Parents For My Baby
PROLOGUES

My feet are on this steep road. I honestly don't know where this leg is going. I have very little money, and I don't know until when this money can support me and the baby in my womb. This body felt so tired, the baby kick in my stomach was getting tighter. These feet are not able to step, while all I see is Your house. Oh God still mengantaskan this body in Your house even if only for a moment.

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The crying baby broke, I can only give thanks. When I was no longer young, I could still give birth normally without any problems. Your Gift is Great, O God.

I heard the voice of a man singing the Adhan in my son's ear. I don't have much time to see it. Within hours I had to part with him.

At first glance I saw him again, he was such a handsome baby, his eyes were round and big. Yes, those eyes were very similar to her. Remembering it is too painful for me. The trauma was not lost in my memory. The man who was my first love but always ran away like a sinless loser. All his words were full of hypocrisy, and his promise was just a false promise. But stupidly me, until this moment I still love him.

I looked at the baby again, the child I bear and I gave birth to with great struggle. An hour after giving birth I was taken to the treatment room. Tonight is my last night, tomorrow morning we are allowed to go home and I have to part with him.

I can't sleep tonight, I'm looking at a little baby who sleeps so soundly not far from me. This heart still hurts so much to imagine that tomorrow is my farewell day with her. Sometimes I just want to run away and take her away and live with me. But I also have to think about the feelings of those around me. I don't want to disappoint them all.

It's heavy, it's heavy, but it's all for his own good and the good of everyone around me. His new family is one of the richest families in town. A bright future awaits him. 

The husband and wife have loved him so much since he was in my womb, I can only see them holding you in love and happiness from behind this glass, staring them off to take you.

'Goodbye son, may we meet someday, I will never forget you, you remain a part of my life even though we cannot be together' my inner heart, weeping bitterly.

I also walked away from this hospital through a different path to them. I could no longer hold back my tears when I saw you, and evading was the best path right now.

I will return to take care of my other son who still needs me as his mother.

I have had enough of this bitter life, I will reassemble my future with the door of repentance. My sins are too many, but I believe God is Forgiving.