My Beloved Duda
Chapter 15

Chapter 13

Me and my dark times, is it wrong if I expect an angel of heaven like you Raihanah I only want you, Rain you're my paradise....

only thou...

"What's really going on?" adrian asked while helping Raihan sit on the bedroom bed. Raihan was conscious from his drunkenness. The man woke up from his sleep. It is now seven in the morning and Adrian is willing not to work just for Raihan.

Adrian thinks something's wrong, but Raihan doesn't usually call him to pick him up at the bar. Usually Raihan can do it himself, the last time Raihan asked to pick him up when Raihan cheated by his wife first. Now Raihan is like an undead.

"Is it because of women?" Adrian grunts, seeing Raihan's flat expression prove if his guess is right, he analyzes from Raihan's rapport throughout the night.

"Do I need to remind you, Raihan? What happened to the two of us?" Adrian bowed before Raihan, his hand holding Raihan's shoulder tightly.

"We have both been hurt by women since we were in the womb, Rai. Did you forget?" Adrian tries to remind Raihan of their wounds.

"I fell in love with him when I first met him" Raihan said, not knowing what to say. He confesses his feelings for Adrian even though he knows Adrian will definitely scold him.

"Jeez Raihan, you can't stand your intrigue. We are only lowly creatures Raihan, no one wants our existence. Even our mothers tried to kill us in the womb, they admitted our presence was just a bad luck to them. Then what do you expect to be loved by women. If all your life, the woman who always hurt you Rai," said Adrian he does not like Raihan weak because of women.

"I kissed her forcibly," Raihan tried to defend Raihanah, she was different from the woman who hurt her in life.

"Stop wishing, before you get sick and hurt. I don't want to see you hurt like you used to, when your mother sold you out as a lust-satisfactor to serve your kind" Adrian sobbed, he sniffed at the scene.

Raihan was silent, he remembered when he had to serve the lust of the bastard man first. His body was in pain, even he was disgusted by his own body. But she can't hate her mother, Raihan loves her. He did everything he could to get a confession from his mother. Although his mother sold him, forced him, and injured him with whips or blows. His mother once said he was just trash that should have been thrown away. Those words hurt her, Raihan just kept a stash. Tears of Raihan dripped, his heart ached. His old wounds just came back.

"Didn't you remember? when your grandfather the Al-Fatih family found you and wanted you as their successor. Because they know you're the only one with Al-Fatih's blood. You said you were happy, because you could get a new family. Even glaring eyes looked at the amazement of your new family, but the next day you cried because it was not as expected. Your family looks at you with disdain, as if you were trash, and your father doesn't want to see you. You said only your grandfather thought you existed" Adrian said, trying to remind them of their position.

"Then you came back happy when you were getting married, but you came back with a wound. Your wife betrayed you, she cheated on you, in your bedroom bed, no matter how you feel. And worst of all, Rai, you made your son's friend feel what we feel. Can not feel the love of a mother, but in the past we promised not to let the person we feel what we feel. That's what makes me not want to get married, and beg for love for women. I'm afraid to hope for a creature called a woman." Adrian continued, he was crying. His eyes glazed as well as Raihan's. Too many people decorate their lives. Adrian just doesn't want Raihan to get hurt again for the umpteenth time. He doesn't want to see enough hurt today, not tomorrow.

"Listen Raihan if he's an angel, then what are you. You're the demon Raihan, even we make religion a formality. We never worship and pray to the powerful. The woman does not deserve you or me who has been labeled as an illegitimate child, a person who should not be approached" Adrian said again.

They have not believed in God since that time. For them, God is nothing but nonsense, proof that God never existed when they suffered.

"At least I used to worship Adrian, before the insult." Raihan remembered that. He still knew his Lord, even though he had abandoned him. Adjacent to Raihanah makes Raihan want to know his Lord again. This makes Adrian amazed because Raihan turned into a person he does not know. He did not know Raihan who was currently talking to him.

"I want it Adrian, what's wrong if I want to be better? Is it wrong for a disgusting man like me to expect a good woman to make my life better? I replied Adrian, am I wrong to hope?" Raihan's sick, he's dirty with all his dark time. He knows he doesn't deserve Raihanah, but does Raihan wrongly want a normal life. Loved by good women like Raihanah. Can't he love a good woman? he wants to change and have a happy life with Raihanah. She was sure that she would make her life better.

Adrian shook his head, Raihan's words are just nonsense. Hope will only happen in fairyland. Right now they were in the real world, their lives were only covered in wounds. Why expect happiness. A very silly dream. He wanted Raihan to wake up from his dream rather than be the stupid guy he is today.

"Rai, look at me, no one will look at us sincerely. If that woman knows your dark days. I'm sure it will leave you, "Adrian gripped Raihan's shoulder tightly, he uttered in a sad tone. Both sobbing, considering their mass.raihan mentap Adrian then he hugged Adrian tightly.

"Adrian, I'm confused. I know my wounds. But Rakan wants Rain to be his mother. Just like my heart wants it to be half my heart. What should I do, Rian," said Raihan sadly. He doesn't even care if he doesn't get into the office. Adrian also did not mention vomiting because of his love to see Raihan. He had never seen Raihan as sad as this. He wanted to meet Raihan with his woman.

"Would it be wrong for a despicable human like me to expect an angel of heaven, like Raihanah." Guman Raihan is desperate.

"I want Rain.to me she's my flower..."

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