Papa To Oleander
5. I Didn't Expect

Goslings

He's fast asleep.

My beloved woman is asleep in my arms. I never thought an opportunity like this would come again. I never thought I would enjoy this time with him again. I did not expect ....

****, man. I didn't even think that he would let me be here to accompany him. In fact, if he really does not want to, he can call security, or make a noise that can make me go outside the room even forbidden to be around the hospital area.

But he didn't do that. He initially denied my existence, repeatedly telling me to leave, but it was only a cover. To cover up the real feelings he felt.

I'm sure of my feelings, but that doesn't mean I like what that means.

It means he feels lonely. He needs a friend. Not just from his family. Olavia, whether he realized it or not, was feeling fragile because of the son of a bitch's actions.

By the way, where is he now? Why isn't he here? Don't tell me I'm right again. Please God, don't tell me that the son of a bitch doesn't want to take responsibility for the consequences of his actions.

Goddamnit! Fucking shit!

Earlier, I foolishly followed my heart's desire and climbed into bed to embrace my beloved woman. If there's anything in the world that could paralyze me in an instant, it's her tears. Especially sob. I was instantly made not to dwell.

Okay, okay, okay. You may say I'm full of bullshit because the truth is I left him after such an important night in a woman's life. However, swear to God's name, guys, at the time I thought that it was the best thing I had to do.

I have to study abroad. Although money and transportation have never been a problem for our family, but I really mind if he has to spend his High School life by pining for me, suffering because of my same miss, I think, or tired of having to go back and forth Jakarta-Massachusetts which spent twenty hours more.

Not just that. I also could not bear to let him through everything on his own, without me being able to accompany him, holding his hand, hugging him, wiping away his tears. So, yeah, that's it. I chose to increase the distance between us, destroy the bridge that was not even finished, and burn the fields where the seeds of hope were sown before this.

I chose to run away in the middle of the night, disappeared for more than five years, pretending to be a stranger in the years that followed, and pretend that what happened that night never meant anything to me.

All I do is for one reason; I want him to enjoy his school days to the fullest. I want him to explore himself and the world. I want him to find himself. Because, had we been forced to build a relationship with approximately sixteen thousand kilometers of distance, I don't think we would be here right now.

He was asleep in my arms.

After arranging the position in such a way, making sure his body is comfortable, the hand that is being fitted with the infusion is safe, I whisper the promises that this time I will try to fulfill with all my might. Believe me the same. There is not a single word that comes out of my mouth that I do not mean. Especially when lying sideways on the edge of the bed like this.

No man wants to put himself in the most uncomfortable position and make false promises that will only be wasted. There aren't. Sure, deh. If anything, maybe he's the dumbest guy ever.

And I'm not gonna be one of those morons anymore.

I'll do anything to make up for my mistakes first. I'd do anything to get my adorable lady, the lofe of my life again. I would do anything to keep him from being lonely and feeling sad like that again.

I was shocked when I heard the door open. I immediately checked my woman. Fortunately, he was not disturbed by the sound.

I shook my head, then placed my index finger in front of my lips as a signal for him to slow down his voice.

"Oops!" he chuckled as he placed the tray on the table beside the bed behind me.

The feeling of annoyance grew in my heart. Why, this guy? Time not understand really told to be silent even whinyesan?

I was again surprised to feel a foreign touch on my arm. Immediately I jerked something that turned out to be the hand of the Ners.

Goddamnit!

"What the f*ck?" furious me. I didn't expect that this Ners had the courage to do the thing he just did.

Now it's her turn to be surprised. Maybe his brain used to tease the man can only catch the signal that I am not one of the people who can be used as prey.

"Touch me one more time, I'm making you jobless for life!" I threatened while trying to hold my voice so as not to wake the woman in my arms.

An jing is right this chick!

His eyes grew bigger, obviously fear started to creep up on his body. "Sa-sa-I c-cu-just want to say that it's time for B-Bu Ol-la ma-kan s-dayang, P-Pak."

"Get the f*ck out. And don't ever appear in this room again" I command while continuing to maintain a straight look into his eyes. It's okay if later my neck must be sorted because the sore looks back over time. Obviously, he should stay away from my woman.

Ners Indah couldn't get out of the room any faster.

God fucking. How dare he hold me. I am not his patient. Make what try?

I tried to calm my heartbeat which is now being tight due to emotions.

Maybe I should start believing in Olavia's instincts. I should not underestimate his judgment and solely blame his hormones that are unstable. I shouldn't just think he's jealous.

Ah, but is it possible that he was really jealous of that Ners Lacking attitude earlier? What is it, behind his dislike of violations of the nursing code of ethics L—eh, genit-genit ria to the patient's family does include violations of the code of ethics, right?, Olavia would rather not like it anymore because the one being teased was me?

Is it possible that if the Kunyuk Oliver teased him he would also be angry earlier?

Hm. Why am I thinking, huh? And why does it feel like cramps in my right leg so lost instantly like this think my adored woman turns jealous if there is another girl who takes me?

Uh!

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