My Own Korean Drama
Chapter 13 - A Sadness Called Goodbye
Mid May 2017
“Nuna sure with this?” Min-wook asks while staring at the signed sheet. I nodded then smiled weakly. My apartment is back. The articles published by Rispact are becoming more and more. I'm pretty sure there's someone behind the makeup artist. This decision is unanimous. I can't go back to the glass screen with those articles. Not after Rispact published my date with Min-wook.
“Then when is Nuna back?” Min-wook asked again. I stared at the finger knotted above my lap. I looked up, looking at Min-wook inside. This guy in front of me could be a victim of those articles, and this is a step I took to avoid other articles.
“Now, vacuum this time for an unspecified time,” I replied carefully. From his face I could see the disappointment that was not revealed. Min-wook pulls me into his arms then my tears break.
“I can visit Nuna on my day off,” said Min-wook trying to calm down. I pull away from Min-wook's embrace then kiss his lips at a glance.
MY OWN KOREAN DRAMA
Now I'm taking you guys to the end of 2017. Time passes quickly. Like most stories, insignificant events will not be written down. Last year I stared at Auriga from the stage as the host but this time I looked at her sitting in a fancy restaurant in the busy city of Seoul.
December 30th, 2017
Inside this room was only me, and Auriga. The view of Seoul at night is the main point behind high room rental prices. I slowly cut the meat in front of me. After swallowing it, I took a sip of alcoholic wine from inside the tall glass. I always loved this sensation. I closed my eyes for a moment enjoying the very pampering taste of my tongue. This combination is always appropriate. I looked up at Auriga in front of me. This man invited me to meet before he returned to Yogyakarta. I looked at him inside. I'm leaving South Korea tonight. All the work I've done, and I want to leave this country for an indefinite period. It could be a month, two months, a year, two years, or at worst, forever. I went back to Auriga in front of me. He didn't know that I was going to leave either.
“In addition, I want to tell you that I broke up with my lover yesterday, we did not find a bright spot for our relationship,” Auriga said then again cut the meat. I put the glass and cut the meat in front of me. I don't mind his words.
“To be honest I broke up because I haven't been able to forget you,” added Auriga then snorted. I cut the meat and ate it, trying to ignore what he said.
“I don't want to say this but I can only survive for six months. End-stage liver cancer.” Auriga opened her last card. My hand stopped instantly. I looked into Auriga's eyes. Is this how he gets me back? If yes, he succeeded. My heart fell back on him.
“What's that subterfuge for me to notice you?” I'm rude.
“Inaugurating the building yesterday was the last task I did. After this I will return to Jogja and enjoy the seaside waiting for the day of my death,”, Auriga said again which deeply sliced my heart. I looked the other way trying to hold back the tears. It's really stifling. I don't know what I should do to Min-wook after this but one thing is for sure I really want to go back to Auriga then hold him tightly hoping he won't die.
“Do you do any treatment?” I was still trying to hold back my tears.
“For what I am trying to recover, it is better that I enjoy life, drink the painkillers two years before death is not a difficult thing,” Auriga replied casually still enjoying her food. I looked at the man who had my first kiss. Long enough I stared at him until a fact slapped me, I just had an affair. I snorted and then smiled sarcastically.
“What is that also you?” I'm full of sarcasm.
“What?” Auriga asked casually then stuffed a piece of meat into her mouth.
“Min-wook dating scandal, and past jobs?” I asked with more sarcasm. Auriga's hand stopped in front of her mouth. I looked at him and laughed cynically.
“After trying to take down my career and my lover, you want to set me up?” I asked more rudely. Auriga put down the fork, and her knife then looked at me for quite a while.
“Turn off that recording device!” My orders are low-pitched yet intimidating. Since sitting in this chair I have been able to see the red light from inside that suit. Auriga reached into the pocket of the shirt and threw the little black thing on the table.
“Which part should I trust, and which part is your ruse?” I asked without further ado. I was quite disappointed in myself for almost falling on his tongue.
“I really had cancer, and I really only had six months,” she replied looking at me with her angry look.
“Why did you do all that?” Ask again.
“Isn't it clear? I can't afford to turn away from you,” Auriga replied then took a coarse glass of it.
“Do I need to issue more terrible articles?” He asked half-threatening. I hate this mood. I hate how he twirled the contents of his glass. I gulped then replied, “and what is that article?”
“Have you dated your boss? Bully new officers? Trying to cover your identity while working at my place?” Auriga is really sneaky. Damnit damnit! Why did I fall in charm? Auriga was not wrong, me and Auriga back then were indeed superiors and subordinates back then. Why was I evil to R (read : The Brightest of Aquila). Dating news, past jobs, scars, and now dating superiors? Goddamnit! I don't know what I've done in the past. I threw my face at the city of Seoul.
“If I come back to you, then what? What did you promise me?” Ask again.
“Security, there will be no scandal coming up, whatever you want,” Auriga replied still twirling the contents of the glass. I sniffed rough. This is not the landing I wanted.
“Alright!” Excruciate. Auriga stopped her hand then looked at me with one of her eyebrows raised.
MY OWN KOREAN DRAMA
My footsteps headed back to the floor where I lived. The sound of knocking heels filled the entire hallway as it walked. The knee-length dress I was wearing felt like it was pressing my stomach excessively. After arriving at the door of my unit, I reopened the main door and then stepped in. The whole room is empty. I'm not here to go home. I just want to see the place I once called home maybe one last time because I don't know if I'm going back or not. This place is still the same as the first time I came. My memory was thrown two years ago. I came to this place with Min-wook and Hyun Sik. The three of us instantly fell in love the first time we set foot in this unit. A wide view of the Han River plus a high ceiling. This place is perfect for a home. I will miss this place.
I came to the big window that made me fall in love with this unit. The sky outside had turned dark. From here I understand more and more why Chris fell in love with this place. The sight of people running around makes the foggy mind calmer. I looked back at the empty room. Here I once celebrated my first birthday, celebrating the drama starring got the highest rating, even here I was dating. I'm stuck in the memories I've been through in this place. Starting at 12pm tonight, this place is no longer mine. I don't know why I feel so sad about having to part with this place.
I closed the door full of longing. My step back downstairs. The company car has arrived, so has Ji Ah. They're ready to take me back to where I came from. The winters were colder when I remembered that I was leaving the country before the year changed. The streets are quite crowded considering tomorrow is the last day of 2017. Snow covered the plants growing by the roadside. For a moment I envy those plants for they will remain there until they die.
The car stopped in front of the entrance and soon my door opened. I lowered one leg and a hand reached out to me. I looked up to find the owner of that hand. Park Min-wook, my girlfriend. I smiled and then accepted his hand. Across there the media who were aware of my arrival began to row. Min-wook keeps holding my hand until we reach the last door Min-wook can take me. From where I stood, I could see how much trouble the bodyguards held back the media from getting close. I hugged Gu Boy's members one by one. It started with Hyun Sik then Dae Ho. Eun Hyuk slightly let out tears as I gave her a hug. Line's meaning hugged me simultaneously. My tears broke when I saw Il Hoon in tears. I hugged Il Hoon back to calm down.
“Nuna will contact you often,” my efforts to calm Il Hoon. This man does have the softest heart of the other members.
“I'll bring Nuna ice cream mint choco when visiting,” said Dae Ho trying to brighten up the sad atmosphere.
“Don't be in a hurry to go home, take as much time as you want after being ready to come back then meet me,” Ji Ah said as she hugged me. Speaking of Ji Ah, she will be Jae Eon's assistant temporarily. I saw Su Ryeon Unnie and Go PD-nim walking over to us. Su Ryeon Unnie carried a sizable paper bag.
“Eat this misses South Korea very much,” said Su Ryeon Unnie while thrusting the paper bag she carried.
“Take care of yourself!” Go PD-nim gave the message. I smiled in response. I turned to look at Min-wook. I smiled at him. I took an envelope from inside the coat pocket.
“Read this when you get to the apartment,” I said as I put a letter into his coat pocket.
“Open this when you take off,” said Min-wook as he stuffed a box into my coat pocket. I smiled bitterly considering the contents of my letter.
I walk to the last gate they can deliver. I waved a wrong hand at them and then turned around for sure as if I wasn't going back. I looked at their faces one by one. Everything looks fine. I'm fine myself too.
Like Min-wook's message I took the box out of my coat pocket. This box is purple with pink ribbon. I pulled the ribbon until it slipped. The box cover is pulled out. A necklace with a white maehwa flower pendant. I picked up the paper that was under the necklace.
Dear Christina Mackenzie
I will miss you so much. Use this necklace when you return to South Korea, it will be a sign that you miss me too.
Park Min-wook's.
My tears are starting to flow. The guilt started to spread throughout my heart. My chest was pressed so hard that oxygen was hard to get in. I sniffled alone. I clasped the necklace with grief. If I knew Min-wook would give you this, I shouldn't have given you that letter. I know what it was like to read that letter.
MY OWN KOREAN DRAMA
“I'll come back to you,” I said firmly which made Auriga turn her eyes to me.
“Tiket will..”
“I will return to London tonight, and the news will be released one hour before I go to the airport, I will catch up with you to Indonesia after the turn of the year,”. I won't fall asleep again. After letting go of Min-wook, I don't want to let go of anything else. Auriga nodded then put down her glass.
“Good until also in 2018.”
After Auriga leaves, I write a final letter to Min-wook. I don't want to end the relationship this way but I can't say that in front of Gu Boy either. I wouldn't have the heart to see her sad eyes while walking away from South Korea. If you're confused as to why I'm making this decision, let me explain. Maybe if you read my story this feels normal because you took my side and Min-wook so when Auriga I left to be with Min-wook you'd be happy. Try taking the other side. People who don't like my relationship and Min-wook can use this as a weapon to take me down and Min-wook down, and if Min-wook falls off remember there are still six other people connected to him. One more thing you need to know, the relationship between superiors and subordinates can not be considered romantic, all the dramas you see are just dramatists of art workers.
To The Beloved
Park Min - wook
It's Chris. There are many ways to say this but I prefer to write it down. Our relationship was almost a year. You know this is sad. There are all kinds of causes of grief but you know the cause of the most terrible grief I've ever experienced, separation. A sadness called goodbye. That sounds good to be a song title. It's wonderful to say this but we have to separate. Please don't call me anymore. In essence I can no longer be with you. Gu Boy's career will be on edge if we stick together. Please apologize to Go PD-nim for causing a riot in the PE building for the second time, if we are destined to meet again, ask the reason because for now I am not able to hurt your heart even though I have done it.
Christina Mackenzie's.