Nandithas
UNDECIDED

"Bec ... What was? Why didn't you finish the breakfast?" Onty Eby, who had been watching Nandita's attitude, rebuked the girl.

"Ah, why onty?" Nandita, who was daydreaming, stuttered when onty Eby mentioned her name.

"Mmm sorry onty, uncle, I'm not feeling well anymore. So my appetite is reduced" he continued, realizing where his mistake lay.

"You sick, son? Going to the clinic, or call the doctor?"

"Eemm don't need to uncle, then rest is enough."

"You don't work today?"

"Work anyway, onty ...."

"Udaah .. permit today if you are sick. Than later at work there's nothing." Uncle Murat's proposal again.

Nandita felt wrong. Apparently the lie he did, spread to many things.

He's fine, why shouldn't he work? This month his work was pretty solid.

Nandita looked at onty Eby, with a wailing look. She hoped she would help him find a reason to go to work.

"Would you give permission to your boss?" Tanya Onty Eby, Nandita replied with a headband.

"Easy, it'll be uncle who takes care of your leave." Sahut uncle Murat again, make Nandita can not wart.

So even the hijab woman who was asked to help save herself from this atmosphere, also could not do anything.

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After breakfast, Nandita returned to her room.

He doesn't know what to do today.

"Tp ...." The sound from the doorway, made the girl turn her head.

"Owny, man,"

"What's the problem?" Ask the woman, directly at the subject.

Nandita hesitated a little to tell her the turmoil of her heart. Long time the girl was silent to make onty Eby again sound.

"In a moment, you will return to Indonesia. Don't let the problems that are here, you take it home to the homeland," said soft onty Eby make the girl feel a little calm. Moreover, the rubbing of the hand of the woman who became her adoptive mother, was able to provide comfort for her heart.

"City ... Onty never feel worried about the road that has been onty take? Or feel a little sorry about the decision?"

Onty Eby frowned.

"Why are you worried?"

"Kok me anyway, onty? I'm not nanya, onty never feel worried?"

"Yes you did, because you experienced it, right?" Nandita was unable to answer the woman's question.

Should he be honest? But he felt ashamed. He shouldn't have grown up, having this kind of ambiguous feeling.

"I'm ashamed onty ...." Her great-granddaughter with her head bowed.

"Why should I be ashamed? Feelings of worry, fear, doubt, it's human. Anyone would have felt it. It's just, how we deal with those feelings, that's all that matters."

"I ... Falling in love with Aslan, onty." Nandita said softly, but can still be heard clearly by onty Eby.

"What's? Why can?"

The woman was quite surprised by what Nandita said.

"I don't understand onty, the feeling arises without me preventing it. As much as possible I deny. Convincing if this feeling is just a feeling of admiration, just a comfortable feeling because they are used to meeting and joking. But the longer, the more I couldn't persuade my heart. I felt the same beating, as I felt in Gunadh. That's why I tried hard to keep remembering Gunadh mas, so that my feelings for Aslan slowly eliminated. But he was here, accompanying me, coloring my days, making the taste perfectly nurtured. Especially when he brought Gunadh mas come here, making my admiration for him even greater. He sacrificed so much for me, Onty." Nandita finally said.

"Onty, am I cheap to have liked more than one man?" He continued, staring at onty Eby with a frustrated look.

The hijab-wearing woman who was initially surprised, finally commented a thin smile. Only then did he realize that the kenpa had been so hard for Nandita to reject Aslan. Not because she doesn't like it, but quite the opposite. Nandita falls in love with the young man, and realizes that her feelings are wrong.

"Mrs ... Gunadh your first girlfriend huh? Have you ever been in love with another man?"

Nandita.

"I never thought about going out, onty. Mas Gunadh is my first love and girlfriend."

"Oohh ... So Gunadh is your first experience of being in a relationship with the opposite sex, right? You should be scared." Eby's onty remarks made Nandita even more confused.

"Mrs ... No one can blame a taste. But it's going to be a problem, when you're committed to someone, but you still let your feelings get branched." Ongy Eby soft.

"Then how should I go about onty?"

To be honest, there was a void that Nandita felt, when the days he lived were so calm without interference from Aslan.

In the last eight months he has always been accompanied by the man, although not every day they meet.

Is it Nandita's fault, if he unconsciously began to get used to the presence of Aslan? Does he feel guilty if the taste he keeps for Gunadh, unconsciously grows for the man, who now he must be able to soak it, let it dry unmaintained so that it withers and dies?

"What makes you feel good about Aslan, which you didn't get from Gunadh?"

"Near him, I can be myself onty, I can laugh out loud without worrying about embarrassing him. If the same mas Gunadh, we have a monotonous relationship. For some reason, my sense of humor was lost when I was with him. I'm confused, whether I can't keep up with it, or his rigid nature, I don't know."

"Are you uncomfortable with Gunadh?"

"I'm comfortable onty. He always treated me well."

"Then try to be who you are in front of him. Do not try to show maturity and cover your childish side in front of him. Onty's sure, he'll definitely accept your bad good."

Nandita nodded her head. The girl was really like a student doing private lessons.

"What's your strongest reason for harboring the same feelings of your tribe as Aslan?"

"Onty must have known the answer. Other than because of belief, I'm still very heavy to let go of Gunadh mas, onty. I still wish I could fix my relationship with him."

"All that you can make a benchmark in the face of this concern. Ye know? The test will always be there in every relationship. There is no journey that is always smooth for us to go through. There will always be doubts, there will always be temptations that come either from the outside or from within ourselves. It is our duty to be wise to deal with every obstacle. Actually the most difficult test, not facing an opponent from the outside, but facing an enemy from within yourself. And right now, your test is that. Against your own ego."