, how are you doing now, baby?"

"Bie...Bianca....Bianca!" The voice repeatedly called out to Bianca.

Hearing Harland's voice, Arsen again closed his call.

"I'LL FIND YOU, ARSEN! To the ends of the world though," cried Harland furiously.

"Sister, who's on the phone?" shanum asked, as soon as it appeared from the direction of the kitchen.

"That bastard!"

"Arsen?"

"Who else," Harland proceeded to the upper room, to pick up his phone and send Mommy Sarah home.

While Shanum walked into Bianca's room, the woman lay her back to Shanum.

"Bi, eat first baby!"

"I'm not hungry!"

"Bi, if you continue like this, you could lose your baby, ..you must eat, must be strong, so that the baby in your womb is also strong," Shanum advised.

Bianca blinked her eyes for a moment, her tears welled up in her beautiful eyes.

"Bi, brother was in your position, during the marriage of brother with Devan on the tip of the horn, brother was depressed after giving birth and it hurts, brother does not want you to experience it Bi, come on up, get up, strengthen yourself!" shanum.

"Sister, actually, Arsen loves me a leg, but why should he go,"

"Bi, maybe Arsen doesn't want you to get hurt, just pray that he will heal quickly, and come back with us!"

"But, if he returns, Brother Harland threatens to kill him!" bianca said sadly.

"Sister Harland was just a momentary emotion, killing ants only, he could not bear to, let alone kill the father of his father," Shanum tried to calm his sister-in-law.

"Now, let's eat a lot, let your baby be healthy, ... I'm sure Arsen would love to have a cute kid from your womb, Bi!" bujuk Shanum's.

"Sister, please persuade Brother Harland to return my phone!" bianca said.

"All right, but you have to eat!" sela Shanum, Bianca nodded.

Arsen threw his phone away on his bed. He laid his body that felt tired, for some reason lately, Arsen often felt dizzy and nauseous, even to swallow his food he could not afford, because as usual will vomit it in the bathroom.

"Arsen, why are you son?" Marisa is concerned about her son's situation.

"I'm fine, Mom! Just dizzy and nauseous, it will also go away by itself" replied Arsen."Mama's eating? I want something, just say it!"

"No son, just meet you again, I'm happy" replied Marisa.

Arsen only smiled, his heart was relieved to see his mother was able to smile again, after a long life of despair and depression.

Arsen had sold his mother's old house, and bought a small house, for her mother in the suburbs of Surabaya. A home with a comfortable and soothing countryside.

With the rest of his savings, Arsen built a small stall for Marisa. So that the woman has a daily busyness, and interacts with their neighbors.

Arsen himself prefers to work online in foreign companies, with the expertise he has, in designing and creating applications on the Internet.

"Arsen, are you married son?" marisa asked, that night when they finished dinner. Arsen stared at his mother intensely.

"Why did you ask that!" ask Arsen.

"Mom just wants to see you get married and live a normal life like everyone else, do you think you're old enough to get married?" the mother noticed her son's face that looked wrinkled.

"I'm married, Mom!" answer Arsen then.

"Where is your wife? You separated?" marisa is confused.

"I left her mother, I didn't want my wife to get hurt, because I had a disease that was hard to cure,"

"Arsen, don't you love her?" Marisa is confused.

"I love her, Mother! However, I could not control myself, if the other me appeared and tortured him, I was like a psychopath," Arsen rubbed his face violently.

"It has everything to do with the past, right? Forgive Arsen's mother, the wrong Mother," Marisa hugged Arsen tightly.

"Here you are, ma'am, don't blame yourself, it's over!" Arsen tried to calm his mother.

"If you still love her, try to convince yourself, fight to defeat your ego, Arsen! You can do it!" Marisa rubbed her son's hair gently.

"I'll try mom, I'll fight her," Arsen is determined to fight his own ego.