My Beloved Duda
Chapter 11

Disappear and miss..

If the rain falls, it will stop,

But the burning longing is hard to stop

If the water flows downstream

But the longs to flow do not meet downstream.

If the rainbow comes and goes, then go,

But the longing came never to go

The longing can only be treated by the sound of meeting.

raihan Salman Al - Fatih

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Since the departure of Raihanah, Raihan's life became empty. He was like a madman who continued to work without rest. His friend's son he entrusted to the baby sister, but he did not abandon his son so much, he took the time to play with his son. Friends look cranky since the departure of Raihanah, Rakan continues to ask where Raihanah is. Makes Raihan's head hurt.

Raihan stared at his laptop screen 6 months ago, he did not know where Raihanah was. Even Raihan has repeatedly gone to Raihanah's house, Raihanah's family seems to hide where Raihanah is. Not enough to come to Raihanah's house.

Raihan visits the campus and also where Raihanah teaches, he also meets Nathan. Everything is nil, no one gives an answer. His encounter with Nathan made his mood even worse. The man mocked her and even accused her of making Raihanah go away, though Raihan admitted that Nathan's saying had a point. But if he hadn't seen Nathan then he wouldn't have kissed Raihanah by force.

"Damn it!!" as Raihan said he closed his laptop, he was tired of this life. There is no passion that makes his life so exciting. Raihanah really influenced him, from the way the girl smiled even looks judesnya all imagined in the mind Raihan made Raihan sigh frustrated.

Raihan got up, he walked towards the window in the corner of his study in his office. Behind the window, there were firecrackers that filled the sky. Grey sky, a cloudy marker with raindrops falling soaking the earth. Raihan was stunned to see it, his gaze could not be separated from the rain. It is like counting the amount of rain falling.

"You know Raihanah, if the rain falls will definitely stop but if you miss the fire when it will stop," muttered Raihan sad, his tears came down enlivening the atmosphere of rain.

Longing and regret become one. He knew what he was doing wrong, he was ruining the woman he loved. He harasses her, even though Raihan knows kissing is not taboo for her. Raihan often does it even more. But foolishly Raihan treats Raihanah the same as the girls he used to play with. Raihanah the girl who upholds honor. Still remember in Raihan's mind, when the girl did not like to pinch her cheek. Raihan rubbed his rough face, this would be if he attached importance to his lust. Raihanah is different from the other girls.

Tok!!

The sound of knocking stopped Raihan's daydream, he wiped away the tears that still felt wet on his cheeks.

"Excuse me sir, I'd like to provide our company's financial statements this month" Indra said politely, the boss is not as usual. It looked strange in Indra's eyes, as Raihan did not turn to look at her, but continued to stand facing the window.

"Put it on my desk, I'll check it," Raihan replied, keeping his voice.

"Fine sir" said Indra without wanting to disturb his boss.

Indra stepped onto Raihan's desk, he put the reports neatly. Then he passed by leaving Raihan in the room alone.

Raihan's body decays down, he sits with the window as a backrest. His feet were on the floor. He no longer cares about the dirty floor that dirty his expensive clothes. All he wanted at this moment was Raihanah, his longing getting smoldering to embrace his soul in despair Raihan never knew if missing someone would be this bad. Roihan squeezed his two interlocked fingers, the sound of rain increasingly rumbling in his ears. Rain seemed to understand if Raihan missed Raihanah so much.

"You know Rain, I miss you so much that I never know how to stop him. Except to meet." Raihan.

"Where are you Rain?"

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Raihanah smiled for more than 6 months, she lives in Solo. Raihanah was forced to lie to everyone, she just didn't want Raihan to so easily find her. Raihanah knew if Raihan was rich, she would definitely do anything to meet him. If you say Raihanah doesn't miss Raihan it's a lie, Raihanah misses the man terribly.

But Raihanah is still heartbroken over Raihan's treatment. It was not that he also loved Raihan that the man could do his best. He was afraid that his feelings for Raihan were getting bigger and they were acting further away. The proof alone Raihan had dared to kiss her there was nothing else that could make Raihan not to do more than that kiss that Raihanah was afraid of.

In this city Raihanah opened a flower shop, although she is a graduate student in psychology does not mean she can not set up a flower shop. The name of the flower shop is Rain Florist. Raihan always calls it Rain, and it always comes to mind. So Raihanah decided to name her shop Rain. Sounds crazy because he can still use the nickname of the beloved of Raihan when the main purpose here is to forget the man. It felt like Raihanah was going crazy unconsciously by the man. Raihanah let out a long sigh, so how do you forget about Raihan? why is it difficult once and his heart is never the same as his mind.

For 6 months, he kept a flower shop. The result is quite enough to be said to be more than enough for his living expenses in Solo, his birthplace. This morning Raihanah was busy arranging some roses, Raihanah had 2 employees who helped her. Their names are Tyas and Beno. But Raihanah never hesitated to serve or arrange flowers for buyers even though she has employees. He likes to be busy. Busyness that can make him forget Raihan, even though the results are in vain. Because the man is on his mind. Even reluctant to go and even more so until he can not think anymore. Only Raihan dwells in his heart. Maybe because Raihan was her first love. So it's so hard to forget Raihan. Because he's never been like this before with another guy.

Raihanah looked at the Chrysanthemum flowers before her. The sound of the rain made his heart go rogue. As if to mock him that he was longing. No matter how busy he is, he still has a longing for the man even though he hates Raihan. It turns out that hate and love are just a thin difference.that's what unites the two. Raihanah smiled faintly, the rain as if mocking her.

"until when will this taste continue to remain? will my departure be in vain in the end?" muttered Raihanah while returning to her seat for a long break she could go crazy just because of a man named Raihan. A handsome widower who is able to disrupt his life.so what are the advantages of the widower to be able to overturn his heart.

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