Not Wanting (So) the Second
Episode 54: Not Just a Wound

The task of volunteering for a month was finally completed. The doctors will return to their respective places. On that day Agam and Sandra found out that their one-night love produced a seed in the womb.

"Come with me, I don't want to let you go anymore." Agam feels responsible for the continuation of Sandra's life.

"I will live my life as usual. I will give birth to this child and raise her. So don't worry." Sandra brushed off the hand of Agam who was holding her.

"I deserve to take care of your life and our children." Agam was completely blinded by his love.

Sandra tasted bitter, she felt very stupid for falling into the gaze of Agam that night.

"Then what about your son? Isn't your wife pregnant?"

"I'll make him accept your existence, Sandra."

"You think I want to? I don't want to be second. Your wife wouldn't want that either. I was so stupid for doing it with you. I imagine how your wife feels, don't you imagine it?"

Sandra's eyeballs started to glaze over. He should have thought about this from the beginning. This mistake was the gate of destruction for him. He's really very sorry. But to abort, he wouldn't have the heart to do that. He will defend his fetus, without disturbing Agam.

"Sandra.." -...." Agam prevented his first love from leaving, but he could not do much. The doctors will watch them. Agam could only look at Sandra who was running towards the bus.

"AAAGGH...!" Agam kicked one of his suitcases. He wanted to be with Sandra, but on the other hand he thought of Nisha, and the family's reputation. If news of her relationship and Sandra spread, then the prestige of her family would fall. He does not want to tarnish the good name of the family.

Agam decided to return to the city first. He'll find Sandra's whereabouts later. He will definitely be responsible. He will guarantee Sandra a decent life, just like Nisha.

Shortly after returning to the city, Nisha wanted a vacation to Turkey. Unable to see Nisha gloomy and sad, Agam finally agreed. After all, the happiness of a mother is very important for the fetus. He did not want his son to feel sad.

Intention to find Sandra he also undo. However, he also fell in love with Nisha. Both are equally important to Agam. He even told someone to find out about Sandra.

But the crash cannot be in Elak. Nisha and Agam were involved in a traffic accident on their way to the airport. The accident was so severe that Nisha was critical for two weeks. Their son could not be saved, and Nisha's womb was forced to be removed.

Nisha's loss of her fetus and womb makes Agam forget his intentions to Sandra. He could not see Nisha suffering alone. That's why he focused on helping Nisha recover from her downturn.

Month after month, year after year passed. Because it never found Sandra, slowly Agam was like a loss of taste, lost hope. Sandra was hiding from him.

Agam is also more focused on Nisha. He treated Nisha very well because he felt guilty. She has hurt Nisha, she has betrayed her marriage. He tries to make amends by treating Nisha as best he can. He treated Nisha like a precious diamond.

Until Nisha was in prison. Sandra came to Agam at the hospital. Agam was surprised and shaky, but honestly at that time his love was no longer there for Sandra. His heart was already one hundred percent owned by Nisha. Just Nisha. But somehow Sandra came at a time like this.

"I'm sorry for separating you from our son" Sandra said, bowed sadly. He knows it's embarrassing. But he had no choice.

Agam was still staring at his chair, watching Sandra's face look very pale.

"I have end-stage brain cancer." Sandra gave a photograph of their son.

"You also know my life is very difficult, right? I put him in an orphanage for two months. I want him to get used to my absence. The doctor sentenced my life to only three more months. I don't have time to prepare for Anna's future. For that I beg you, make sure Anna lives a good life. You don't have to take it to your wife. Just keep an eye on him, and make sure he's okay. My parents are dead, and I have no one left for Anna. You're my last hope."

Agam grabbed Anna's photo, his two eyes looked pushy. His hands were shaking too. He looked at the fruit of mass love then full of haru and guilt.

"What's his name?"

"Anna's... Anna Dansyah's." Sandra accidentally pinned Agam's name behind her, in the hope that Anna would always be around her father. And that hope is now realized. He could leave Anna quietly.

After the departure of Sandra. I visit Anna more often. But which father's heart was not sliced when he saw his son live mediocre in an orphanage. While he lives with great worth and adequacy. Agam decides to take Anna home. He made up the story as neat as possible, lying to all his family. He also lies to Anna, takes Anna to a psychologist, and imparts a new memory to Anna. He instills that it is his biological father, and Nisha his mother. He also made up stories for Anna in such a way that Anna could continue to live like her peers. Without having to know the whirlpool of conflict that occurs between adults.

I thought everything was going to go well. He plans honestly, as he has prepared his heart and mind to see Nisha in pain. But unfortunately, this lie was revealed so quickly.

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"I'm sorry, Nisha.I'm sorry..." Agam pleaded for forgiveness. He is a bajing4n who is shameless. He is a very disgusting human being.

Nisha brushed her tears. "Your story is very sad. But my life is more sad. I lost my son, my womb, I endured pain in search of a surrogate womb, but all I got was betrayal."

"I'm even ashamed to call you my son..!" furious Ambar clenched his hands. He did not expect, the son he was always proud of turned out to do something dirty.

"I'm going home to my parents." Nisha got up to her room. The crying did not stop. What should he relieve this pain with?

He packed his clothes, then put the suitcase in the trunk of the car. At the same time, Anna saw it. He approached Nisha with a sad face. He did not want to be separated from his mother.

"Where are you going..? Why did you bring a suitcase? Mama's leaving Anna again?" the boy put on a sad face, his eyes saying he did not want to part with Nisha again. He knew the state of the house was hot, seeing the look on the face of the oma and her papa were very upset.

Nisha did not answer, looking at the child she did not do. His inner being was extremely sick even just by hearing the voice of the child.

"Nisha.., let's talk about this. Don't go Nisha..." Agam tried to stop Nisha, but it was free.

Nisha is not shaky at all. There's nothing more to talk about. The more he explained, his heart was getting stabbed deeper.

"Mr...! Mama...!" Anna cries hysterically as Nisha's car drives away from home. He even ran so hard, he fell. But he got up again and ran after Nisha's car.

"Anna..," Agam caught Anna and carried her. "I'm sorry papa, son." she cried.

"Mama.... Anna wants to come with her mom." Anna's crying is getting broken on her papa's shoulder.

I guess I can't do much. The situation is very broken now.

While Ambar can only be silent at the door, still not expecting the polemic that Agam caused. He has no right to prevent Nisha from leaving, or to ask her to return, because betrayal is a wound that has no cure. The wounds will continue to be felt at any time.

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