My Own Korean Drama
Chapter 7 - Reality hit me too much

Korea, end of 2016

Not much has happened since 2013. I have been single ever since. I honestly don't know where my heart wants to dock. Auriga, and Min-wook are both important people. My feelings for Min-wook deepened as the years went on. Although we didn't officially date, we often spent leisure time together - of course I plus six other Gu Boy members. Gu Boy has also understood what the relationship is between me and Min-wook. One thing I know for sure, I'm comfortable with them. I'm comfortable debating about mint choco ice cream or maybe how to eat a dipper-pourer. I don't know, they're fun.

Like most other year-ends, celebrities will be busy with a wide variety of events. The end of the year is different this time. Normally I would go back to London to celebrate with my family but this time I waited in the backstage as the host. My waiting area is not far from Gu Boy's waiting area. I decided to visit the kids. I had just opened the waiting room door, and the seven men I was about to visit were already standing in front of me. I can do nothing but let these seven men fill my waiting room.

“Eat!” Min-wook orders while thrusting the sandwich. I smiled and walked over to the chair by the window. I opened the brown paper wrapping the sandwich. I flipped the paper.

**Han River 02:02 **

It was an invitation to come out together. As written on the paper, the Han River was at two in the morning. I raise my eyebrows looking at Min-wook who was staring at me. His attitude really changed when he faced me, he completely dominated our relationship. Min-wook seems to be a different figure when in front of the camera. He'll be funny, childish, and chatty. I don't know why it made me put my heart to her even deeper even though there was no clear status between us.

After closing this event, everyone ‘berparty’ on stage. As usual Gu Boy would act as if no one was watching. The maknae trio with Min-wook dance to the cheerful rhythm of the song. Hyun Sik, Dae Ho, and Eun Hyuk stared at their groupmates while laughing. I smiled at the stage cheer.

As if time slowed down, a pair of eyes looked at me deeply. I enjoyed how his eyes looked into my eyes. My heart is beating faster. No, he's not Min-wook. My smile faded. The cheerful song suddenly stopped in my ear. I was standing in a different world. He's there, being a spectator. I didn't know that we would look back at each other after five years. This leafan is still the same, the butterflies flying in my stomach are still the same, even the taste is still the same just now it is not me who is standing next to him. A mature woman stood up while holding the man's hand affectionately. I pulled back a smile with all my might. My chest hurts as if someone just hit him hard. This is called a broken heart. I just found out that heartbreak really hurts this much.

The Han River looks crowded from up here. I put the coffee in the clear cup. Hopefully the Han River will be quiet at two o'clock. I sat on the sofa hugging my legs. If I don't choose this industry, will I become that woman, and stand next to Auriga? Will that place be mine? If five years ago I didn't choose Korea, would Auriga and I be together? Am I sorry at the moment? I sip coffee slowly. I put my head on the couch, let myself rest for a moment.

The ringing of the cell phone woke me up. I grabbed the phone that was on the table in front of me. It's from Min-wook. I received that call, “yeoboseyo?”

“Nuna overslept?” Ask Min-wook across the street. I chuckled softly then replied, “I will be there soon, just relax.” After disconnecting the call, I picked up the padding jacket then exited. I stared at the Han River from my room. People aren't that many. Me, and Min-wook are sitting on one of the chairs on the Han River.

“It's so cold,” said Min-wook while standing up from the chair then pulled my hand. I didn't say much, and followed him.

“You want to show off a new car?” I asked when I was in the car.

“Could be,” replied Min-wook while driving somewhere. I stared at the lonely streets of Seoul. There was no conversation between us.

“Nuna is having problems?” Min-wook asked, ending the silence. I looked at Min-wook who was driving.

“I saw Auriga,” I said honestly. The man next to me breathed a rough breath.

“Nuna wants ice cream?” Ask Min-wook again who seems to be trying to divert the conversation.

“Mint choco?” I asked expectantly.

“Yes! Why do you like mint choco so much?!” Min-wook yelled annoyed. I was open to hearing his voice. I don't know how he always knew how to revive my laughter. I looked at him who was laughing. I always thought I'd be an Asian man of manners. Dating before nine, going to a crowded place but now I broke it all. The fact that I am a successful and famous person makes me have to jump over it all.

Seoul, January 2017

I'm back at my job. My manager is no longer Su Ryeon Unnie. Now wherever I go, Ji Ah will always be with me. As of today, Ji Ah accompanied me to sign a partnership with a well-known clothing brand, AAA (read : triple ei). I reread the contract I had to sign. Actually I read it yesterday but I don't know why I always read this contract that I'm going to re-sign. Ji Ah gave me my pen and stamp. The contract finally came into effect. There's a signature and a stamp on it. I pushed back and then smiled.

“Ah, actually AAA CEO wants to celebrate this cooperation with dinner together, can it?” Ask the AAA manager whom I myself have forgotten his name.

“You can set the date with my manager,” I said then looked at Ji Ah. I left the room leaving Ji Ah who started to open the agenda. I chose to go out for a walk looking at the contents of the AAA building. Several times I stopped to just talk to employees who turned out to be my loyal audience. Every time they've advised me to go to the rooftop. At first I was not too interested but now I became curious as to what the top of this building. I finally let myself follow everyone's advice. The elevator doors open and feature the top of the AAA building.

Very beautiful, that's what I thought as soon as I saw it. This place is really beautiful. The plants are covered with white snow. Small lights are installed in several corners. I can't wait to see this place in the spring, it must be more beautiful. I walked to see this place even more. I took my phone trying to capture the beauty of this place. A hand pulled my phone. I looked up in annoyance looking for the owner of that hand. Rigid body. Auriga is standing before my eyes now. He was the same as if nothing had changed. I don't know why or how my tears can flow down my cheeks.

“Chris! Yes!” Call Ji Ah pull me back to reality. After being able to reach my phone, I immediately wiped my tears and approached Ji Ah as if nothing had happened.

“You know him?” Ji Ah asked as we were in the elevator.

“No,” I replied as casually as possible. Ji Ah just nodded in response to my answer which was a huge lie.

“So when will we meet the CEO of this place?” Away divert.

“Next week at 7.” replied Ji Ah.

“I don't know who he is yet, please find me information about him,”

I just got to the dawn apartment. A box was placed in front of the apartment door. I think it's from Grandma. I picked up the box then placed it next to a short table in front of the sofa. The window shows the dark Han river. I threw my body on the sofa. I opened the cardboard box I had brought in. As usual vegetables and strawberries. My eyes turned to the letters that had been sealed for a week. Half-heartedly I opened the envelopes one by one. Credit card bills. The invitation to dinner with Gu Boy, I chuckled at the invitation. Colorful glitter fell down as I pulled her side out. This colorful little powder must have been Il Hoon while the messy writing was Jung Seo. I photographed their invitation then sent it to the ‘PE group It looks like the First Generation’.

Christina McKenzie

(photo)

I'm sure it was Il Hoon and Jung Seo

Eun Hyuk

Nuna's coming, isn't she?

Wook Ok

They were fighting

Christina McKenzie

Sure do…

I must have come

What was the cause this time?

Hyun Sik's

Odeng Il Hoon is bigger than Odeng Jung Seo

Help me Nuna

I read the report on Gu Boy's fight. I'm sure Min-wook is nagging the kids right now. I was tired as if I was lost imagining the seven boys. Can I still call them kids? I don't think so, I even kissed one of them. I smiled as I recalled that 2013 winter kiss. I don't know, I'm sure I'm very comfortable when I think of the seven men. They are one of the living witnesses of my struggle in this industry.

My cherry face didn't last long. The last letter had Auriga's name on it. Sent from Korea. Auriga is really in Korea right now. Auriga should have been the reason I smiled, but I was wrong. I was wrong all along. I always imagined beautiful things when I met Auriga again but now in fact she was the reason I was grim. Reality is never as beautiful as expectation. Reality just hit me. Reality hit me too much, I think.

Seoul, December 28, 2016

The Beloved

Christina McKenzie

I'm not good at writing letters you know. I don't know how to start this. I hope it's not strange when you read it.

I didn't expect that you would go to Korea and enter the entertainment industry. I was quite surprised when one of my employees proposed you as one of the company's brand ambassador candidates. On the other hand I'm grateful for that, I finally know that you're okay.

I'll go to the year-end event you'll be attending as well. I hope you're not too surprised because I brought someone. For five years we've been apart, I've met someone, I hope you are too.

I don't know why I wrote this letter, after thinking for at least an hour, I realized that I still have feelings for you. I thought with her present, I could forget you completely.

Greetings, dear,

.auriga

Auriga Walsh's

Note: I hope this letter arrives and you read it before the event.