Not Ustadz I (Unrevised)
15. The truth of a secret

After passing through a full day with Arista, we were finally able to relax in the meadow behind the mansion. I was surprised to find out that all this entertainment like the one we play today was actually built on the first day I came here.

It's a surprise to me, a surprise with a tickling pinch in my heart. Plus the friend who was usually a lot of chatter beside me suddenly fell silent after whispering something confusing, he just kept quiet while occasionally sighing. Her beautifully-dissolved hair amazes me, usually she'll just tie it. Today it was as if he was going to leave me for a long time.

"Don't go too long." My low tone surprised him, his wide eyes staring intently at my face.

"May my face be hollow because of your gaze." My timpalku saw his expression.

After a few minutes he was still looking at me sharply, he was finally able to let go of his gaze gently. A sincere smile adorned her beautiful face, her teeth looked neat even issued an extraordinary charm from an innocent girl.

"Hehe, I'm sorry but I have to be gone for a long time, but I promise I will take care of you even from afar, don't mind me. Take it easy, hehe." His mouth spoke as if this was our last meeting.

"A-ah. okay." My reply was slightly stammered, seeing the relieved expression from his face.

After that we chatted for a long time, he told me a lot of things I didn't know. His experience was very harsh because from the time he was little he had been taught how to become a swordsman, his rough hands proved everything.

One, two, three hours we passed (?) We were enjoying the green grass with some purple lavender flowers, when I was closing my eyes suddenly the wind blew.

"Ugh, cold..." I muttered a little opening my eyes.

I saw Arista suddenly disappear from my sight, I thought he was only gone for a moment. But for about two hours I waited for him, he never showed his nose.

"Amanda?.."

It was a voice I hadn't heard for very long, a voice I knew even though it was faint. When I turned around, it was true that she was Nikle Liam, seeing her made me want to spill a raging feeling in my heart. I don't know what made me want to hug her, but my legs stepped on their own and my body quickly clutched tightly onto a thin body that looked depressed.

"Sister... Hiks, how are you?" I said in the warm embrace of him.

While he was petrified and finally he returned my embrace, he made me comfortable with all the affection he had been giving.

".. I'm fine just by seeing you healthy.. Amanda's.." Liam replied meaningfully, as if preparing himself to meet me.

It felt that even though I was a lost soul in another person's body, but I felt that he was a poor person.

Suddenly Liam took off his arms and held both of my shoulders "Amanda." He said with a slightly trembling tone.

"Oh you guys here?" Steven came in formal wear, I don't think it was school wear but more like office wear.

"I've replaced my meeting father, so I can see you Liam. I'm sorry I've been so busy lately." Reveal Steven while shaking hands with my brother.

"It's okay, after all, you're the only son who's gonna inherit the company. Make efforts." Liam's words were interspersed with smiles.

"Oh, of course not. I'd rather build my own than rely on a family legacy." Steven replied confidently.

"Hahahaha that's who you are." Reply Liam casually.

We passed through several gardens and finally arrived at a well-ventilated room, many windows that showed off the views of orchid trees. We sat on a simple antique sofa, it was nice to enjoy the beauty of orchids and the air in the afternoon.

"Is there anything you want to talk to me about?" I asked my brother who had glanced at me sharply.

"I-I. wanna talk.."

He responded to me stammering, his face nervous and his gaze avoided my gaze.

"Sister, I'll go to the room if nothing is talked about. Looks like Steven also has a lot to do with big brother, right?" Ungkap.

"No, stay here." Said my brother looking into my eyes with a glaring look.

"All right.." My reply lowered my voice a little.

From there I knew everything, my sister who turned out to have known for a long time the existence of me which was actually not Amanda but Elena. After hearing everything I decided to go to the bathroom, I cried for what kind of feeling made my heart ache.

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"Today I just asked the Madam's family for approval to donate Mrs Elena's heart for the Nikle family's benefit, are you sure you're going to have a heart transplant and some kind of metempsychosis experiment in Germany, Mrs Elena?" Said the doctor with a worried face to me, I who felt life was no longer any use to feel better I did an unforgettable charity.

"I have no problem, after all my mother is dead and my sister no longer needs me. Give the money my sister asked for her to survive." I avoided the doctor's pity.

Actually he was the doctor who had been helping me, he always understood me who sometimes paid my mother's blood wash money late. His name was Alex Ultaliar, a doctor and friend who used to watch over my brother and tell me. Now she is planning an engagement and soon to be married, it feels crowded knowing she will get married when she is the person I love. I don't think there's any point in liking someone right now, 'cause I'm gonna die soon.

"Huh, I get it. But can you think about it again?" The question makes me laugh a little.

"No, I've decided. Besides, my debts to the hospital are up, and the cost of the entire house I paid a week ago. Water bills, garbage, electricity, bank debt all paid off a few days ago. Now I want to go quietly. My sister's Educational Development (SPP) donation has also paid off, relieved! Haha." Obviously at length, it feels very relieved. Maybe after this I won't be tired today.

"Well, what's the last word from you, Elena?" Alex asked, to which I replied a sincere smile.

"Hihi, for the people I've met. May you be happy in the world and the hereafter, healthy always. And especially for you, congratulations on your marriage. Hehe!" It was my words that made him give off a strange facial expression.

"Hiks, I'm sorry.. Elena, I actually know all the feelings you've got for me. Sorry, I can't answer that." She said as if it was hard for her to let go of me.

Lying if I wasn't disappointed, I guess he really hated my special feelings for her all along. But it turns out he just ignored and did what he wanted to do.

"T-it's okay. I'm sincere.. Can you go?" I asked her to resist my urge to cry.

For a moment he looked at me with an annoying look, like excessive pity. In the end he left me.

"Huh, O Allah. I heard there was a patient who came and he was rich, but he needed a heart donor? I heard he was in an accident, his crazy brother wanted to do an experiment by making me a guinea pig for metempsychosis in Germany. He seemed to be loved, if I may want to be him..."

Seriate.