My Beloved Duda
Chapter 12

The sound of the entrance bell stopped the flower arrangement that Raihanah had arranged neatly. A man in a shirt and long black pants walked up to Raihanah. Raihanah snorted, again the man came to her. When will the man get tired of seeing her?

"Assalamualaikum, how are you all?" Ryan smiled, he greeted the entire residents at Raihanah's flower shop.

"Waalaikumsalam" said Raihanah. His eyes looked at Ryan's movements.

Ryan Prasetya, the man who never stopped asking her to get married since the beginning of their meeting. At that time Ryan was the owner of the flower shop building that he bought this. Ryan can be said to like it since then, even he always met with Ryan when he was in trouble. For example, when he missed his wallet when shopping at the supermarket, Ryan happened to be there and the man with his man paid for all his groceries without wanting to be replaced.

Ryan Prasetya can be said to be perfect even though he is not as rich as Raihan. Ryan is the ideal guy that many women want. Ryan was handsome, kind, religious, never touched her, he never looked at Raihanah like Raihan's gaze was a look of adoration. You could say Ryan has a personality that is inversely proportional to Raihan. Ryan would rather look down if he talked to her, or looked the other way. He once said, if he was afraid he could not resist the turmoil in his heart. Raihanah just shook her head at Ryan's strange reasoning.

As good as Ryan is in his eyes, it doesn't change the fact that Raihanah loves Raihan. In his heart the deepest love was still there and continued to burn.

"You're not working?" Raihanah asked, she was confused by Ryan so early to help her arrange flowers.

"No need to work, I can support our family later. I'm a businessman," Raihanah snorted, she's immune to Ryan's seduction.

"Basic gumbal." Raihanah's reply.

"I'm serious, Raihanah, how many times have I proposed to you?" Ryan tried to melt Raihanah's heart.

"And how many times have you turned me down, you know the more you turn me down. Then the more I'll keep trying to get you. You know how many sins I have committed to get your love" continued Raya\as if all this was Raihanah's fault.

Raihanah was silent, she did not answer. Ryan is so good at making words\-words. But there was no one in his heart.

"I sinned, because I thought of you, I sinned because of your smile. There's nothing more strenuous ordeal to test a man's faith than love" Ryan spoke to make Raihanah open her heart.

Raihanah sat on the sofa near her flower arrangement, saying Ryan made her shut up. Two Raihanah employees who were busy watching the scene, chose to close the store temporarily. They were busy arranging\-beres, and did not want to hear about his boss. While Raihan he chose to stand 3 meters away from Raihanah, he was busy observing the beautiful red roses.

Raihanah knew of the hadith Ryan spoke, her tears falling. He sinned, all this out of love.love made everyone reject their common sense. Making them choose sin to get love.not only did Raihan also say when he was in Dufan and Ryan also said he was willing to sin just for love. Stupid Raihanah still holds love for the man who once abused her but she instead rejects the proposal of a good man who loves her sincerely.

'Allah forgive me, I have fallen. I failed in your trials, I fell into a sin called love.' Inner Raihanah.

Raihanah feels like a stupid woman. Why did he reject Ryan? Ryan's a good man is much better than Raihan. Is it because Raihanah still has Raihan in her heart? Honestly Raihanah still harbors love for Raihan, her heart just racing near Raihan. His eyes hurt, he had gone all the way to Solo to forget Raihan. But instead of forgetting Raihan, he was even more enamored with Raihan. Raihanah sobbed, her body shaking violently. He hugged his own body, thinking love only made him suffer. He thought that time would heal his wounds, but the passage of time only reminded him of lara.

"Rai, didn't you hear what I said?" Ryan made a sound, he looked at Raihanah's back. He saw Raihanah sobbing. Raihanah was silent, without interrupting her words. It makes Ryan worried, he was afraid if the proposal impressed forcing to Raihanah. Because Ryan doesn't want Raihanah to take his proposal for granted.

"Why are you crying? Is it because my proposal is so damning to your heart. If he'd ignored my proposal, but if you changed your mind. Come to me."

"No, I just don't know what to answer about your proposal. You know, I never loved anyone, and until now I still remember. I don't want to get married but still have a shadow over her figure" Raihanah said.

Ryan took a deep breath, he already thought with Raihanah's answer. It will be very difficult to conquer the heart of Raihanah, he is not Al-fatih the conqueror of Continople. He is just a Ryan Prasetya who keeps trying to conquer the heart of a Raihanah. It is harder to conquer.

"Then I said Rai, Assalamualaikum," Ryan stepped out of the store, a bright morning but not as bright as the day. Rejection of love hurts her heart, but why does it hold up.

"Waalaikumsalam," said Raihanah he immediately sobbed loudly. She could not hold back her tears anymore, she still loved Raihan with all her body. His love is still stored neatly, Raihan Salman Al-fatih a handsome man who can conquer his heart. But it was also the man who could make her cry simultaneously. He asked Raihan to leave his life, but they loved each other.

But why they can not be together, Raihanah is afraid to accept the personality of another Raihan, he is afraid Raihan save a bad thing that will make him hurt.

Raihanah could never imagine living with another man other than Raihan. He cannot love another man, his heart is locked for a Raihan. But he chose to stay away from the life of Raihan, without him realizing his departure even made Raihanah understand the longing that hurt the niche of his heart.

"I miss you Raihan Salman Al-fatih, I miss you even when you hurt me so deeply" Raihanah sobbed, her tears coming down so cascading down her cheeks. The day will end like this again. Missed that handsome young lady.

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This is the conclusion of my heart,

That taste is so great

The miss is getting worse

And you are the one who keeps me hooked

afaf Raihanah

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