Parents For My Baby
Happiness

We stepped inside the hospital, until an ICU room I saw from behind the glass a middle-aged woman seemed to be asleep, small hoses seemed to stick to some parts of her body.

"What's the pain in Mom?"

"Mila's complications, heart and kidney disease."

"Astaghfirullah azim thing, you're patient Mas, which father?"

"Yes Mila, I'm going home to pick up some of Mom's belongings."

We sat in the hospital park not far from the ICU. "How are you, Mila? We haven't seen each other in a long time, sorry I just asked, I was so panicked I never had time to ask you about it."

"Okay, how are you?"

"I've never been good since we parted Mila, my life has been so empty, only Amanda can treat my void even if it's just for a moment because I can't see her every time."

My heart ached hearing his words, so much I wanted to say but my tongue was muddled. "Mas, I'm sorry I ignored you."

"What's wrong, the most important thing to me is your happiness, Mila is my mistake so great that you can never forgive me and give me a chance just once? Can't we be full parents to Amanda?"

Clear details began to drip down my cheeks. "I'm sorry, Mom."

"It's okay Mila, sorry if my words make you sad."

"Yes, I can't accept you, but I no longer deserve to be with you, my body is even so dirty, inappropriate for a good person like you."

"You mean Mila?"

"Find another woman better than me."

"There's no woman as good as you Mila, you're the only woman in my life that I really love."

"I'm not that good, Mom, I'm not as good as you think, I'm so dirty."

"What really happened to your life Mila?"

I just cried sobbing at Anton's question. 'Do I have to tell you what really happened to me?'

"I'm sorry I can't say it yet." But suddenly Anton clasped my hand and hugged me so tightly.

"I miss you Mila, never leave me again, I've suffered so much over the last ten years, it's been so hard without you."

"My mother's dirty, you don't know what really happened to me!"

"What really happened to you Mila?"

I cried, but I didn't want to give Anton false hope, I wanted him to know my situation so he could forget me soon.

"Mas a few months ago I had given birth to a child."

Anton was so surprised to hear my words. "No way Mila."

"But this is the reality."

I then took my phone and I showed you a picture of me just giving birth in the hospital.

"That's why when you came to my house a few months ago I wasn't home, I was in Madiun Mas."

"Then where's your son Mila, who's the father?"

"Randi Mas, I was so stupid to be lulled by her seduction, we then had an illicit relationship behind Randi's wife until I was pregnant, when I was pregnant she just dumped me, that's the cause of my mother Mas's death, Randi was so cunning, he did all this to our family to avenge him on Dad."

"Astaghfirullah is a bad thing, then where is the baby now?"

"My family is so ashamed of what I did. When I became pregnant, I intended to go to the house of Mba Tari, one of his friends there who intended to adopt my baby, but while on the way to the airport, Mba Rani's car broke down. I then kidnapped Randi, he also raped me and dumped me so far as to Banyuwangi, he intended to kill me by throwing me into the forest, but fate said another, I was able to survive and be helped by such a good man, he was the one who adopted my son now Mas. They are married couples who have been married for many years but have no children."

"The events that I've been through have nothing to do with you Mas, I don't want you to fall into my troubles either."

"At least if you want to communicate with me, you don't have to give your child to someone else, we can raise her together into one family with Amanda."

"What do you mean? I've been so dirty, there's no way I can be with you anymore, look at me Mas, my body has even been touched by a depraved human like Randi."

"But I only love you, I don't care what has happened to you, which I know I love you so much, have you forgotten my promise if I'm only going to marry you?"

I was so shocked to hear Anton say, I didn't think he could accept me with all my dark memories. He took my hand and hugged me. Anton wasn't Randi, he always loved me and accepted me for who I was. The promise Anton made was the promise of a real man, not a false promise like Randi. I was so stupid I couldn't tell the difference between falsehood and sincerity.

"Let's go back to me."

I could only nod in his arms. Just as he took off his hug, Anton's phone suddenly rang. "What's up, huh?"

Anton's calm face turned into a deep panic.

"Mila, Mila's mother we need to meet her quickly!"

I nodded, we ran and went to the ICU. Behind the glass looks Mom is looking at us, her hands like pointing at something. A doctor came out of the ICU.

"Is there a lady named Kamila?"

"I doc."

"Please see Mrs Angela, she'd like to talk to you for a minute."

I then went into the ICU. I saw that Anton's mother was lying down, her beautiful face and her graceful body had disappeared into a shady face and a fragile body.

He smiled at my arrival, some hose attached to his hand did not dampen his desire to hold my hand. "Mila maa sorry." she said so cleanly and stammeredly, I knew she was so hard to speak. I nodded and approached his body.

"Don't move and talk much Mom, Mom's condition is not possible. Let's forgive each other, Mila also has a lot of fault with Mother, we forget the past Mom, and open a new page, Mother must be healed, I must be able to accompany Amanda to adulthood." I said while crying.

I really couldn't bear it and was so sad to see Mom's situation. Mom smiled at my words, then her face looked at the ceiling of the room, she looked breathless and so hard to breathe, I went to call the doctor.

Behind the mirror, we saw doctors assisted by several nurses so busy dealing with the condition of the mother who seemed to worsen. Suddenly I saw the electrocardiogram next to Mom had stopped, I could only cry.

Before long the doctor came out and told me that Mom was dead. I was so sad to hear that today was really my last meeting with him. Anton and his father, though, were devastated by Mother's departure, but they looked calm, as if they were ready if bad possibilities occurred.

I picked up the paper bag in front of me after paying for my groceries. Then I saw the ring now ringing on my ring finger. I smiled at her, I didn't even think this was happening to me, I thought that I would never be able to get any more happiness after what happened in my life.

"Mamaaa." My daydream was startled by Amanda's voice.

"Amanda, how come Papa's the same Brian?"

"That's behind again buying ice cream."

"Find me beautiful." Suddenly Anton had stood by me and kissed me.

"It's nothing, it's in a public place."

"Why indeed? we're husband and wife."

Such a light answer really made me anxious and hit him on the head. "Mama Papa have not fought tuh tuh shy diiatin people, kasian dede Brian so confused."

We laughed at Amanda's words. This is my dear little family, a few months after Anton's mother died, we referred and did not feel the age of our marriage had been running for three years. The presence of the second child we named Brian also adds to the happiness in this small family.

Although I now have a new family, but I never forget Kevin, I am still on good terms with Miss Winda, even they attended my wedding reception with Anton.

When I walked out of the Mall, my phone rang. "The phone call from Ms. Sugeng, I picked up first yes, you please take care of Brian."

Anton nodded then pushed Brian's stroler towards the car.

"Yes, why?" But there was no answer, all I heard was a cry.