My Beloved Duda
Chapter 26

The Pain of Raihan

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"Good sleep, dear hero of my father" said Raihan while kissing his son's forehead softly.

Raihan tightly hugged the sleeping Friend in his arms, for some reason there was a little regret rejecting Raihanah yesterday. Moreover, Raihanah expressed her blatant feelings to him. The feeling that Raihan has always dreamed of, loved someone sincerely. But does Raihanah love him sincerely? Raihan shook his head, this is not true Raihanah cannot possibly love. The girl must have just lied to comfort him.

Raihan kept thinking, even bad thoughts about Raihanah popped into his mind. He feared that Raihanah was the same as the women who had hurt him, his mother his good wife. Raihan massaged his painful temple, whether until when he could care for the wound in his heart alone, not he was not alone there were still friends, Adrian and his grandfather who loved him. Raihan kissed his son's forehead, he promised not to let Friend be seized by the snake woman even though Friend is not his biological child.

Was happiness just a dream for him?

Why does God not allow you to be happy? Ah Lord, lately he has been thinking more and more about God since meeting Raihanah. He remembered the book that Raihanah had given him. Raihan got up slowly from the bed, then he stepped into his room to pick up the book he had inserted under his bed.

"Ensklopedia Wanita Muslimah," Raihan quietly muttered as he read the title of the book.

His hand opened the first page until the last page quickly. Who would have thought if the book contained certain pages containing the writings of Raihanah. Raihan's hand shook because of it, the first time he did was open page 10 which contained pages with black ink Raihanah writing. Raihan's heart was racing, he did not even realize if he had laid his body on the mattress.

"God could not have created man for no reason, if we just continued to threaten God with our absurdly stupid words. How does God want to understand our difficulties? Every wound that God gives, he will also give the cure. If we keep saying God is unfair, then it is wrong. Because God always gives pleasure and misery evenly to everyone. Nothing is distinguished, therefore we can understand how to be happy and to suffer, because God gave all those feelings to his entire creation."

Raihan pensively read the writing, the words written by Raihanah are true as well, he includes lucky men his life is never lacking and his career is also good compared to people whose lives are odd out there. But something made him suffer, he was never recognized by his parents.

Raihan always thinks why he should be born from people who think of him as just trash. From the little Raihan his mother always tortured him, if he came home late then his mother would not hesitate to beat him until he stopped crying, not because of pity but his voice could no longer come out.

His mother always called him trash and in the end his mother willingly took him to a bar, he made her a lustful gratifier a aunt or a woman who thirsts for passion. Never once did Raihan feel any favors from it other than tears, he was treated harshly and harshly. No one cared about her crying and pain. At that time he learned no matter how sick we are others will not understand what we feel.

Raihan is tormented, he must be treated for sexual violence and at his peak he is sodomized by a man not only one but more. It is just a money-making land. Raihan could not remember how many times he had done it, all he remembered was his sobs holding the pain in his cock.

Raihan tried to rebel even he had gone from that place, but he even got an outburst of anger from his mother and a punch that hit his back with wood or belt. His mother would stop the blow not because of his sobs but because of the anger that had reached the climax. That woman is cruel. He doubted that the woman was his mother.

From that moment on she swore never to think of her as a mother, even to think of her as non-existent. He never had any good memories with his mother.

There is a mother who tries to eliminate her fetus while still in the womb. There are mothers who use their children as land for money. There was a mother who gave birth and abandoned her child, and her mother committed all these crimes to her.

Adrian was surprised, he did not expect if Raihan got such treatment. Adrian does not stay silent, he helps Raihan even invites Raihan to run away with him. Raihan initially refuses, but after being persuaded all out by Adrian, he finally agrees.

Until he was found by his grandfather Reno and taken to the Al-fatih family. His grandfather Reno was apparently trying to find his whereabouts. When he found out he had another grandson. And now the mother has been called God.

He was not welcomed, the whole family of Al-Fatih looked upon him with disgust and ridicule including his father. The man who has always been Raihan's dream, at least if he never got the affection of a mother he wished his father had given it to him.

Raihan closed the book that Raihanah gave him, he put it under the pillow. Then Raihan looked at the ceiling of his room, he sighed while closing his eyes. He held her heart, why it all hurt. Just this once he wanted to be happy. Is that not what he can get?

'What kind of happiness do you plan for me, God?' raihan Guman.

But he did not get an answer there was only silence there. Raihan was stunned for your first time after a long time he never confessed his God. And now he calls the word god.

Is he starting to trust God? Or I just get carried away because all this time he was always near Raihanah. Raihan exhaled heavily, then rubbed his face rough. Ever since he got close to Raihanah, he wanted to know his Lord. His creator. It's all because of that woman.

'Should I trust Raihanah? If that girl loves me'

'Or I go release Raihanah'

'But I can't lie to my feelings if I love Raihanah too. Even I find it hard to breathe thinking about it.'

Inner Raihan kept fighting, he was busy thinking about his heart. Since he could not stay away from Raihanah, his heart wanted Raihanah very much.

'What Should I do?' ruman Raihan fell asleep in a dream.

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