Not Ustadz I (Unrevised)
9. Difference is not a breaker

..."I believe sincerely without consideration for what I believe in, friendship always needs difference as a unified color like art." @doctorhoki_...

The atmosphere of the room that had been full of laughter suddenly became awkward.

"Do you know if a belief like this can solve everything? Besides, why if I have different beliefs than you? I heard this place has a strong tolerance for understanding others, so don't ask me anything impossible." I then left my three male friends.

I agreed to be friends with these kids because I thought they knew that differences weren't a barrier to making friends, after all, a person's understanding if debated with another understanding will have no way out and will cause war. Like social media, when someone suddenly expresses his understanding and demeans others will inevitably arise unpleasant feelings.

Now I'm calming down on Steven's back balcony, exhaling carbon dioxide through my mouth and breathing oxygen through my nose, a freshness that's good for my mind.

"Why did he suddenly ask for a postulate explaining my beliefs? Especially history? I'm that smart, well I'll learn more." I was a little annoyed by what happened recently.

(Simple!)

The sound of the balcony door opening, I saw at a glance it was Sabila. He smiled as he opened the cigarette packaging that looked like new. 

"You're mad at Ryan's thoughts, aren't you?" He asked, I think that sensitivity is necessary.

"A little bit, this makes me feel like he's underestimating me. I'm not that smart, even my demonstration is not like a believer but at least don't try to break my trust." I said while closing my eyes as if following a gentle breeze.

"Hm, I understand how you feel. Ryan is like that his son, actually no different from Steven or Sehun. I used to have different opinions about subjects, too, and they didn't budge with it. But I guess their attitude is different from yours, because once you snap, they don't even dare to look you in the eye. Maybe now they're contemplating what they're doing." Sabila made me laugh a little, I couldn't believe they would listen to me.

It all started when I was reading sholawat.

Flashbacks

[POV Amanda]

"Yes Prophet... Iloveyou..." I muttered a bit in tone, I actually fell in love while singing a song I made myself.

"I'm confused how you can love a dead man." Ryan suddenly said in the middle of my fun.

"It's okay, it's wrong if I love that person like an idol that many people crave?" I was a little surprised by his question.

"You believe?" Ask Sehun who I replied a small nod.

"But why don't you keep your head like most people? I heard they were wearing it to cover her whole body to avoid danger." Ryan surprised me a little.

"Yes I should have closed the part that was supposed to be closed, but I still can't. I don't know, I feel like if I do it half-way one day I'll underestimate it and leave it. I wanted to mean it, so I waited so that I could remain sober to the end." I said a little pressure to stop talking about it anymore.

"You love the dead noble, but foolishly you can't stick to your principles." Ryan was surprised to me.

"Indeed, with me shutting everything down, will I be branded as a devout woman in the eyes of my Lord? Like ******* or cover people who committed crimes. Know that being covered is easier than keeping it clean. Other people's eyes may look at me dirty, because they don't know anything about me." Obviously with a smile on my face, I know my words sound stupid but I express what I want to say.

"Give up, I don't want to argue with you." Ryan made me bully my teeth.

'If I prolong the problem I'll look like a fool defending myself.'

"If I'm wrong, but my principle is that even to my death I stick to my faith, I will continue to learn until the end." Reveal me full of confidence, my eyes full of enthusiasm. No one will be able to compare my faith with the words of the newly mature unless he is a teacher.

"Can you explain the postulate in your book.."

(Kh!)

I left him because I felt he would refute every word that came out of my mouth.

....

End Flashback

"I am free, after all today I can sit at home also because of the work that is not heavy." The reply was light, the smoky gust of wind it produced made his face appear cold.

The wind in the afternoon is refreshing, it feels more delicious than the cold Canadian wind.

(Tranks!)

The ringing sound of the cell phone coming from my pocket, I saw at a glance it was my father.

"Sir, daddy called me." My permission was reciprocated by a small nod from Sabila.

"Hallo dad, how are you?"

"Hallo's little daughter, good news and your brother. Today aren't you on holiday?"

"Fuck you, did Liana tell you?"

"Yes, Liana said you were staying at your friend Steven's house. Does it make you happy or does it hurt you?"

"I'm so happy dad, in Indonesia I can learn a lot of things independently. I love the air as well as the woods, though it's a little spooky."

"Yes, thank goodness. Then tomorrow the morning package comes to Liana's residence, you open it and wear it for the next. Weren't you the one who chose to follow in your mother's footsteps, so follow along and learn the good stuff, son."

"Yes dad, I'll see what's inside. By the way, which brother? How come I just heard Dad's voice?"

"Your brother was overtime all night, so now he looks like a dying boy. He'll call when he wakes up."

"Alright, Iwait. Dad, I'm going to go play with my friends. Babay."

"Have a good time."

(Click!)

At last the call was over, I felt a little guilty to my father. As usual, he is not like my brother.

"Amanda.." A voice from someone I know.

"What?" I answered cold and cold.

"I'm sorry.." Ryan said with a glare toward Amanda.

"Oh, I'm tired. Let's go in and forget it all, but I'll try to change my attitude." I tried to speak in a soft voice.

I saw him still speechless as if burdened with my words.

"Have it, I'm not someone who holds grudges easily but I can process the words or input from others for my life lessons. I take what I can take hehe, so don't feel burdened as if you're going to hell because of me." My words tried to calm him down, I am not the type of hostility lover.

"Well, okay.." Ryan replied in a low tone.

I ended up eating with them, talking as if nothing had happened. No one knows what will happen tomorrow.

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